Believe it or not, because of that remark “I’m dying” disturbed my emotion the whole nite. I had this mixed feelings and my overworked brains produced me many different ideas of what situation might he be in for him to use the remark “I’m dying”. Damn, I hate guessing games!
And then, I finally found out the truth that he was totally not serious about “dying”. He sms-ed me again the day after talking about all the funny everyday thing. I didn’t ask him why he said something “not funny” like that because I didn’t want to sound like I was overreacting. I learnt after that, that I was only fooling myself to let myself worried. Why was I being too emotional that nite? If you want my attention, Just Say Something Sweet. Don’t use any word that made me feel like my negligence causes someone’s death, you understand me? Logik ka you guys use something like that to show “protest” yang org tidak sambut your call? Come on lah! Gila punya kerja!
This took me years back when one of my ex-boyfriends did something like that. I knew I did something wrong and he had been very patient already. I still talked to other guys even when I already had him. But my intention was only to have friends to have fun and good laugh with. Maybe I didn’t realize that to him, I was overdoing it. But believe it or not, none of the guys really got above my boyf. One nite, my boyf just broke his silence. LET’S END THIS RELATIONSHIP HERE. Out of nowhere, I was feeling so so shocked and that nite, I was wetting my pillow like crazy before I went to sleep. The next day, I caught a fever. It was all because of the break-up. I had no idea why he made such a decision that time.
After such a painful nite, he came back to me after only separating in a short time. Only then he was ready to tell me the truth. “I never mean what I said. You know why I ended the relationship? Because I want to get your attention!! Don’t you know I was damn jealous that you still talk to all the guys when you already have me? You’re too busy talking with the guys and you might have forgotten my existence! I have to say something like that to make you start looking at my ways again! Can we get together again? I’m sorry for all I did.” I just stared in disbelief. Gotta be kidding me! NO you idiot! You don’t just say something serious like that just to get my damn attention! The relationship is all he got with me, why jeopardize it just to get a damn ATTENTION! Can you at least say it properly and nicely?
You guys…DON’T DON’T ever do anything like that EVER again! Why do you have to use some desperate lines to get a woman’s attention? I repeat…DON’T DO IT AGAIN. That’s my final warning. Ok? (Haiyaaa!! Bikin paning kepala otak me only!)