256's Hair Agenda

Wah I am soo Generous Today!! Hehehehe. Let me explain a little on this hair agenda. The picture of me at the right side of this blog is actually An Old Hair. I took the picture before I decided to get a haircut. The hair became too thick and boring. It was a sign for me to get a new hairdo. I actually went to get a haircut and my hair was short by half! Omigawd! I lost my long hair trademark just like that because the hairstylist thought if I didn't want to lose so much hair, I shouldn't get a haircut at all. So she just went ahead and spoiled my long hair. I only showed you guys the shorter hair once - cos I wasn't proud of it.

And these pictures below are my hair NOW! It has grown long again before I can be brave enough to show it. Hahaha. One impression that u guys can get from "my hair shows" every now and then is that 256 is kinda obsessed with her hair. *Lols. The truth is, NOPE! I recalled going to work without combing my hair. I am not really fussy with my hair. Only when I take pictures that I want the hair to look good. Other than that, I don't really care so much walking around with the messiest hair. Hahahaha

The reason why I take this picture is when I started to get tired of my hair. It's starting to get too thick and messy and it's really torturing with the hot weather so I want to get a new hairdo! Some of my guyfriends suggested that I should have my hair permed this time, and yes, I think I'm going to really have it permed this time.

But this is the hair that you guys gonna remember me with...cos no matter what the new hairdo gonna be, I won't show it that easily. Hehehe. But looking at these pictures, make me wonder Do I actually need another hairdo? I guess I do. No matter what, I'm just thankful that I have this hair. I mean, Thank God I have a hair!! hehe.

Straight or short, long or curly...Yes, Thank God we have a hair! :)

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Nice Blouse Or...?

Today I’m wearing one of the latest favourite blouses. It’s not tight at all and very comfortable to wear. It doesn’t really show the shape of the body but I still think it gives justice to the womanly curve. Hehe.

A few weeks ago, I attended a family gathering. I wore this same blouse I’m wearing today. After the prayer session, one of the relatives came straight to get me. I was a bit shocked because she never talked to me before. The way she came to get me, I thought there was something really important that she wanted to tell me. Guess what…

“Nice oo baju kau. Di mana kau beli ni?” she asked me while she kept staring at “something”.

Then I thought, “Doii…pasal baju pula. Ingatkan apa tadi”

Then I answered her, “Err…This blouse ka…Di mana sudah sia beli tu ahh… Oh, this one sia beli saaaaanaaaaaaaaaaa Penampang, kalau nda silap laa..” (*Lols)

She added, “Jauh jugaaa. Ndakan la sia mau pigi sana mau beli baju ja kan.”

“Yaa jauh la juga…tapi memang sana la sia beli ni.” I said.

“Nice oo kan? Tinguk tu pattern dia di chest tu pun…cantik oo…”, while looking closely at my “chest”. *Lols. The blouse has a different pattern on the chest area. It’s very simple but gives so much difference to the whole presentation. The way she stared, made me think jokingly, Omigawd, did she mean the blouse of the boobs? Cos she kept staring at that area. Hahaahahahahahaha. Not trying to sound funny, but it happens sometimes. I remember I have this one friend who always look at other girls’ boobs as we went out together. She always commented on the boobs, whether the size is too small or too big – but enough for me to say that there are ladies who “appreciate” the view of other ladies’ breast. Whether they are not so happy with their own, or they are just sharing the happiness with giving remarks like “This blouse looks good on you.”

I am not sure if this one was one of those cases. Hahahahahahaha. But luckily she’s a female. Cos I imagine reacting differently if it were a guy who asked me that. So don’t stare too long at “u know where” cos she won’t buy it if you use the excuse of “wow…nice blouse”. If I get so nasty, I’ll say, “Jan la kau tambirang sana. You mean the boobs ba ni kan??” Hahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahaha…nasty nasty…

Morning everyone! Heheheehe. I didn’t jadi take a break from my blog. Cos I sayang my babyblog so much ba.. *Lols (Padahal semalam ada ba ni urang tagih2 update di blog. Sampaikan kalau nda siap satu post, karang nda nyenyak titun. Hahahaahahaha)

Would You Want A Smaller Breast?

Earlier today I watched Wanita Hari Ini (12 PM) and the topic is about "XXL Breast (Payudara XXL). This is in fact a very interesting topic for me because I never actually came across talkshows that discuss about the problems revolving around having extra big breast. Yes, we heard about women going extra miles just to have bigger breast. They would do Anything including going under the knife just to make sure that their breast are fuller and plumper. The limelight has been on them for too long already. Have you guys ever thought about those who are already blessed with that big breast that some women can only dream to have? So are they happy about it?

The difficulties that are faced by women who have big breasts include Appearence; when they have to put on larger blouse to make their breast less visible, and they also find it hard to look for clothes since the breast area can sometimes be too tight to fit comfortably. The second one is Health; cos bigger breast weighs more and this is actually an extra burden for the woman to carry around. It will be hard for them to follow sports activity because of the extra weight on the breast which can limit their movement and if they still do it, it will cause strain at the back and shoulders. Socially: They will easily attract men's attention tailing them just to have a glance at their big-sized assets, and some girls don't enjoy this attention. Some nasty ones can even call the ladies embarrassing names that refer to their big breast. Isn't it strange that while some ladies do everything to get big breast, the ones who are blessed with it are getting funny reactions from the society?

One interesting question posed by the host was "How does a woman know if her breast is too big or normal?" Let me guess what you guys are thinking. You must say that if the woman's breast is big enough to fit D cup, Oh that's too big. The answer is very interesting. The doctor say, It Depends. One can fall in D cup but still think it's NOT so big. And some can be in B size and already think it's too big for her. Even THIS is actually Subjective. So according to the Doctor, women define their own breast. You can have a C cup and think that you have a perfect breast when others might think it's too big for your frame.

I found out something behind this talk. We are born the way we do. If we are short, we can only wish to be taller. It's something like that. There's always something that we dislike about our physicals. So the more you want changes on what you have, the more unhappy and unsatisfied you are about yourself. I don't blame you if you feel this way. You're not alone. If you see that smiling lady who is looking really jovial and carefree, even she also has things that she would want to change with her looks. But this is about Acceptance and try to live with "your blessings" openheartedly. Our physicals are only "what's outside". People who are serious about us will see us beyond our physicals. So I think that people who dedicate their life into altering and modifying their body are just Too Unhappy with what they have. Imagine how much energy wasted, anxiety and even unhappiness that cloud their mind and how much time wasted to entertain all those.

I've been there too. But it's really just in the mind. I tend to feel that womanly assets make us What God made us to be, A Female Creature. Whether it's big or it's small - Do you think it actually matters that much when women are losing life over breast cancer? I make a good point if I say that, after all said and done, I would be thankful enough to even have a Healthy breast. I think you ladies should too. :)

Believe Her Or Not

Girls are just like guys. Some good with words, some don’t. But trust me, in a few things that frequently come out from the girl’s mouth, maybe you should decide To Believe Her Or Not…

Especially when she says that…

1. She doesn’t care about what people say when she’s overweight as long as she’s happy inside. But then she still wants to lose weight, “It’s not because I’m worried what they think but it’s really just for health”

2. She believes that every woman is beautiful in their own way and that she doesn’t wonder why a handsome guy would fall for a “less beautiful” woman than her.

3. Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder and that she never compares herself with her colleagues on, Who’s prettier?

4. She thinks a guy would be teasing her around by calling her names like Cutie and tells you that, “I don’t deserve to be called that.”

5. She is not the jealous type that it’s okay for her friend to get all the attention from the guys.

Hehehe. What inspires me to write this is a chit-chat that I had with a friend earlier today. She always gives me the impression that she grooms just for herself and she’s never judgmental towards the other women when it comes to their looks because she always tells me that it’s not good to think bad of others. But today’s spontaneous chat told me otherwise. Even the nicest girl like her is not spared from being A Normal lady that she does think that looking good is so far the best advantage that she would pick from all the other choices that she could have. That yes, we ladies do care about how we look and we easily feel intimidated by those who look better than us. And yes, we listen and care so much about what people say about our looks and it makes us feel down when people say something not so “funny” about our physicals. What makes us different is that some of us are so much into denials thinking that it’s better to wave the white flag than try to be bold just to lose. (Yeahhh…u and your neverending theories kan [256]…go to sleep laaa u dattt… *Lols)

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAAHHA :ppp

Note: Am I really Kidding? Hehehe. Go Figure.

…Bukan Yang Cantik

I overheard perbualan dua orang salesgirls yang sedang berdiri sambil tunggu customer. Maybe di kedai baju tu. I don't remember sebab benda ni berlaku berminggu yang lalu. Sorang tu yang kenampakan sibuk bercakap dan sorang tu lagi dengar. And ngam2 time sia limpas tu…sia dengar this part,

"Semua ada yang cakap mau yang jujur la, setia la, macam2 la, tapi teda satu pun yang cakap dorang mau yang cantik."

Masa tu, I couldn't help but smile sebab I think the girl yang bercakap tu baru baca dari satu magazine or dengar dari radio tentang "Apa ciri2 idaman yang ada pada perempuan yang dicari oleh lelaki." Believe it or not, I was once in the girl's shoes too. That time I was still wondering apa yang dicari oleh seorang lelaki pada seorang perempuan. Cos dalam macam2 reason tu, satu benda yang the girls CONFIRM yang lelaki akan cari. Iaitu that girl mesti CANTIK.

But the more you read or hear, memang betul JARANG yang terang2 cakap mau yang cantik. Like that one is cliché already. Dorang start sudah cakap pasal quality lain such as understanding la, pandai hormat orang tua la…macam2 la. Semakin banyak membaca dan mendengar, lama2 bila tiba2 terjumpa a guy asyik bercakap pasal kualiti fizikal – Sia mau yang cantik, yang seksi and bla bla bla…suddenly u tengok dia lain2. You rasa yang this guy betul2 immature and belum kenal dunia.

I mean, generally, when we grow up, we tend to judge everything from the physical. Cos itulah satu language yang "tidak payah orang ajar". As long as u have eyes yang healthy, you see something and then get the impression from it. If apa yang u nampak tu something nice, you akan suka. So as we grow up, that very basic thing actually terbawa-bawa. Mata kita ni memang suka tengok yang nice2 only. Tapi sebenarnya – MUNGKIN juga yang "apa yang sedap dilihat oleh mata" kita ni sebenarnya terhenti di sana saja. Sebab impression yang lahir dari pandangan tu cuma Itu Kulit Buku ba guys. Hehehehehe. Itu isi buku belum tau lagi.

Dan mungkin juga lah lelaki2 yang tidak meletakkan kecantikan seorang perempuan tu sebagai criteria yang dicari pada gadis idaman dorang tu sebenarnya sudah PERNAH KENA sebiji sebab pernah mengejar2 si cantik dan akhirnya find out bahawa oleh kerana terlalu obsess dengan kecantikan dia tu saja, akhirnya he learnt a lesson. Sebab finally dia sedar yang setakat cantik dan sedap mata memandang tu saja nda ke mana pun. Satu kali u find out perangai dia teruk, baru u sedar yang apalah ada pada wajah yang cantik. That's why la, from experience dorang sendiri or experience kawan2 dorang, maybe dorang pun find the middle way bahawa bagus cari dulu kualiti itu dan it's a bonus if she's pretty. Another quality yang I think the guy SURE paling suka antara kualiti2 lain yang maybe dorang pun nda sedar – dorang mau perempuan yang SAYANG dengan dorang. Kalau tu perempuan serba-serbinya bagus, tapi dia tidak pun tengok ke arah you, sama juga you akan terus mencari perempuan yang buat you rasa like "the real man" yang tengok u as someone yang boleh protect dia, and orang yang dia boleh harap dan akan rindu you when you jauh and worry if you sakit. Masa ni baru u tau yang "Babai sajalah" dengan kecantikan itu semua. Banyak benda lain lagi yang jauh lebih penting dan berbaloi dalam mencari pasangan yang sesuai untuk spend life sampai hujung nyawa.

So untuk golongan2 perempuan yang diwakili oleh salesgirl yang sia terlimpas tu ari…now kamu jangan heran lain kenapa perempuan2 yang kamu nampak as Si Plain Jane tu pula yang "jauh lebih laku" daripada kamu yang kununnya Si Cantik Manis yang semua akan tinguk bila u limpas. So don't worry so much la about cantik or tidak cantik, sebab tu semua di mata kamu ja. Lelaki yang bakal jadi pasangan kamu tu ada mata dia sendiri. Bukan pun dia minta pinjam mata kamu. Hehehehe. So jangan decide for him sebab dia sendiri yang akan decide if you're "pretty" or not. Dan IF he thinks that you're pretty and you tidak setuju sebab you tinguk di cermin you tidak juga macam tu Snow White, then now you know apa yang dia maksudkan itu adalah you have the BEAUTY yang dia cari, dan beauty yang dia cari tu bukan sama definition sama yang si beauty pageant. So if you ask me, of all the qualities yang ada sama kita, I think itu "Cantik" akan ditaruh di pisuk2 so inda apa la kalau inda menang tu Unduk Ngadau ba… Ingat tuu…dorang mau cari yang baik, yang bersopan santun, yang pandai masak, yang bijak…all of that…dan Bukan Yang Cantik ba…*giggles.

The Big C and The Big D

We are all terrified to hear the Big C. The Big C refers to Cancer. People who are diagnosed with the Big C, is going to face the Big D very soon. That’s what people thought. The Big D stands for Death. The Big C is predicted to be the number one killer of the human race. Sepa sangka…sel2 dalam tubuh yang bekerja untuk kita ini akhirnya ada cara untuk bermusuh sesama sendiri dan memusnahkan “mereka2” yang baik. Dapatkah kita halang sel2 ini daripada merosakkan selebihnya sel2 baik yang bertungkus lumus buat badan kita sihat dan cergas buat aktiviti harian? It’s such a painful truth. Tidak cukup lagikah dengan hal2 di luar yang tidak mampu kita sentuh, melihat “kekotoran” dunia ini yang dipenuhi perjuangan yang sia-sia dan greediness yang menyesatkan. Omigawd….tidak cukup lagika? Bila2 masa kita tidak tau macamana any of this outside element could end our life in a second. Tidak cukup lagi dengan tu semua…rupanya diri kita sendiri pun bila2 saja akan berpaling tadah kan menamatkan riwayat hidup kita dengan tragis sekali.

I am a bit emotional when I write this. Yesterday, one of my goodfriends dropped by at my office and I told her about the bad news about one of our goodfriends. That friend’s husband is recently diagnosed with nose cancer. We all feel sorry for her. She has been the softest person among us but she’s blessed with a good life. Now life is turning its back on her. We get the news from someone else and not from her own mouth. Whether she thinks that it’s not that serious to share it with us, or she is just so affected by it that she rather not let many people know.

So when I told that friend who dropped by yesterday, she gave a different reaction. This friend is nothing new to the big C. She lost her mom from breast cancer years ago. So when I told her about the pitiful situation of our other friend whose husband diagnosed with nose cancer, she said, “It’s not that terrible. He could still recover. You never know.”

Even the Big C is not giving a clear view of HOW close it is to the Big D. According to her, breast cancer could run in her family cos her other aunt is also one sufferer. And surprisingly, her aunt is still alive until today. Her mom first discovered a small lump on the breast which was very early and it was considered only the 1st stage. You hear it so much from the TV that if you detect the disease at the early stage, your chance of recovery is almost 100%. But this is what happened to my friend’s mom. After the cancerous lump was removed, it came again silently after spreading to the chest area after only a few years of relief. And it was when things were not going better for her mom. Finally, her mom called to eternal rest after years of fight. Speaking of the aunt, who was only diagnosed with breast cancer at 4th stage, which my friend would refer her breast as “totally damaged”, which was given only 6 months to survive, is still around after 10 years suffering from it. The damaged breast was not even removed. She only visits the hospital for the monthly procedure. Yes, she is still very much with her normal life. She eats anything like healthy people. So my friend has a reason why she is not so alarmed talking about the Big C, cos the fact is…You Never Know how close you are to the Big D. You might not be that close and still have many years to live. You just never know.

But speaking of not having to deal with the Big C, don’t forget that the Big D is going to happen eventually. Then I told my friend… “Don’t you think these diseases are just excuses so that we don’t just die from sudden death?” Or maybe, it’s not even excuses at all. Actually, we need NO excuses at all. If it’s time, it will happen. The Big D doesn’t need an excuse or a reason. You can just sit there healthily and laughing and your life could be snatched from you in a split second. You never know.

I don’t know what to say. I just hope that we are given enough time to experience this life and to spend enough time with our loved ones and carry out our mission in this world. I just hope that The Big D isn’t so scary to us anymore– knowing that we are blessed so much with such a wonderful chance to be once be alive and that we have no regrets…Cos we have lived our life to the fullest. What are we waiting for, right?

We have so much things to do. We have a life and we must begin appreciating this biggest gift, NOW!! Do we have time to quit hoping because of our troubles? Do we have time to ruin other people’s lives out of jealousy and hatred and greed? Now you know how small these problems are when you think that Everything will come to an end once your have reached the end of your road.

Let’s start LIVING now, guys. We have a lot of jobs to do. :)

Note: The most interesting line that my friend said was, "It all depends on how badly do you want to stay alive. If you quit hoping, you'll lose the fight against anything that is trying to invade your body." Maybe that's the secret why the sick Aunt is still around despite late detection. Ask yourself. How badly do you want to be alive? Suddenly this is a lot more than just a The Big C and the Big D. Don't quit this fight to stay alive. Survive this till our last breathe.

Si Brutal Yang Manja

I have this funny little thing to share with you guys today.

I always think that I am sometimes hot-tempered, and I do speak bad language when I’m mad. Yes, I do swear. And yes, I like to get into arguments especially when I think I’m right. I would raise my voice just to emphasize that Hey, I have a point and you’ll see I’m right all along. Yup, I am this type. Some people even refer me, si 256 yang tidak mau kalah. *Lols

I have seen girls who are soft and so polite, like you won’t hear their high pitch voice in a million years. Definitely I’m not one of them. I’m the type who wear pants daily, and no one can force me to wear baju kurung again since after college years. That tells you I'm not so much into "ayu2" appearance. So I think my points femininity is running thin the more I tell you guys about what I’m like. Hahaahahahaahaha. The only thing that looks so friendly in me is my Smile. I realize about it too. People got fooled by my smile thinking that Oh she’s soo friendly. Yeah, maybe sometimes I am. But I think I’m quite harsh when it comes to the words that come out from my mouth. I always expected to gain that reputation of being somekind of a sharp tongued person, but matched with some okay manners that save me from the title Miss Monster. *Lols. [256] and her neverending bla bla bla. My oh my, she talks a LOT! Hahaahahahaha

I remember when I was in secondary school, I received some comments from the new friends. “Soft betul o suara kau ni,” then I was like, “Ya ka?” Then I thought, Oh, she must have caught me in the low mood when my voice was translated into a rare chord. *Lols. But as I grew up, my language got even harsher. Maybe I was once a softie too, but not for long. I tend to be more vocal and opinionated. (Nothing new to my blog readers. Hahaahahaha)

So I always think that I am The Vocal one among my friends. So I remember during the college holidays, when we spent our time at home, I received a phonecall from a closefriend of mine. She was also my course mate and my housemates in the hostel. She was among the friends who know so much about me.

Her: Kau ada call ka tadi?

Me: Tadi? Teda. Why?

Her: Bro sia cakap ada kawan sia cari sia tadi.

Me: Ohh…nah, bukan sia la tu. Teda dia kasitau nama?

Her: Teda pula, but my bro cakap, “suara dia manja maaanjaaa.” Jadi tu la sia tanya kau tu.

Me: *terdiam kejap. Isshh bukan laa. Kalau sia jadi kau, sia terus pikir tu orang si F. Cos setau sia, suara si F yang manja2. (Kenyataan cuba mempertahankan reputasi brutal *Lols)

Lepas ja dia call tu, sia terus rasa lain ni ba… Sia nda tau pula biarpun sia ni banyak cakap and sometimes tu memang berbisa juga, rupa-rupanya kawan2 sia anggap sia ni tidak lebih daripada si suara Manja yang suka membebel. Hahahaahahahahaahahahahahahaha. So I’m not brutal enough ka pula all this time? Doiiii…sampai hati dorang kan…Bah ya laa…ku terima seadanya.

/me pingsan tawa

So now you guys paham why I always refer my voice as “my doremon voice” and whatever funny expression that I made turn me into a pokemon cos I have to accept the fact that because of my small voice, I can’t as brutal as I thought I could be. Hahahaahahahahaha. Have fun all :)

Do You Know Your Value?

I listened to a guyfriend arguing with someone on the phone. "He shouldn't say something bad about my work in front of my customers" The tune was rather harsh to come out from his mouth. I could feel the tension and anger. The next day I got to ask him, What's with the phonecall yesterday? Were you arguing with someone or what?

He told me that a friend complained about his work in front of his customers. The customers felt bad about it because they "had a second thought" whether or not this guyfriend really gave them the best service that they expected. But after hearing opinion from someone who is also in the same field (photography, that is), the customers told this guyfriend what the other person said. The guyfriend felt so upset that someone belittled him, looked down on him and his capability.

I told him a very useful knowledge that I learn from a motivational book.

"If you build your self-esteem on other people's approval, then it only take ONE bad comment and already you're down. But if you build your self esteem on yourself; that you believe in your strength regardless what people think about it, then people can say 100 bad things about you and you will still standing strong."

Ask yourself, do you need other people's good comment to think that you ARE really good in something?

You must understand, that Life is an Art – it's subjective. I can come to you and say that your hair sucks, but the other person says your hair is gorgeous. And have another 10 persons- you will be fed with different comments from different perspective. Some might say that your hair is too thick for your face, or long hair doesn't suit you – hell, people stop at nothing. You look at the mirror and ask yourself what do you think? Maybe it all that matters in the end. WHAT YOU FEEL about yourself.

The other day, a good guyfriend dropped by at my workplace. He used to be my bestfriend; the friend I discussed a lot of issues with. One thing about this guy, he's quite particular about things. The first encounter that we had years ago was that he thought I was someone to look up to. He admired many things about me. He officially admitted that he was really a fan of mine. I was flattered because he wasn't so generous with compliments. He likes to analyze people and criticize. That's him. So it's normal that when we occasionally meet, he always notices changes in me. He would complain if I gain weight, or when he saw pimples on my face, or if my hair is messy – he would say it straight. I hated it. I hated it when he comes and he always try to find something to complain about. The recent visit to my workplace was a bit different. He was happy to see me. And I was starting to talk like a train – trying to tell him many things about my plans. He smiled – I thought that he must miss my train-talk. The talk that can go on and on speaking of ideas and motivations that you don't always hear. He smiled. Despite knowing that he's a very judgmental person, I cared very little. I know that he might complain about my new haircolour that looked so striking, or maybe he complained about my shirt. But neither did I care about. Yes, maybe I gained some weight from the last time that we met, he complained about it. "[256], do you actually find pleasure in putting more weight, or what?" Hahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahhaah. Dammit. He pointed at the pictures that I put on the wall. "Look at those pics. If you maintain those weight like in the pictures, I think it's much better." I just laughed at him. I don't know why his opinions don't matter anymore. I mean, I DON'T CARE!!

Maybe I always have it in me. When people say something bad about myself, it made me feel down, but…I have to say sorry to them because still it doesn't change what I feel about myself. I don't know what's wrong with me. Even if people's bad comments can make me cry or sad, but still I DON'T buy them. I know deep inside that I am "something else". If they say I'm bad, I always know that I'm not that bad. If they say I'm good, I also know that maybe I'm not that good. But I know in the areas where I'm good in, yes I am good. And I don't ask people about that. I come a long way to realize my strength. You can't come to me and say something bad to me and make everything collapse in a second. No, no. You can't do that.

So maybe this is what the motivational books means about Building your self-esteem on yourself instead of on other people's approval. I think I'm a little bit there, if not completely there. So what my guyfriend thought about me gaining a little weight (for example) – is so so little to bring me down. It's just WEIGHT, people. Do you know MY VALUE as a human being? It's not on weight. I can keep gain a little or lose a little, but MY VALUE as human being is not affected. I can still feel very valuable because I still have the capabilities that I appreciate having. All these physical things are just a pinch of salt of who you are. But if you're handicapped inside, you can wear the fanciest gown, wear the most expensive make-ups and still it doesn't change your real value as your human being. That's why I don't worry so much what people say about my physical or anything they can see. If they say something bad, I just know that I'm better than that. If they say something really good, Uh-oh…Maybe I'm not that good yet but thanks, maybe one day I can be that good. Value is not what's physical. Someone can like you because he think you have a cute face, you have a nice body and all – but if that's all that you have, it's like an EMPTY can. And all those physicals are not there to stay. We need to have something else to put our value on. Now, don't you feel silly that you always care so much to be called beautiful, sexy, hot and all the bla bla bla – those values are vulnerable. They are not even a value at all. They are just – Add-ons.

I can't tell you what your value is – that's your job to find out :)

Finally The Heel Finds Its Own Match

Remember the other day when I received a phonecall from my other phone just because I accidentally kicked on it while it was in the handbag?

Just now, I did something to prove that I was going nutty or what? I actually wore different type of heels each foot, OoooMiGawdddd!!!

Hahahaahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahaha

I have 2 types of high heels laying on the floor where I work. I often take off my shoes because I want some comfort while working. So today is another day, but to prove my level of insanity, (*Lols) I went out walking using the heels that I let my feet do the job without the help of my eyes. I Trusted my Feet, you people. Anything wrong with that? Hahahahahaahahahahahhaahahaha. I mean, while I was going out from the building, I felt so comfortable walking. My two high-heels are very different. One type has the string, one doesn’t. But their height is the same. I didn’t actually notice it.

So you guys imagine that I walked with different kind of heels. Not that I care or think that people care enough to look down and see the different colour. I mean, Wow…you must be my big fan to do something like that. *Lols. But I was now prejudice with my level of Sanity. Hahahaahahahahahaahahahahahahaa. I’m kidding.

The other one is red, the other one is silver…can I hope that nobody sensed anything so strikingly different underneath? *Lols.

Omigawd Twofivesix[256], to need a therapy or what? Get your senses back together for haven’s sake!!!

Note: I remember the day when I wore my blouse inside out back in college years. I mean, what…this thing has been going on forever? Freaking kidding me!! Hahahahahahaah…Kidding peeps. I don’t hope for more funny scenes that I cause all by myself. Please [256]. Not again okay? Hehehehehehe.

Muahss all.

NOTE: Yes, the ladies are from the gameword characters. They are pretty, I don’t mind. Hehehehe.

"The Dirty Pants"

I remember when I was much younger, accidentally kicking something that made me slip to the floor could be a very embarrassing experience. I would blush and hide myself – surviving that humiliation. Ouch? How terrifying could it be to actually slip on the floor and knock yourself down?

I hope I don't have to answer why I'm into high-heels, but I'm into those and it's not anything abnormal. Do I have the time to worry about what I wear on my feet, Anymore? I mean, the girls are sometimes too fussy over the petty things like – Oh, I'm wearing a pink dress, I must find a pair of cute heels with pink ribbons. Yeah, but maybe those days are going to be over someday too… for them, for anybody for that matter. Well, I realize that I'm not anymore into "the best matching" of what I wear on my body and what on my feet. I mean, is it even worth it to fuss over small matters? Or was it just me?

With serious matters that we have in mind now, I'm sure that we gradually letting go one by one the matters that were once bothering us. Yeah, finally we can tell which one is petty and with one is important. More and more responsibilities and commitments are claiming rights over our mind. Suddenly, we don't care so much about the little things anymore. I will tell you this experience of "The Dirty Pants".

I went out from a supermarket and I was on my way to the opposite road. I remember that I had to walk on a bumpy, stony undone road, which clearly needs extra alert especially for someone like me who cannot go without my high-heels. But I think that the stony road was just nothing. Why would I care that much, it's just a bumpy road that I had to walk a few steps and that's about it," as my mind would say. My hands were busy looking for something in my handbag, I was looking for my handphone, about to call my mom. It happens a lot when I could not find a freaking anything in my handphone whenever I need it! Omigawd! So I was re-acting the normal view of digging into my handbag looking for a hidden treasure that is nowhere to be found. Dammit. I needed to make that call to tell my mom that I was done shopping. And as I was on it, my feet haven't stopped walking, and did I say I care about the bumpy small road? *Lols. My heels actually slipped while I was stepping on a stone or maybe anything I didn't have time to examine, but enough to make me lose my balance and landed my knee on the ground. Wearing the pants that are very close to white, the knock down caused some dirt on my pants and it could clearly be seen in that colour. You guys know what I did? My hands kept digging into my handbag and it didn't change a little even when after the slipping incident taken place. A guy who was sitting not far from there saw it and he made that look, "Omigawddd!" Yeah, something like that. If he's allowed to say more, he might say, "Why didn't you be a little more careful?" Hehehe. Oh well, his face explained it all. *Lols.

That looks in his face tells me that he thought it was a terrible incident for someone to slip on that bumpy road and got her pants dirtied. I just got up and turned my face to him and smile, "Hahaha, Ouch! Sorry that it happened." I glanced very quickly to my pants and saw the dirt on the knee. "Nevermind." The guy, still with that panicked looks, told me, "See your pants got dirty". I smiled at him and said, "Don't worry about my pants." And then I just kept looking for my handphone and finally found it and made that call. Without even care to wipe the dirt from my pants. I just walked and managed to cover it with the jacket that I was holding. The view of the man made me smiled. He took it more seriously that I did. It was my pants who got dirt on, not his. It was me who slipped, not him. But it's about how you see things, you get me?

To me, it's just a small matter. I slipped, my pants got dirty, so what? I think my detergent can take care of that dirt. It will be clean again the next time I wear it. We have more serious matters in hands, remember? But actually, I was surprised too with myself. Because you guys should know that I do care about the small things. But this incident tells me that I have evolved to something else too. I don't believe that I go through day by day without taking something and put it to heart. I don't believe that I survive difficulties without learning something. I don't believe seeing life in its truer form, as I age, don't turn me into a better person. And that dirty pants incident tells me that I can't be the same person I was 5 years ago. This is the new me. I can stop and still care about the teddybear that got abused by the tailors next door but I can't spend another hour grieving on what's gonna happen on the teddybear if the abuse continues. (Hahahaahahahahahahahahahahaha Kidding guys.)

Let's worry on more serious stuff, ok guys? So dirty pants? Say Bring it on, bebeh. *Lols

The Burden Of HiGH TasTE

Is [256] a High-Taste person? Interesting question. I have one guy friend who thought I was some High-class lady, who wears expensive things. Yup, he told me that. I forgot to deny it because he’s wrong. I wear what looks nice on me. They can be cheap, but when something looks nice on you, sometimes it can look expensive. I told you guys a story before that I wore this average pair of un-branded jeans and this friend of mine, who belongs to that “Victims of brands” category, thought I was wearing a pair of expensive Levis jeans? The secret is the good cutting, and nice blue colour and how you pair it with a shirt that make the jeans even more appealing. I want to ask these 2 questions.

1. Isn’t it being High in Taste is for people to see that you look Better than those who have taste not as high as you? What if you spend so much and still don’t look as good as other people who spend very little?

2. Or Is it just for Personal satisfaction that you are happy if you’re wearing a very expensive socks even if nobody knows it? I mean, people might think you are wearing the same Cheap socks like them, Nobody appreciates that you spend so much money on your socks, but as long as you know that you’re spending so much on the socks, you feel happy, and that’s about it? Is that true?

I mean, Is High Taste is dedicated for your own satisfaction or Is it just for the intention of Showing Off?

I had a long chat with a lady yesterday. She’s one sophisticated lady. How she dressed, her hairstyle and even her handbag, Enough for me to see that She’s very high in taste. But she can’t run away from economic slowdown from last year so it affects her spending. She used to drive a BMW car and she told me she has to give away the car because she couldn’t stand the maintenance that cost her up to RM20k. Okay fine. Because she didn’t foresee that she has to give away the BMW, she has given her Honda Jazz to her brother so she’s left with nothing. She has to borrow Malaysia-made cars belong to her other family members and she said, Damn…driving Malaysia-made cars are really bothersome. She complained that she’s considered in dangerous financial level because the income that she makes is only enough to cover the normal monthly spending. “I couldn’t stand keeping that Beamer anymore. I don’t mind about the monthly installment that cost me more than RM2k, but it’s the maintenance that is really sucking my blood.” Fine, that’s wise to think that way. Now she’s thinking of buying a new car. What car? She said to me, “Anything but Malaysia cars.” Ouch!

People know that she used to drive a Beamer before, what…”Can they accept seeing me driving a Viva now?” It’s more than just Malaysia cars suck. It’s more than that. It’s about Status. Even when people noticed that the Beamer is nowhere to be seen, her neighbours been asking, “Eh, where’s your BM?” She answered, “I want to look for a better car, so I sell the car.” That’s what she said. She told me she had to say something like that because she doesn’t want these people “clapping hands” to see her downfall. Ouch? Yes, that’s how far she took that matter. She might be almost broke and all, but this is about Saving Face. As she was talking, I nodded because I understand her situation. Speaking of a new car, I suggest her a few imported cars like Toyota Vios, Altis that are becoming quite common here – she said, those are quite cheap. I’m thinking of another Honda. If I used to pay RM2k for the installment before, RM1k shouldn’t sound too much for me. But I said, “But you also have to consider the maintenance and parts.” She said, “Yes, but it can never get more than BMW. If Malaysia cars, the service cost is RM50, and for imported cars like Honda, it’RM300, still far cheaper than RM20 k right?” (Hahahahaahahahahahaha…Suddenly something is tickling me.)

Wowww…isn’t that TIRING? You have to go extra mile trying to decide what’s best to buy because it’s more than just What’s economical, and What’s cute, and What’s comfortable – suddenly all the other issues come out to the surface. It’s not even what is Cheap and reasonable. It’s about – what’s maximum she can get with what she is making monthly. I mean, to me, that’s Very Tiresome!!

This lady is totally my opposite. I’m nothing like her. I don’t worry about what people think whether or not my purse is thick. In most cases, I actually prefer people think that I am as ordinary as possible. I mean, I DON’T CARE!! I only care about my own heart. If I’m happy, you can’t exchange it with even if you have a Lamborghini. So what? I think that if you wear flashy expensive things, you will only draw so much attention, and some people enjoy that kind of attention. As for me, I DON’T. I repeat, I DON’T. I just want to have a happy and peaceful life, being able to do what I like and maybe make my loved ones happy with what I can offer– and just enjoy life in its most original form. This post makes me thinking that sometimes we have to look at other people to be even grateful with ourselves.

Anyway, I don’t think to be high in taste is their fault, however, I am just grateful that I am not one of them :)

Si Mata Keranjang

Sepa mata keranjang sini???

/me angkat tangan!!!!!

Hahahahahahahahahahaahahaha.

Haa! Silap kamu if u think lelaki ja mata keranjang. Actually…perempuan pun mata keranjang jua baa! Betulllll…nda caya ka??

Perempuan mata keranjang ni…macam lelaki juga. Kadang2 pandai cover line. Kununnya muka innocent bila ada lelaki limpas, padahal satelit dia sudah analisis tu. Oh, kiut ka tu lelaki. Then analisis badan dia lagi. Adakah ketinggian dia ngam sama badan dia. And what about his hair?? Ngam ka tidak dengan muka dia? And then tengok tu arms dia, ada muscle ka tidak? If got muscle nampak so masculine. Diam2 dia piwit kamu tu dalam hati. Hehehehehe

Itu baru yang basic2. Bila ngam sudah di mata dia, dia analisa tu baju yang dia pakai. Ngam ka tidak, or pandai dressing ka tidak. Pas tu, dia tinguk tu seluar. Kalau sikit silap pun, tidak ngam sudah di mata dia. Kalau semuanya mcm okay ja, tapi tiba2 nampak dia punya baju tuck out, inda ngam…Ohooo…Warna seluar tu, ngam ka tidak dengan warna baju. And then what about his shoes. Got socks or not.

And then when he walks by…do you think that only the men will look at the girl’s butt? Hahahaahahahahaha. The girls will also look at your butt as your walk. They also complain is your butt is a little too big for you or otherwise. (*Lols). So actually bukan perempuan ja yang have to worry about hips size…thank YOU for sharing this burden with us, MEN! *Lols.

Jadi…[256], adakah kau mengaku kau ni mata keranjang? Oh well, macam gini saja la. Inda jua la sia mau mengaku, but kalau kamurang paksa jua sia mengaku, sia TERPAKSA jua mengaku untuk menyenangkan hati kamurang tuu…Sampai gitu sekali kan. Baikk sungguhh. (/me berabis ketawa)

Silap haribulan…perempuan punya “Proses Analisis Ke Atas Spesimen Cromosome XY” adalah jauh lagi detail. Siap tinguk lengan tu lelaki. “Ishhh…Gali pula sia tinguk so hairy o that guy…Aiyaaa~!! Yaiii!! ” And then, masa kamurang minum2 depan dia tu, jan kamurang nda tau dia ble detect tu daki di kuku kamurang that. Bila kamu ketawa, dia tinguk tu gigi kamu kalau dia ble nampak plak2 gigi yang kelihatan. (/me pingsan tawa)

And then, bila ada satu lelaki limpas, mata dia pun akan ikut that guy…dengan terang-terang dinampak oleh lelaki yg sedang duduk semeja dengan dia. Ishh…Lelaki pun pandai jua tapuk2 woo…perempuan lagi yg kadang2 lagi staring dari kamurang that. Kalau hensem dan bergaya, lagilahh mata dia ikut tu lelaki sampaiiiiiiiiilahh saaaannaa Ranauu…Nah, apa macam, ada fight ka?

So the women sekarang, more than ever, TAU yang bukan dorang saja yang jadi Subject of evaluation kepada kaum lelaki cos Now dorang pun pandai juga guna mata dorang dengan bulu mata melentik tu untuk BALAS BALIK kepada kaum lelaki. If u think kamu ja boleh mock a lady sebab her butt is too big for her, Guess what? Now it’s Fair and Square. Kamu akan tekejut kalau kamu tu, even back in schooldays, my friend sudah label this teacher sebagai “kelebihan berat” di punggung sebab she always saw him naik his motor. Uinaa…Tu mataaaa…Menganalisis kaitu geng?

Hahahahaahahahahahahaahhahaahhaha…Layan ketawa jap.

Then my pengakuan ikhlas is…Yes, I AM a mata keranjang punya kategori. But not in the sense untuk mencari kekurangan lelaki tu. I always adore a guy for kelebihan dia. But memang sia jenis suka tengok…sia nda segan2 pusing kepala untuk tengok the guy dengan lebih lama. It’s like Appreciating the view ba tu…Ha, sama mcm kamu jua ba. Tapi the guy must have something yg menarik perhatian sia, baru la sia mau tinguk lama. Ha, sama mcm kamu juga kan? Jadi apa beza antara kita?

I remember kawan lelaki sia ni – whoooa…Pandai betul dia cover line. Kalau kau tinguk dia ni, mata tidak pandai merayap pun. Asyik sibuk bercakap tentang kerja, bagi penerangan kepada orang yg datang sama dia. Kalau kau limpas, kau rasa dia tidak pun tau yg kau limpas sebab dia betul2 buat expression yang kununnya dia nda peduli. Satu kali bila sia akhirnya ada chance cakap dengan dia one to one, dia cakap dia sudah pasang satelit since day one lagi. Dia pakai ujung2 mata dia untuk tengok how I eat, how I walk, how I dress, how I talk dan macam2 lagi. Siap laporan ba, bilang si Jojon. *Lols. “How come I didn’t sedar u do all that?” He said, “Ha, jangan silap. Kau pikir lelaki mau kasi tunjuk ka?” Nahh… kalah sudah kamurang oo guys… Sia tinguk pun tidak tapuk2 woo… Apa macam ni geng?

Are we ladies are more Honest about our Wandering Eyes or what? Even in this, we can still manage to do it courteously and pleasantly in the name of PowerSharing ba…so next time, you ladies jangan complen2 dengan your man why mata dia selalu wandering masa keluar makan dengan kau – jan banyak cakap…BALAS balik baa…Kalau dia mau rasa Oren ka, Mangga ka, yang penting u buat balik apa yang dia buat – let him decide apa Perisa yang dia rasa or…is it kana gigit semut itam or semut api. If you think kamurang ja ada THOSE NASTY EYES, you guys are totally wrong.

We Are Now EVEN!! Yesss!!!!! (Hahahaahahahahhaahahahahahahahhahaha :PPPPP)

NOTE: Want to know ciri2 lelaki yang menarik perhatian sia? Senang jaa…Sepa2 yg dapat rapat dengan sia tu, memang dorang ada ciri2 tu… EhemMMmmmmm…ada la yang blushing ni kan. Hahahahahahaaha.

Have a Blessed Monday ya :)

"Operasi Gold-Digging"

Perempuan2 yang suka mengikis harta ni dipanggil Gold-digger kan? Ahaa…then activity pengikisan harta tu bolehlah digelar sebagai Operasi Gold-Digging… Hehehehe. Suka ati dia ja buat nama operasi. *Lols

Dengar cerita2 artis2 kawin VIP ni…macam satu trend pula. Entah dorang sempat ka bercinta dan menyelami hati budi masing2. Or just “Sia kasi kau begitu begini…Kau sanggup jadi bini sia kah?”

Sia mau sebut nama pun, sia nda sampai hati pula mau sebar gossip yang memang betul. That artis kawin diam2 dengan Datuk, and tup tap…mau cerai sudah. Sampat la juga dia ada rumah ½ juta di KL biarpun teda anak. Nah, nda berbaloikah? Kawin paling2 lama pun setahun dua, and then, bila cerai, umur masih muda, teda anak, ada duit, ada harta… Then what? Ahaa…Of course sekarang dia main petik jari saja mau lelaki muda mana satu dia mau…Di zaman sekarang yang ramai lelaki yg suka tumpang duit perempuan, memang lagilah buat janda2 muda yang kaya-raya ni macam Pisang goreng Panas!

Memang mudah untuk kita judge dorang ni. Mata duitan lah, pisau cukur lah, materialistic la…Memang mudah mau mengecam dorang ni dengan macam2 tuduhan. Sia sendiri pun kadang2 cakap lepas juga dengan perangai dorang ni. Dan kalau sia layan lagi laser mulut sia ni…sia cakap…Can’t you guys see it?

IT’S NOTHING BUT A STRATEGY ba!!

You pok satu jerung yang banyak duit, make him marry you, and entitled you to get harta sekian2, make sure at least ada satu rumah, satu kereta mewah di bawah nama you. Cash, and then lain2 asset yang u boleh buat dia taruh di bawah your name. You buat la apa yang boleh sementara itu jerung sedang khusyuk jatuh cinta sama kau. Then after semua sudah secure…you pun mula la cari pasal…

U cakap la dia tu jarang balik rumah cos usually ni jerung2 ni semua sudah berumur, ada bini lain. Lain lagi urusan kerja dia yang ke sana ke mari. Lain lagi dia pok mau cari markas baru. Pok yang gebu2. Inda dapat jadi bini pun, mistress pun jadilah. Yang penting, nikmat dunia jangan disia-siakan.

So si gold-getter ni apa lagi. Mula sudah buat hal Dia cakaplah dia rasa dia tidak dicintai la, diabaikan lah, Selalu ditinggal-tinggalkan lah…or buat la apa2 isu yang menyebabkan itu lelaki pikir dia memang tidak dapat menunaikan tanggungjawab dia sebagai husband. Buat la drama air mata sikit – make the guy rasa so guilty and bagi lagi harta2 yang boleh dibagi. And bila u rasa sudah cukup, then mula la perbesarkan lagi hal2 yang kecil. Cakap la yang you tu masih muda. Dia nda dapat berikan u nafkah batin yang sepatutnya. Then…sudah banyak sandiwara macam tu, tertekan la si lelaki ni. Kalau u berani, u minta cerai la. Kalau u tidak berani, u tunggu dia jatuhkan talak. Heheheheehhehee.

[256] <-- besinar2 sudah tanduk dia menghasut ni urg ni (HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Nahh…kalau inilah modus operandi perempuan2 ini…apa kita mau panggil ni? Operasi apa ni? Bukan Operasi Gold Digging ka that? At the end of the day, sia mau sentuh satu hal. Memang senang kita kutuk dorang ni, tapi dari segi Strategy of Survival- dorang ni lah yang pakai otak. Mau main bersih di dunia kotor, buli pakai lagi kah? What they do is ikut trend. Kalau itu katam sudah jalan miring, u mau jadi katam yang jalan lurus buat apa? Bagus lagi u jadi pokemon la like that… (Hahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha)

[256] <--- tulung pasik mulut dia ni sebab laser betul. *Lols.

Sia tulis this post bukan untuk cuba mengutuk golongan materialistic ni, but try to see sisi kehidupan yang selalu jadi bahan kutukan. Don’t worry, sia pun pernah jadi macam kamu juga. Only recently I took my time and fikir betul2. Sia ingat apa yang sia pernah tulis.

“A GOOD LIFE IS NOT A FLUKE"

Kita tau bahawa jadi baik dan lurus tu adalah apa yang BAIK untuk dibuat. Tapi kalau mau cakap pasal kehidupan dunia ni, kadang2 value kau bukan dilihat daripada kebaikan hati kau. If you are penniless, dorang tidak tengok pun dengan u. Pedih memang pedih. Tapi kita mau object pun, memang ini lah yang berlaku. So these ladies hanya play along saja. Ada kesempatan, dorang akan ambil. Tapi buat semua org ada kesempatan yang dorang ada. Bukan semua perempuan ada peluang mau jerat tu jerung2 besar yang ada banyak harta cukup untuk kasi kemewahan sama berapa banyak perempuan yang dorang berkenan. So, kalau berada dalam posisi ini, maybe apa yang gold-diggers ni buat hanyalah menggunakan kesempatan yang ada dan gunakan akal.

My bestfriend told me. “I’m not Materialistic, I am just Realistic”. Which is true right? Everything is about money. I mean, Almost Everything. Sia pernah tengok this talkshow artist2 bercakap pasal hal ni – masa tu sia terkejut sebab terang2 menegakkan harta dan kemewahan. I still remember Azhar Sulaiman bagi pendapat dia, “It’s better that you cry in a Mercedes, than in a Kancil” That means, you mau cinta tu cinta juga, tapi you kena consider the possibilities. Daripada u pok itu lelaki2 yang teda duit, bagus u pok yang boleh bagi u kesenangan. If dia mau curang, dia lari pun, hati u sakit camana pun but you bukan kena tinggal lugai2. At least it is still BETTER than crying dengan tangan kosong.

Sia tulis post ni supaya sia sendiri pun tidak kasi penat2 kepala otak sia mau kutuk2 perempuan yg kejar kemewahan dan menggunakan strategi yang sia tulis tadi tu. Dorang yg buat begitu, dorang yang kaya dan mewah. Hati dorang gembira ka tidak, itu kita pun tidak tau. Tapi daripada hati tidak gembira, and then miskin lagi…lagilah teruk kan. Hehehe. At least if dorang ada anak, tidak la lari2 di jalanan, naik turun tangga, teriak2 macam teda mama bapa. At least orang2 yang berkaitan dengan dia pun dapat kebaikan daripada “kelicikan” dia tu. Sepa tau, dorang cuma perlu licik “sekali” ja, then dorang dapat hidup senang sampai hujung nyawa.

KESIMPULAN: Masing2 cari bahagia dengan cara masing2. Cukup la tidak menyusahkan hidup orang lain kan :) Gold-digging pun, at least merasa jua hidup kaya. Yang kita2 ni pula, jangan pula asyik mau mencari silap, sedangkan hidup sendiri melarat. Pikir2 kan la bilang si anu…ntah sepa tu. Lupa sudah sia. *Lols

Should I Wear That Cap Again?

Kemarin…si [256] buat hal. Hahahahaahahahaha. Sia janji with a friend to go KFC, so sia kena keluar ofis kejap. But sia a bit shy dengan my new hair. Hehehehehehe. So sia nampak tu cap yang bergantung, then I pakai la.

Nda pernah2 ba si [256] pakai cap. Tiba2 kemarin pandai pakai cap. Dorang pikir sia saja mau tukar angin mau dekat2 Xmas ni. Padahal manada. Sia punya perasaan sakit jiwa terhadap rambut sia tu terlalu kuat sampaikan sia rasa if orang rasa keganjilan tengok sia pakai cap tu, cuma perkara kecil ja. Heheheheheehehehe. I feel so kejanggalan also ba. Macam kin rimas tul pakai tu cap. *Lols.

Then sia jalan kan, terjumpa tu staff2 yang sedang berbual. Then I smiled la sama dorang. One of them said, “Wahh cantik kamu hari ni.” Then I senyum kambing only. Sia nda peduli apa dorang cakap. Dorang puji ikhlas ka, dorang nda ikhlas ka…sia tul2 nda peduli. Dorang tidak tau…I was trying to cover my hair. Hahahahahahahaha. So anything other than orang cakap pasal my hair, still sounds good to my ears. Or maybe dorang actually puji my hair yang cuba sia tapuk tu. Kita sama2 nda tau. Hehehehehe.

Then…masa sia jalan tu, tiba2 one of my bros called me. Aiks…heran sia. Rupanya dia ternampak sia dari jauh so dia pikir sia mau join dorang jalan. Duii… sempat2 lagi ba sia kedapatan in that cap. Punya kelucuan sia. Senyum2 ja my bro tinguk penampilan sia yang lain sikit masa tu. Hehehehehehehehe. Mimang dia hairan bin ajaib juga tu ooo. Nda pernah2 pakai cap ni baa… Hahahahaahahahahaha. Sia tahan hati ja. I told them sia nda mau join cos I want to meet my friend di seberang jalan.

Then dari jauh lagi I saw my friend, I made that signal, pointing at my cap and laughed. I know dia hairan, so I awal2 kasitau yang, “I know u hairan” *Lols. “Uiks…tiba2 pakai cap ahh ni hari?” Heheheheehheehehehhehehe.

Then sia cakap. “My hair ba!!!” Dia cakap, “Why your hair?” I said, “Like Alien!!” Hahahaahahahahahahahahahaa

Then sampai di tempat keja sia, kami duduk and I opened the cap. Cuba tinguk betul2 ba my hair, macam alien ka?” Hahahahaahahhahaha. Dia tinguk betul2 and buat that face… “No laa!! Manada oo.” “True bah?” Nahhh…So, apa macam?

Should I wear that cap again? Hehehehehehe.

I don’t need your answer. Cos I WILL wear that cap again. I have to. Hehehehehe. It doesn’t matter if my friend said my hair doesn’t look like alien, but I still feel like that. Hehehehehehehe.

NOTE: “Yang kau pi buat rambut mcm alien tu apa pasal?”Soalan Baguss!!!…sia nda mau jawab tu. Give me that freaking cap!!!! (Hahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahaha) P/S- To all the Christians, Happy Christmas Eve...Don't forget to go sembayang tonite ahh...muahsss all...Wish semua happy2 dan baik2 saja k... :))

Gara-gara Sekeping Gambar Passport

Ada ni customer datang tadi buat sia ketawa dekat mau pingsan. We know kan, gambar passport ni quite mahal juga untuk diambil. Hanya untuk 4 keping gambar, paling murah RM 10, itupun lain lagi kalau mau express. Dan satu kali keluar, muka pun kadang2 bikin ketawa. Kadang2 macam orang baru bangun, kadang2 macam orang marah, tekejut, dan yang paling haru, kadang2 macam orang gila pun ada juga.

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA

Jadi…ada ni customer sia tadi. Kasi tinguk sia tu gambar passport dia. Mimang lawa la muka dia sana. Sia cakap la, why don’t ambil gambar baru? Since that itu gambar, biarpun lawa, tapi nampak mcm gambar lama, dan gambar tu sudah terlekat di name tag. Negatif tu gambar pun sudah hilang. But dari gaya dia cakap, I know yg dia berkeras mau guna gambar passport dia yang lama tu juga. Ini buktinya.

Dia cerita la, gara2 gambar passport sekeping tu, dia pernah bawa tu gambar yang sekeping tu pegi satu kedai gambar. Dia minta tulung tu apek macamana mau cuci gambar yang sama kalau teda negatif. So this apek guna kaedah gambar balik, dan buat negatif. Geli hati sia. Di zaman modern ni pun, masih ada yang mau guna kaedah gambar balik ka? Lainlah kalau orang tu sudah tiada. Ini masih lagi ampai2 sana. So lepas dia snap balik tu gambar, dia suruh tunggu kejap sebab dia mau cuci 4 keping. Semua service tu dia caj dia cuma RM 5 ja ba. Jimat la tu kan. Hehehehe. Sebab dia ambil gambar lagi, then dia cuci lagi…kira jimat la juga.

Bila dia datang balik untuk pi ambil tu gambar, satu kali tinguk…

“Kau tau...tu muka sia macam tu muka nenek kebayan ba. Itu mata pegi sana pipi, itu hidung pegi mulut…”

Then sia menyampuk, “Then itu mulut…di mana pula?”

“Itu mulut tidak tau di mana!!!!”

Terus sia nda tahan burst out laughing sampai sia rasa mau jatuh kerusi pun ada ba. Tu customer pun, daripada marah2…dia pun ketawa juga tinguk sia ketawa. Then dia cakap,

“Sia bayar tu apek RM3 ja, terus sia capat2 jalan. Bagus la tu sia mau bayar dia dengan muka sia yg macam tu. Punya sakit ati sia. Terus sia kasi kuyak tu gambar ba!!!

Lagi2 la sia ketawa nda henti2. Punyalah payah journey dia untuk mempertahankan gambar passport yang sebiji tu ba. Hahahaahahahahaahahahahaha. Adoiiii…apa la ba salahnya dia pegi mekap lawa2, and ambil gambar baru. Dia ni pun phobia juga ba sia rasa sebab untuk dapatkan gambar passport yang cantik ni bukannya senang. Biasanya macam zombie ba muka kita kalau dalam gambar passport kan? Hahahaahahahahahaaha.

Jadi kamu imagine la…sampai begitu sekali. Lain yg dia hara, muka nenek kebayan yang dia dapat. Gara2 dia takut kerugian pula kalau pegi ambil gambar baru, hanya untuk mendapatkan satu gambar passport yang bikin takut. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Sia pun pernah macam tu juga dulu time masih student. Suka betul dengan gambar passport sia satu ni, sampaikan sia rugi berpuluh2. Sebab kedai lain tidak cuci macam yg original. Nda puas hati, sampai pegi lagi tukar kedai lain. Begitu juga result dia…last2 sendiri juga jara. Hahahaahahahhahahaa. Berbaloikan perjuangan kita untuk sekeping gambar passport itu? Hehehehe

Alaaa…pi ja la ambil gambar baru. Biar la macam muka zombie terkejut, tapi yang penting muka kamu juga. Tapi kalau muka tuan puteri sekali pun, tapi bukan muka kamu, nahh…camana tu? Tapi sayang betul. Pilihan yang ada cuma nenek kebayan ja ba. Jadi bagus lagi tu zombie terkejut la kan, guys?

Hahahaahahahahahahahaahaahahahahahahahahaha

Note: Sia lupa suruh customer sia cakap sama tu apek…next time tidak payah ambil gambar balik. Sekarang ni ada picture scanner ba. And if kita mau jimat dalam hal2 gambar passport ni, ambil gambar pakai camphone, yg penting muka kamu tu ngam. Background dia kamu photoshop ja ba. Hahahaahahahahahaahahaha. Yaa…tu pun pesan nenek kebayan jua tuu… sia cuma tulung sakap jak. *Lols

10 Things That Could Make A Woman Sexy

1.What She Wears – The more skin she shows, the sexier she is. No wonder the market is full of clothes that you thought are made for little girls. No peeps, those are for the ladies so that they could show off more of their thighs and chest. *Grinzzz… (*Lols)

2.Her Body Shape – Bigger breast and hips matched with a smaller waist – The men lurvee those curves, ladies. Should you wonder more why the products for breast enhancement are selling like hot cakes? And those smaller hipped ladies envy those with wider hips although the wider hipped ladies thought those hips are “a pain in the a$$” hahaahahahahahahahahahaa. Ok kidding. :P

3.Her Body Volume – Skinny is more beautiful? Yeah maybe, but NOT sexier. A lot of men decides they prefer the fleshy ones. Don’t know why, you ask them! (So it’s okay to munch into high carb and sugary dessert to achieve what…”Enough flesh to flash?” Erkss!! Hahahaahaha

4.Her Lips – Ouch! Some men thinks those ladies with thicker lips very appealing. So ladies, get the lips stung by bees. /me points at Angelina Jolie *Lols

5.Her smile – according to Kennedy. What kind of smile that the men think is sexy? Sarcastic smile? Baby smile? Clown smile? Hehehehehehe ( Erkss…I made those up :P) Is sharp smile like mine is included in the list? (Hope so. Hahahaahahahahahahahahahhaha. Kiddingz!)

6.Her Hair – This could be right. Some ladies have nice hair to bring out their sexiness. So which one is sexier? Shorter or longer? Some men likes if the ladies do an updo style so it can show the neck. But coloured hair has its own appeal. What colour to the guys find more appealing? Please let me know cos I’ll visit the saloon for Christmas for a new hair colour. (*Lols) Kiddingz!!

7.Her Moves – Ahaa…Maybe, right? When a lady is blessed with graceful moves, everything will look sexy. It’s even the simplest thing like playing with the tips of her hair will make the men droll. Hahahahaahahahha. Not to mention, the graceful dance moves. If you can shake your booties the men will be crazy all over you! Heheheheehe

8.How She Walks – Aha…Is it true? What kind of walk… Catwalk? Hehehehehehehe.. If we are not good with catwalk, can we just do away with penguin walk and still looked sexy? Hahahahahahahaha

9.Her Voice – I don’t know if the voice can make her sexy. What about a very lovely lady with nice body shape, but manly voice? Can she lose her sexiness? Hehehehehe. But I think it’s such a blessing for the ladies to have a proper female voice cos it’s so uncool when people thought you were some guy when you talk on the phone. You guys decide again if a girly voice is enough or is it the way she talks? You decide. *Grinz.

10.How She Writes – Ahaaa…this one is dedicated to me. (Hahahahahahhaahahaha) Erks, a desperate move to make it 10 ba guys…hehehehehehe. I remember that my bro Ulal told me, even the way that I write is also sexy. The words that I use and how I use them, there’s a sense of sexiness in it. He said to me he already thought so from the early time he saw me chatting in the channel. “Even your SMS is also sexy.” Ya kaaa? Alalalalalaaa… Where got wooo…so gud gurl thisss… *Lols. Kiddingz! :PPPP

Nah…kesimpulannya sangat mudah. Sebab SEXY is subjective ba. U can list banyak lagi ikut your own taste. It’s nothing wrong because SEXY could be a good impression to other people. It’s a good feeling that you have towards someone. It’s very thrilling to see this quality in someone coz it raises excitement, compared to when you think someone is just pretty or fair or smart. Sexy is just something else, and it’s so so exciting. Hahahaahaha. I don’t know. Maybe the guys know better! Hehehehehe

P/S – This post is among the most express ones that I wrote so far, because I need to run!! Hehehehehe. Happy Wednesday Peeps…muahsss all