Monday, February 27, 2017

"Cuma Kawan Tunggu Bas Ja Pun"

Hi peeps! Since my title is in Malay, maybe I should blog in Manglish. Why Not!

Actually this phrase came out today, time sedang kongsi some pandangan sama my friend who is so brokenhearted sebab kena ignore oleh her whatsapp crush. Ironinya, the whatsapp guy is someone she never meets, and is NOT interested to meet or have any relationship with in reality. The reason is because my friend is MARRIED herself, but she plans to get a divorce soon and while she is still actively whatsapp-ing that guy every day and nite, in reality she is waiting for A REAL GUY who she can build a stable life with. However, this whatsapp guy is the only guy (apart from her own husband) whom she talks and shares her daily updates with. She says that he makes her happy whenever she's lonely. But she also admits that the guy is not her dream man material. He's jobless and lebih banyak habiskan masa in social media, making new friends, chat siang malam dengan banyak kawan online, sedangkan he should be building his life kan? So reason dia nyata dan jelas. Kalau this guy kena bungkus dalam kotak hadiah pun, dia tidak mau ambil tu hadiah. You get the situation?

So kejadian dia meroyan gara2 dia call dat guy and his phone engaged, dia suspect the guy bercakap sama perempuan lain. Then dia ring berpuluh-puluh kali sebagai tanda protest. The guy pula sengaja tidak sambut sebab tidak mau gaduh with her. Last2, the guy blocked her number supaya dia stop ringing. Now kawan sia ni pula yang dilanda kesedihan sebab dia rasa kehilangan. Kalau dia layan sedih sorang2 ndapa juga, ini dia keep bothering me to make her feel better. So that's why the phrase came out. Secara spontan.

I said, "Kenapa ba juga kau sampai macam ni sampai satu hari tidak dapat bikin kerja sebab terlampau sedih. Sepa juga tu lelaki sama kau? Prince Charming kau kah? Bukan kan? In fact, kau jadikan dia tempat untuk meluah dan bercerita, untuk bikin kau ketawa, untuk kasi teman kau time kau sunyi, SETAKAT ITU JA PUN". Umpamanya kau sedang duduk tunggu bas, dan dia ni happens to be the guy sitting beside you and kasi kawan kau tunggu bas. Adilkah kau suruh dia untuk jangan kasi tinggal kau sorang sedangkan kamu duduk di sana sebab tunggu bas masing2. It's like, dia tidak buli naik bas dia selagi bas kau belum datang. TIDAK SELFISH ka tu? Sebagai seorang kawan tunggu bas, kau expect hak ekslusif. Yang hanya kau yg dia buli pandang, dan hanya sama kau ja yang dia buli bercerita. Ngam ka gitu? In other words, KAU TIDAK BERHAK meminta semua itu daripada seorang Kawan Tunggu Bas kau. Jadi kau tidak berhak meroyan, mengamuk atau cemburu hanya sebab dia cakap dengan orang lain. Sedangkan kau pun ready mau babai dia ja bila bas kau datang. You get me?

Secara nda langsung, sia sendiri teringat kisah diri sia sendiri. I was worse than her. I got close to a guy, invested some of my time in him just for the fun of getting some attention, exchanging sweet words and stuff, just to realize that I didn't want more than that. Awal2 tu bukan sengaja. It's like I tried to see if I could find some potential in him and after a while, I found out he didn't have it, I continued just out of convenience but not planning to go to the next level; tanpa bagitau dia pun. Sia nda pun fikir yang dat guy pun ada impian dia sendiri. Dia pun mau ada pasangan yg dia mau. So apa yg sia bikin? Sia macam blocking that guy sebab I made him believe that I could be that girl for him. Sedangkan sia sudah tau He is just my Kawan Tunggu Bas, sementara "Bas" sia belum sampai. Sangat stupid dan selfish. And guess what, I did it berkali-kali to different guys. Biarpun I didn't cheat on them during "menunggu bas", but I already know I didn't want to go further with them. "Cukup setakat sampai bas sia sampai ja karang." Gila kan? Ladies, maybe kamurang pun bikin macam ni dalam tidak sedar. My advice is, JANGAN LAH. Kau akan dihantui oleh guilt yang cukup panjang. Cukup2 la membagi false hope dengan orang lain. Biarkan dorang naik bas yang dorang tunggu dan jangan tahan dorang kalau dorang tu cuma setakat kawan tunggu bas ja. Kadang2 kau mau rasa bikin silap ni sendiri baru kau tau. Then Be my guest! Guilt kau tu akan cukup untuk "cover" kau punya karma!

Kalau kawan tunggu bas, buat la macam cara kawan tunggu bas. Sepa bas dia duluan datang, wish dia farewell dengan baik2 saja :) Lepaskanlah kawan tunggu bas kamu untuk pergi ke destinasi yang dia tuju, sebagaimana kau sendiri dengan senang hati mau naik bas kau untuk ke destinasi yang kau tuju...Adil kan:))

Thursday, February 2, 2017

Red Carpet for February!

I'm so excited because this is only the first 1st of Month after the New Year. On the last 1st January, I was considered unprepared to really welcome the new air. I'm glad that I did so much stuff to finally feel like it's really New Year this time. Maybe I prefer to follow the Chinese calendar this year cos it feels perfectly awesome after all the changes take place. My personal spaces at home and office, are looking new and I've done quite noticeable changes. Why Not, right? I believe that we can boost our progress twice faster. I feel good about 2017 and I'm gonna Give My Best. Let's do it!

Friday, January 27, 2017



The older I get, the more fears I have. I'm tired of it and I wish that all my fears could just disappear. NOW. 

Thursday, January 12, 2017

The Butterfly Visit

Hi guys. Second post in 2017. 

I've done office makeover for so so many times. I can choose not to, but this year is just too special, I want to do something extra to welcome all the good lucks. Sounds superstitious, right? Hahaha. No, not really. Everything good comes from God, This is how I prepare. 

I have a visitor while the office makeover is still ongoing. A Butterfly. It's so rare to see a butterfly in that area. Of course from the old folks tale, seeing a butterfly visiting your place represents someone that will come to your life. It's often related to relationship. I actually saw the butterfly and took picture of it first and forgot about it, until when my 2 friends were around and they saw the butterfly again. One of them actually noticed the colour of the  butterfly and said, Look!The Butterfly is in your favourite colours! I saw some distinct black and yellow colour. But the excitement in my two friends distracted me. The funniest thing is when they say, Hey Butterfly, Ask your friend to come to my place too! I also want to get married lah! I burst out laughing. Like they are so sure the butterfly visit means that a life partner will come soon. LOLS, If only it's that simple, right? I mean, there's a half joke half truth. Nobody wants to believe in superstitions but once in the bluemoon, you just play along with it hoping that Who Knows, it might just get real this time. Still, who actually rely on superstition at this mature age? To me, it's still a delight to receive the butterfly visit during the office makeover. It adds more emotion to the -getting-a-new-air behind all the rearrangement. 

I feel good that I use my free time to make changes. My old ways won't get me anywhere. I need to work harder. To put plans into actions. I can't let all my creative ideas gone unattended. 2017, I have a big mission and I will do my best. I repeat my most popular thought.

I'm not meant to get things easily. I'm meant to earn and achieve my missions and goals through lessons, failures, bad decisions, bad mistakes - which I have accumulated a lot already. I'm here today because I survive them all. I believe that God is preparing me for bigger things. There is a reason why I have to go through all this, Most importantly, when the blessing comes, I want to be there to receive it. 

Thank you Lord for your guidance. Lets do this, guys!

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Welcome, 2017!!

Happy New Year, guys!! Who among you feel that this is gonna be an awesome year? Come on! Not the cliche faking your positivity, Haha...But seriously, do you feel that there's something about 2017 that is so special. Guess what. I feel it! Other than the fact that 7 is my favourite single number, I just have a hunch that we gonna click and have good times together! Of course, this could just be my wishful thinking but I still gonna go ahead with my days, right. So Why Not? Why not go for it with a lot of good faith!

Guys, I'm here writing this without any expectation. I don't even expect to still have my readers around. I just want to continue writing because once a while when I get to visit this blog and read back my previous posts, I'm so delighted that I wrote all those. I have forgotten most of the feelings. What's left with me if I forget everything? At least I have some records of how I feel at the current situation. So thank God, 2017 feels easy for me to start writing again. I just want to get in touch back with some of the elements in my life, that is WRITING. Hope we gonna see each other more often this year. If you are reading this, Thank you! God bless all of you! Lets do it!

Monday, May 16, 2016

A Phone With A Warrior Spirit


As far a remember, my phone is one durable one that endured all the smashing, throwing and not to mentioned, being charged a few times a day. I could feel its suffering. Many times I thought I wanted to give it up and look for something better, but it's still here with me and I know that it gives me everything I need in a phone. Good camera, good sound, never jam, not even once! I still thought a slightly bigger phone with higher battery capacity would be ideal for my need.

This morning, I woke up with my phone dead. I got really panicked. It never happened in more than 2 years. I tried to restart it, and it continuously stuck at the start-up. I thought, maybe finally it has given up. So I brought the phone to work - with the thought of a replacement soon. But at the same time, I tried whatever to make it alive. (Like a CPR version of phone lah). I was prepared to lose it. thing after another, I could feel that the phone was responding to my attempt to fix it. I could feel that when it was dying, but my attempt to turn it on; removed the battery, removed the sim, everything, and it's like it could feel that I still want it be there. I almost lost hope when I saw that during start up, the colours went haywire, something like what we see when our pc is about to break down. All the apps were not responding. I know that after all the rough handling, it must be having some hardware problem. It did has IC network problem from time to time but it was still under control.

I forgot what I did, but suddenly phone "woke up" from its sickness. It allowed me to reset it, it allowed me to download back all my fav aps, it allowed me to groom it with nice theme and then when I check other things, suddenly everything is working again. In fact, the signal reception that used to be a bit poor (because of the IC thing) suddenly is back to full efficiency. I don't know how long this is going to last but for now, I am appreciating the sight of it, looking like it's brand new. No kidding, guys. Not being a technician makes this experience a quite emotional one. Hahaha. It's not advisable that you get too sentimental with your phone, but if you have a phone that endured all the hardship with you, and for you, I'm sure you will somehow understand that sometimes "a thing" does have affection too.

My phone, thank you for coming back. Without letting me waste money on you, you come back to life. I can feel "a warrior spirit" that my phone has. For this, you will not change hand and you will be with me until it's really time for you to say goodbye. Thank you again for giving me another happy day...:)))

Saturday, April 23, 2016

You'll Never Go Broke By Giving

I learn something valuable today. Not new, but it takes a while to really accept this. That no one gets poor by giving. The logic is, if you give everything you have and left with nothing, doesn't that mean you get poor by giving?

This friend of mine is surrounded by people who keeps asking her for money assistance. She always complains to me that she only has a few red notes and her friends or family are asking for help. She has that extra empathy that makes her the victim of people who take advantage of her kindness. But she ends up giving them whatever she has, thinking that, What if they really have nothing to eat?

But then she shows me how it works. She always gets back even more than what she gives. Then she has more to give to others, and no matter how bad her situation is, she always has ways to survive them, and then she receives even more from her sources of business. She gets new customers, old customers come and make payment, stuff like that. But ocassionally she forgets this too. She will go back to feeling of being taken advantage, and not happy to give. But then she still ends up giving. Whatta giver!

Then she keeps reminding me that Money that comes to our hands, do no belong in our hands. They are meant to go around from one hand to another, pass it to a person in need. That person will pass that money to someone else that helps the person in a way, also by passing it to another hand. In the end, everyone gets what they need from the money being passed around. As long as you are in this passing money circle, the money will always come back to you. Or go ahead and believe this is just God's work. You will never go broke if you serve your purpose of helping another. You don't believe? Try it and believe it :)

Saturday, April 16, 2016


We keep hearing about internet lovescam; women losing money to guys they know from the internet. This is not a new thing. But we still hear new cases like this. Don't you wonder why women still fall for the same old lies? I have a friend who is totally in this scenario now. The internet guyfriend keeps asking for money. They never even meet. She kinda likes the guy because he often sends her religious sharings, jiwang songs that make her float in her own wonderland. Guess what, she gives. RM30, RM50, whatever she has. And then he also asks for credit top-up, to which phone, which network, she will quickly go and buy one. At the same time, the friend always complains not having enough money for her own. So, it's not like "she's in the position to donate".

I'm 100% sure, you who read this will say, Sorry la kalau sia. Satu sen pun tu lelaki nda akan dapat. Right. My reaction is exactly that. Guess what, she's not stupid. She's aware of a foolish situation she's in. But whenever the guy says he has no money to buy foods, she feels pity of him. She knows he could be lying, but she always thinks, what if he doesn't. Recently, the guy asks her to invest in an online business, which needs thousands. She doesn't have that money. Guess what, she silently asks around for the money so that she could join the business.

If you ask me what do I do as a friend? I keep telling her she's looking for trouble. She agrees but she has a B answer for why she must do it. She always picks her B answer - despite thanking me for reminding her, despite agreeing that I'm right, despite knowing through her own judgement what she gets herself into. She's totally awake, I tell ya! 

One day, I asked her. Why is it that you are unreasonably too generous to a person you don't even know? Why, so you hope that he likes you as much as you like him? What it is really?
She was surprised at my question cos she never actually speaks of the reason. After a while, she answered, Maybe because I want that our relationship to last. I'm not ready to lose him yet. Yes, just like anyone would imagine the victims of lovescam are mostly Lonely women. She's lonely emotionally. The guy makes her feel good because she finally finds someone she can talk to like how she would want to talk to a man dear to her. For the time being, she knows that:

1. She might never meet the guy at all since he's from a different state 
2. The guy might be using her just as a gold mine
3. She's the victim of an internet cheater who use only words to lure women but not proof of honesty yet
4. He might never mean anything good that he said to her
5. He's been lying about so many things including his identity

You see, she doesn't have that much trust in this guy either. But in the end, she always picks to be the victim. Whenever they argue, she asks me, "Do you think he will leave quietly and never talks to me again? I said, Either one of you who decides to quit this, the losing one is always you. You are already on the losing part judging from how much money you spend on this guy. 

Trust me I tried many times to knock some senses into her, and she told me she's totally aware. But I understand that: Women are only the same in gender but they are very different from one another. Some women do have overpowering empathy towards others. More than any consciousness about anything else. My friend is in that category. Despite everything, should she get nothing from this internet fling, she decided that all the money that she gives the guy is out of Sincerity. And she rather be called, "The most foolish woman on this earth." cos "Only God knows my intention."

Isn't it adorable when a woman falls for someone? Their emotion will be bigger than their brain. It's not wrong. But I tell her, "If only you do this to the most deserving man." To her, he is that man for now. She expects to find someone better but for now, he's still the one. So I can imagine, how exactly women who got scammed by their internet lovers. Don't think they are so foolish. They are not. Some women would give it all to find out IF IT COULD WORK OUT. It could probably not work out but What If it does? They need to find out and all the material possessions won't trade that possibility that they finally finds the right one. We all have different limits and some women, the limit is till they almost left with nothing.

My question is, Does Love Pay The Bills? Money does. So forgive me if my approach is not a dramatic one. This is 2016 and the common thing people call love IS JUST TEMPORARY. It gets things started, but reality will take it from there. If you get a guy by giving in to his monetary needs - Oh women, life is full of choices. You're right. You are not the only one who make wrong choices. There are many women who were foolish before you. O yeah we'll be foolish for so many reason, but this is not one of them. Women, Life is not about destiny, Life is about choice!! Your precious self deserves the best and if you understand what a creation God made in you, you'll never- ever let anyone make use or take advantage of your compassion or affection. Spend it on the right people and lets do something and put internet love scam out of the women statistics!

Thursday, March 3, 2016

"The Water Bottle"

Earlier this evening, my sister and I got to play this "Spin the wheel" kinda thing, organized by a shopping mall. All you need to do is make a purchase that worth RM50 in a single receipt, and you stand to win something. So we were at the spin counter, registering. I got to spin first, and then my sister. Considering the few results on the wheel, I can say we are quite lucky. We could go home with nothing. But we won something. A water bottle. I picked green and my sister picked blue. 

My sister was so upset. She kept saying that she should have won something better. She spent a lot of money just to be able to spin the wheel. She likes that kind of thrill and especially, a few days before, she saw some people won a lot of interesting stuff. But when it was her turn, she got only a water bottle. The same thing like what I got. 

The difference is, I AM HAPPY. 

I was smiling all the way home. It was such a fruitful day for me. I got to finish my work, went out early to find presents for my lil nephew and managed to find a few worthy stuff, and then I got to eat the meals I was craving since yesterday. And spinning the wheel is like an extra bonus for me. I could not help but be happier!! 

When I saw how upset my sister was, I kept telling her, "Many went home with nothing from spinning the wheel. That water bottle looks like a good one. It's even a BPA-free. It's safer than most of the bottles out there." But my sister kept saying that she was really not lucky because when other people spinned it, they got something nice, and all she got was a water bottle. Hahahaha.

Then I remember something. I didn't tell her how I won my water bottle. I told her, actually, the wheel pointer was exactly in the middle. It was either I won something or nothing. To be honest, the pointer was more to the side of the "no prize", but the assistant who monitored the wheel still told her colleague that I won a prize. I won my water bottle out of someone's kindness. Maybe she thought, she lost nothing from doing a favour. What she did was very kind and I was so thankful. That's how I got my water bottle. 

My sister was surprised to hear that. She got her water bottle by playing fair. In other words, her hand is much luckier than mine. I could pity myself for getting a prize out of mercy, or I could curse my hand for not doing a better job, and the list go on. But I didn't. I saw the good side of everything. Then I said this magic line, "Be grateful in everything." "Bersyukurlah dalam setiap perkara". I can't think of who is more at loss in every situation, other than the people who are hard to please. Who are hard to sense blessings in every little things. Happiness is not a material. You can't buy it. Or touch it. But you are free to feel it. It's an inside job. Gratefulness opens that sense to happiness. Jangan mau rugi dalam bahagia. Syaratnya sangat mudah. Bersyukurlah sentiasa. Orang yang bersyukur akan selalu bahagia :)

Sunday, February 21, 2016

Mabuhay, 2016!

Hi guys,

This is my first post of 2016 so I think it's not too late to welcome another year full of hopes. What else? I think I should begin with an apology. I humbly apologize to all my readers who were offended by my last post. I saw a sinking number of my followers since that last post. Did you guys really find it offensive? Or was it a mistake by google or something? 

Somehow, I've always been vocal in this blog. Sometimes I got me concerned if I am being too much with my writing, or should I just continue the way I do it. I decided why not, lets just be this way. I always find balance in my every post though. Sometimes I say it harsh, sometimes I be a little too opinionated, but do you think I have somewhere else to do it? I sound like I'm sure I have offended anyone but again, if you understand what I mean, you won't feel offended. I know that it sounds like I have turned into a distasteful person who complains about lending ears to my friends but nope, that's not really the case. I STILL do that job. I can't run away from it. My friends need my listening ears. Just that I don't do it as much anymore because of time/priority issues. I swear, whenever I have that coffee table talk, automatically I want to hear what people say. That's how I learn from people. I listen to them. 

So what have 2015 prepared you for this year? As far as February, I can say that it's challenging. But challenges are the time to use the wisdom we have collected so far. The way we react or respond to situations, we know we are getting better. We no longer sink in hopelessness as easily as before. Most importantly, we have grown in so many ways. In what way that you have grown?

As for me, In Faith. I see situations with a bit more sense of faith. I just believe that God is there. He is. So things can never be too bad. I hope that you guys have grown in such a way that make you stronger and more able to handle situations in your life. Remember guys, that problems will not end. But we have smart ways to deal with them. They are not always our enemies so it doesn't mean that when we face problems that look so hard to solve, we must be the one to lose. NO. Problems and us, we are not competitors. We don't have to fall if our problems rise. We will rise at par and solve them and thats when we know problems come with rewards. They will pass us the rewards once we solve them. So Game On, guys? Lets do this!

Note: If you notice that I use Tagalog language at the topic, well, I've been learning this language from watching some of my favourite shows. So I might update you guys what brings me into learning this language. If people ask, but Why? I answer, but Why Not? Hahaha. Okay, till next post!


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