We all know that people say love is blind. But don’t you think that it’s you who make it blind?

Recently, I had a chat with a friend. He told me about his very short love encounter. It was very brief, like it’s over before it was even started. I asked him about the girl. He didn’t even know her age, and he only saw one pic of her. Oh my…how can you already fall in love? It appears that I know about the girl, much better than him. Even though the girl was just an acquaintant that I had short chat with a few times. My Oh My. Why make it sound like “Falling in love” is that easy?

To me, it’s a degradation of Love. It’s not even falling in love. It’s just entertaining funny thought of, “hey let’s just try it out. This looks like fun from here.” No! You guys can’t do that. Know the person well before you even think about falling in love. I mean, I can’t stop you guys but at least I remind you before you do another silly thing that you would feel embarrassed to remember, or worse yet…add another into you Regrets List. Do you want that to happen?

Anyway, I find that much more convenient than putting it too hard on yourself. That could be even worse. I mean, when you are so particular about things before you want to fall in love, chances are you might never fall in love. That’s even pity!! Hahahaahahahaha.

But my point is…at least Love for the right reasons. As funny as it is, do you guys believe that, one of the reasons that I haven’t told you why I pick this nick Twofivesix[256] as my online identity is because I don’t want anyone to fall in love with me just because of my freaking nick!!! (Hahahaahahahahahahahahaha). True. It’s funny here in the virtual world. People fall in love Blindly. I certainly don’t want to be part of this funny stories anymore. If I use a very cute and girly nick, people will build impression around it. People would think, hey this lady must be as cute as the nick, so on and so forth. And suddenly starts to feel that tingle inside them, as if they have already fallen for me (YeaHH…suddenly they dream of my cute nick smiling and giggling—Oh my, I’m in love with her!!)

HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Stop it!!!

My point is, virtual or reality, love is still love. Crush is still crush. If you want to just have fun, it’s okay. You do your way. But don’t break a heart, don’t make someone cry – just because you love for the wrong reason. I mean, do this for yourself. Practice good judgment. I won’t let myself have a crush on someone just because of a cute nick, as much as I don’t think anybody would fall for a nick like [256]?? Haahahahahaahahhahaaha. Come on guys. Know your friend a little better, build good chemistry and maybe something can come from there. At least, give a value to “falling in love”.

Well, who am I to speak. I don’t know much about it too. Maybe the rest of you know better

It’s been a while since the last time I fell in love. Sometimes I wish that falling in love is that easy. But again…Love for the right reasons okay?

Ok good. That’s a lesson for today. Hehehehe

Note: My expected post is still pending. I’m just writing this very short and quick one. I need to finish some work today and tomorrow, only then I will have time to sit and spend quality time to write about a more heavy topic. See ya guys around. Muahssss

What's Next

Next I will write a controversial topic, filled with immoral issues - And the title would be

The Value Of A Man

I am only halfway writing it because I need to attend other things first. I hope it can be ready for tomorrow. Wait up, peeps.

I have written about A Value Of A Woman before...so now her counterpart. Bear with me. Muahsss all.

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Something From Me

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Does It Need To Be Sincere?

I have this funny feeling earlier today. This customer of mine was showing a lot of interest to do me a favour. She wanted to do free marketing for me, in line with her next special event. I mean, considering that she has her own stuff to take care of, I couldn’t help but be skeptical about her idea. I mean, what is it all about actually? What could she gain from this?

While I was continuing my work, my fingers were moving fast, but my mind was even faster. I was trying to find the reason WHY she has that in mind, and how could this possibly benefit her? Actually, I could save my time thinking, IF I can just assume that maybe SHE’S JUST BEING SINCERE. I recall that my relationship with her is more than just business. She has shared with me even her private life. I mean, this could easily be the reason why she wants to help out without gaining anything.

This crazy mind of mine still refuse to accept this as pure SINCERITY. I thought that human beings can be nice, but they are never too nice without hidden agenda. I don’t know. I’m worried a bit because I am actually still naïve. I don’t know much about this life and the evil things people can do. I’m still learning. I hate how my mind is polluted with the bad things going around me. I hate to refuse believing that pure good things still exist.

I mean, EVEN IF…Yes, she has a hidden agenda, but it’s clear that I am going to benefit from this, anyway. I can just tap from this opportunity and gain as much as I can, without making it difficult. I can just rest my mind and go with the flow. Hey, she’s trying to help me, why the fuss? Even if she has her own agenda, So What? It doesn’t mean that she has to bring me down in order to gain something from helping me. I mean, Helping Me!? Sounds like I have A LOT to gain. Suddenly I’m wondering why I start this topic in the first place. Isn’t it silly?

At the end of the day, if everyone gains something, Does it matter if this is sincere or not? Try this. What if people are being sincere all the way, but everybody gets nothing but just the soft nice feeling of appreciation that, “Yeah, she’s sincere. How noble.” So why does I make it sound like a “world issue” whether or not she’s sincere about helping me?

I don’t know. And I don’t want to think more about this. This is messing with my brain. Maybe I can choose to be silent and just enjoy the show. I only need to know my steps, if I have a hunch that something is going wrong, then I do something to not get dragged too far in it. Other than that, maybe I don’t have to care that much, whether or not people are sincere towards me. Maybe it doesn’t matter if it’s sincere or not. Cos one thing for sure, people will only do something if it brings something good to them.

But, whether or not it’s sincere…ERKS…

Suddenly I notice that Sincere Or Not --- is not even a right question to ask.

Note: LesS Is More --- Think Less, Gain More. Keep it Simple. End of story.

When Your Ex Comes Back To Claim Her Rights…

This is what she did.

First, she caused the breakup. She said she didn’t love him anymore. She has totally no feelings left for him. She crushed her guy’s heart into little pieces, she made him cry a river of tears and then, when the guy was trying hard to move on, she just didn’t want to let that happen! She still calls up the guy, asking for favour, asking for a nite hangout – claiming it to be the last time they go out together and at the end of the date, she told him that she still loved him. And then the guy said he doesn’t love her anymore, she cried helplessly in front of him. Omigawd, what did she want?

He still recalled her high voice screaming at him when she first announced the breakup. She said do not call me, do not sms me – cos we have broken up! Now, not long after that, she is doing all the above. Leaving the wounded-hearted innocent boyfriend wondering, What Did This Girl Want from me?

As bitter as it is to admit, I did something like that too before. I came back to my ex’s life just to “CLAIM MY RIGHT” to get his attention whenever I wanted it. I thought that just because I was his first love, I could always remain the number one. Surprisingly, I did it NOT because I wanted my ex back. I did it just for the thrill of knowing if he still loved me. I did it just to feed to my selfishness and ego, and maybe self-esteem too. Especially because he has a new girlfriend now, I thought that she could never beat me, especially because it was me who caused the breakup. I wanted to test my ex just for the fun of it. I was glad that my ex actually entertained me and would sneak to talk to me behind his new girlfriend. After learning that I still got my ex’s attention, I was satisfied with the finding, but that’s all. If he wants to go back together, I definitely say no. So you men out there, IF your ex does something like this, MAYBE she has something very similar in her head. DO NOT jeopardize your current relationship or good life just because of an EX who comes back to claim her right. Cos she might just come to shake things but it’s NOT like what you think. She might want you at the time being just because she’s feeling lonely, and she won’t want you anymore as soon as the loneliness is gone.

She thought that she has rights over you just because she is your ex and she becomes your ex because she dumped you. Girls like this always think that you men are only pretending to move on, when she is actually very much in your heart and mind. That’s why she’s using the advantage to “make use” of you. The worst-case scenario, she might think that you’re on her fingertips. She can have you back whenever she wants to. All she need to do is snap her fingers, and you’re back in her palms.

So what happens when the girls are only day-dreaming about this RIGHTS as an ex-girlfriend? What if the the ex-boyfriend rejects her and claims NO-REHOOK-UP against her even after all the attempts? Ahaaa…she won’t believe it right away. She would still do something to make him show that she’s still the queen. The best weapon—TEARS!!! Yes, the girls would cry if that’s the only last thing to touch his heart. Usually, men will feel touched, but is that enough?

Of course it’s not enough. From my guyfriends’ experiences, they would refuse to hook-up back with the ex who comes back to claim her rights. He might still love her but MEN AND THEIR EGO, do I need to explain more? I don’t think many men are that stupid to fall for this trap. If she did love him, there would be no breakup to begin with. You can think clearly with your sane mind. So if you get confused why your ex is suddenly so clingy, now you know what to think. She’s thrilled to claim her rights back. The rights that she thought she still has, as your ex.

So girls, what if you get rejected by the man whose heart you broke? The answer is very simple. You are only his EX. When you become his ex for whatever reason, your rights on him are NULLIFIED. In other words, you don’t have a freaking right over that guy anymore. Leave your freaking ex-boyfriend alone because you only mess things up with that “claiming” thing. You don’t have a right to claim, you understand me? There are many fishes in the sea, go catch one! And leave that old piranha with the new mate. *Lols

Although I did something like this before, I realized halfway that it won’t do us any good. Get a freaking life and wish all the best to your ex-boyfriend. Go hunt another jaw, you ladies!

Hahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Kidding. Note: Girls, my point is – Don’t embarrass yourself . Move on. :)

Teach Me How To Love…

Bila orang bagitau kita tentang kelebihan kita, kita bersyukur. Tapi dalam hati terpikir juga, dalam orang bercakap dengan perkara yg baik tentang kira, mustahil la kita ni sentiasa baik dan bagus saja. Sia selalu percaya bahawa benda2 yang baik ni mesti ada balance dia. That’s why when sia rasa sia ada satu kelebihan, sia semakin takut untuk fikir Apakah kekurangan yang mungkin sia ada untuk balance kelebihan itu?

Sometimes it’s unfair. Memang unfair. Sia yang terlalu banyak kekurangan ni, sepatutnya sia tanya, Apa kelebihan sia untuk balance kekurangan ini? Tapi bila sia jumpa even satu kelebihan pun, sia pula jadi begitu anxious apa pula kekurangan baru yg sia belum tau sia ada; untuk balance kelebihan ini?

All my life kan, I always find out what love is. Macam2 cara sia cuba find out. Dalam blog ni alone pun sia sudah berkali2 tulis pasal love. What do I know about love? When I thought I love, my loved ones never thought they are loved enough. When I thought I have given everything I could offer, my loved ones thought that I never give exactly what they expect. But I thought I had given enough. I thought I had done enough.

When I thought I have started to love, and sure that this love is unconditional, I still find the reason why I should un-love these people. That isn’t unconditional love. Their weaknesses that I just learnt always weaken my feelings for them. Leaving me on an emotional pedestal that I created myself. And then, when I do something quite not right, I always thought, that alone would make my loved ones cease to love me. I ask the question, “Will it be the same again after this? Will you still love me?” And surprisingly, they answered the answer that never cross my mind – After everything I have learnt, I have written, I have read – EVERYTHING people, everything.

After everything that I went through…

I never thought that people would still love even if they have just learnt that I am not that good actually. They never thought I was perfect to begin with. They always knew I could be worse and worse than I am today. Cos they know I’m just like them, a human being. I also know that but I never make use of that knowledge that THEY have weaknesses too. Why should I punish them for being a human being. I can’t expect them to be righteous all the time, all the way, just to make me believe that it’s worth it to love them. Love isn’t about evaluation anymore. That’s what they taught me. Once they have decided to love, that’s gonna stay as long as possible. There ain’t gonna be a freaking weakness that gonna change that. My ground where I start to love is already very weak. I am ashamed of myself :(

Again and again I’m amazed that maybe I should remember that Love is nothing like what I thought it was. Love is just acceptance and understanding. I felt so bad when I learnt I did something not quite nice to the people I love. I could give a lot of reasons why I did something but I still feel it was not quite right. I still feel that IF I KNOW HOW TO LOVE properly, I will find my ways of doing it better.

Maybe I’m right. My problem is… I DON’T KNOW HOW TO LOVE.

That’s why it’s just hard to really get into my life. That’s why it’s really hard to share everything. That’s why I suck at commitments. That’s why, when I thought that I have given 100%, they thought they could only get 20% at most. I thought that people ask too much, but actually it was me who never give enough.

I can’t believe that after everything that I said and done, I still don’t know how to love properly. I feel so bad.

Teach Me How To Love :( ...

Note: I want to write a note to someone so dear to me. You have taught me a lot before you know it. You open my eyes about a lot of things. This world is not lived by angels, but that doesn’t mean that we can’t be someone’s angel in its own unique form. And it doesn’t mean that if we are not angels, we are only as good as the devils. We can still practice humanity in the form of loving the special people in our lives. This has touched my heart so so deeply. Thank you dear and forgive me for my mistakes. Forgive me for not being there. *hugsss

Who Should Move Out?

Once upon a time, I was rushing to find a public phone to call my boyfriend. I was at a big shopping mall, walking alone. Then I stopped at a public phone, and I dialed his number and I got him on the phone. he found it hard to hear my voice, and I also found it hard to hear his voice. Guess what? It was because of the NOISE. The public phone I picked was exactly the opposite of a music shop that is selling cds and cassettes. Knowing that I was using the public phone nearby their shop, should they tune down the volume so that I could talk on the phone?

The answer is NO. I was the one who should look for other public phone. Why should I pick the one that is located at the front of a music shop? How can I expect a music shop to be silent, with that nature of business? So I have no right to curse the shop for playing loud music cos they are the first one who landed in that place. Anyone else who comes after them SHOULD fit and accept whatever they have brought in.

With this kind of acceptance and understanding, now is it fair if I expect that kind of understanding from other people too? If I first land at this place, they can’t complain that I am doing what I am doing. You can’t complain why I make the door at the right and not the left. You can’t complain if you think my place is not arranged. Most importantly, they can’t complain about the noise that I make in my place. You can’t expect me to change my ways just because you’re taking the lot beside me. Before you decide to move, you should aware of all the things you should deal with. Not just freaking move and asking people to make changes just because “Hello the King is just renting the lot beside you.” Stoopid laaa. *Lols.

This is so unfair when they always know it that my place is sometimes going to be very silent or very noisy. You don’t go and expect that I’m being silent when you need peace, and if you need entertainment, “Oh it’s okay to play the music out loud” – So, are you officially making yourself the King or Queen of this building?

(HAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

It’s very simple with me. If you want to talk about RIGHTS, think about other people’s rights too, not just Yours, Yours and Yours. For example, remember when I told you guys that a flirty doctor almost opened a clinic near my office? He talked to me once and I really didn’t like the idea of having a neighbour like him. Can I call the building’s owner to not sell the lot to the doctor “because I DON’T LIKE IT”? Because I don’t reign myself as the Queen of the building, I told my friends that if that doctor opens a clinic nearby my office, I WILL MOVE OUT. I mean, I will respect your rights to that extent. I don’t ask for too much. Who comes first should get the proper respect from those who come later. And if I really can’t take it anymore, I should take necessary measure – whether you want to close your office, move out – do anything you can – as long as you can keep the peace.

NOTE: [256] <- dijangka dia ni nda puas ati kana komplen baini kali. (Hahaahahahahaahahahahahaahahahaha)