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If you read my recent posts of FB, I mentioned about drinking only 1 cm of my coffee from yesterday and I was wondering if I could drink that coffee again today cos I know I was going to drink only 1 cm of it again. It's like I'm trying to avoid wasting it. The taste was good. Or should I buy again another cup just to drink 1 cm of it?
Coffee and I have a long relationship down the road. We were besties. I was coffee and coffee was me. Cos I always love Coffee, the smell, the taste, everything. I know how to appreciate good coffee when I taste one.
Let me write this down so I will remember. The incident of 1 cm Coffee is to describe that my body starts to have tolerance issue with coffee. Yes, a lot of times I didn't finish my coffee for a reason but all those times I could finish them if I just go for it. But sadly now, my body starts to react to coffee. I think, when I first get my panic attack back in 2020, it impacts me in the long run. I remember when I was still recovering from it, I avoided coffee because it made my heart beat awkwardly. If you have this illness, you should know that it has a lot to do with heart rhythm. It can go haywire when you are having symptoms. But fast forward to 2022, I drank lots of coffee, almost like normal, until I noticed in my last menstrual cycle that my body started to "reject" coffee if taken too much. How much is too much? That's why I come out with 1 cm. Cos it's the level of coffee that I could afford to drink.
Today, I tried to break the 1 cm level, I drank more because I got carried away with enjoying the coffee. Guess what? A few hours later, my body started to act funny. At some moments, I thought I was going to collapse. I sat there in my office chair, trying to cool down. OH MAN, IT'S THE COFFEE. I broke the 1 cm rule today. What is happening to me? Do coffee and I have to break ways?
I want to know if I will ever get back to the old days when Coffee and I can be besties again. For now, I have to stick to maximum 1 cm only, or avoid it at all. It's kinda sad, isn't it? But I'm positive about it. Suddenly it reminds me about things in life. They don't last. If you ask me, No, I have no regrets with coffee. I have always defended coffee. I have spoken good things about it. I even made more people started to love coffee. So if you ask me if I have regrets now that I have to restrict my coffee intake? No dear, no. I have my best times with coffee in so many years. So that's how I'm going to do with other things in my life. I will treasure you so much until I have no more regrets if things fall apart. So much that in this context, should someone feel the loss, it's not me, it's coffee :)
