31st December 2023, finally here we are again. Again, I'll just let my fingers dance without having anything particular in mind about what to write. But I Must. I don't want this year to leave without a proper speech from me.
Being this age in 2023, of course there are advantages compared to before. But I will hilite interesting stuff that is worthy to remember. There are expectations that are unmet but not all in my power. I left the rest to God and I assume that those expectations are best not to be met Yet. But something that I should mention, about my new workplace since last year, a very unfamiliar place and faces, but this year I learnt to adapt even more. In such a place with small space, I have proven that my passion surpassed the superficial cos as long as my passion grows, everything else will become adaptable. This is such a gift from heaven for me cos how I manage to enjoy work despite all the odds. Like, even that can't stop me. Fast forward to 4th of December when I was given the key, yes I moved again to a new place! I have to go into more details for the future me to read and remember.
When the tenant next door a.k.a my workplace neighbour told me she was moving out to another lot, I didn't even have the idea that I would move. Cos I got comfortable with my less-than-2-years workplace, and of course the cost of moving out is not cheap. After a while, I think God used my friend to convince me that I should move out since that place is bigger. I did not say yes right away. I asked myself, "Am I crazy enuff to do this?" YES, YOU ARE, 256. LOLS. Fast forward to 31st December, the place is 95% ready. I went thru a lot of things with the processes. But this time I'm more hands-on, I got to decide many things hence the bigger challenges I have to overcome. But now I can start seeing the fruit of the labour for the almost 1 month. I decided that I'm happier now that it happened the way it is. Then I try to see myself in the older place, and compare them, I just shake my head in disbelief how I could not see all the disadvantages of the old place. Like it was almost pitiful seeing the small space and how I made a lot of magics happen in the small space. My o my. That proved that it's just the barrier that we put in our head. I'm so thankful to God that I managed to see brightness in the dullness and felt enuff with what seemed to be lacking by other people. I've been so blessed. So guys, I will begin the new year in the new place. I worked so hard to prepare the place for me to create more magics. And this event is one of the most important for me this year.
After more than half a year this year, my closefriends witnessed my stubbornness when I did not write a single thing in our whatsapp group out of a little misunderstanding. But I did that to make myself clear. I'm not saying that I wasn't to be blamed, but I just couldn't force myself just so people can have their way. It's not how I wanted a friendship to be. But I also did not blame anyone. I chose to stay silent to avoid saying hurtful things. But I guess silence is a worse punishment to some. I thanked my friends who still reached out to me but even after that, I still did not talk in the whatsapp group. The first day that I finally broke my silence was on my birthday when everyone wished me. And since then, I became very active again in the group. I mean, do you know what this means to me? From my angle, I see it as Maturity. Cos if you know my nature, I used to be a Grudger. How I could just iron out all the 7 months worth of silence and took it from there in peace and harmony. I believe that our friendship has matured from there. We did a reunion on 22nd of December and we were celebrating our friendship of many years. I have known these friends since matriculation and they are the batch of friends that know me best since they have lived with me in the same apartment for 9 months and my bestie was my roomate. They are among the best gifts of my life.
Other than that, I have also developed work friendships with more people. I like how I am this "hard-to-get-close-to" but still people make the effort to still acknowledge me as a positive person, and at the same time respect the space. I like it when I found out they portray me as a workaholic who enjoys my work more than anything else and that's how I don't get involved in the business of other people, less drama, less conflict that at the end of the day, they wished they did the same. At least, being this person that is not too friendly to strangers, they still can say, 256, I like your way. That's enuff for me.
I thank you God above for letting me be a good friend to my friends if I ever be, be a good daughter to my parents if I ever be, and be a good sister to my siblings if I ever be. I also would like to set a good example to people just by being my true self. I hope to influence other people in a good way. This is what I have become as this person I am today. I am imperfect but goodness is my intention.
Thank you God for taking care of my loved ones. Taking care of me and listening to all our prayers. I feel the heavenly touch in every good and trying times. It touches my heart so many times when I realize that God is doing His ways to answer my prayers. Even when I repeatedly forgot to pray, He still reminds me thru every act of love in His involvement in every situation that He's always there. I feel so touched and no words can ever describe my thankfulness.
2023, thank you for so many colours. Did you purposely leave a few big wishes out so I feel more excited for 2024? If you ask me, well, maybe Excited is not the word, but I'm Positive about it. The year ends with a challenges actually with all the moving out thing, but thank God I'm equipped with wisdom to not snap. I got this. You know who is my Helper.
Bye 2023, Thanks a lot for this chapter. You have made us stronger and wiser. Guys, lets do this. We can do this. 2024, Here We Go!
