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1ST RUNNER UP, MISS EARTH-AIR SABAH 2010 APPEY ROWENNA JANUIN
2ND RUNNER UP, MISS EARTH-WATER SABAH 2010 QUEENNERA XAVIER FANCINE KITINGAN
3RD RUNNER UP, MISS EARTH-FIRE SABAH 2010 PACHARA EMMANUEL APIN
MISS PHOTOGENIC: MAY SALITAH NARU KIOB
MISS NATURAL BEAUTY GROOM2LIFE: QUEENNERA FRANCINE FRANCIS KITINGON
MISS CONGENIALITY: LYDIA ANTHONY LIJUA
MISS FB FAVOURITE: QUEENNERA FRANCINE FRANCIS KITINGON
MISS VOLVO DRIV-E: MAY SALITAH NARU KIOB
MISS ECO-BRAINY: FIONA ANTHONY LIJUA
MISS ECO-LOGIC: APPEY ROWENNA JANUIN
MISS AUDIENCE FAVOURITE: MAY SALITAH NARU KIOB
MISS TALENT: PACHARA EMMANUEL APIN
CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL THE FINALISTS AND THE WINNERS!!
Location: HYATT REGENCY KINABALU HOTEL
Date: 20th June 2010
Instead of just asking the question Does he love me?, ask no more when he’s been showing it in his own way that you have a special place in his heart. If only we remember that life might not give us enough time to spend the lifetime to ask question instead of just go ahead and live with what we already have but ignore them because of our negligence and wrong focus. Sometimes I tell myself to have Less Doubt and Learn To Trust cos it’s too energy and time consuming to do otherwise.
I might be right all along about one thing. People are talking about The Truth, they thought they would fight and battle just to know the truth. At the end of the day, it’s not about what is true or what is right – It’s all about what you believe. Guys…these elements are taking so much from us by manipulating our mind. They want us to find something we don’t seek, want something we don’t need and make fuss about all the petty things that don’t even matter.
Just clear your mind and enjoy the affection.
Stay in love, people :)
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
1. A girl who is beautiful but stupid
2. A girl who is brainy but ugly
3. A girl who is stupid and ugly – who is in love with you
Who would he pick?
A few guys whom I asked this little quiz, some had a pretty hard time giving answer. Some answer number 1. He said that “I send her to school. She can learn and be intelligent.” And some who answered number 2 said, “All women are beautiful if they know how to groom. So I’ll take her for a makeover and she’ll be beautiful too.” And some shot right at number 3. I mean, like No Hesitation at all. “I don’t care if she’s not beautiful or not brainy – As long as she loves me.”
In reality, if you ask any guy, they would NOT obey any of those choices. They WANT IT ALL. They want to be with someone who is beautiful and brainy and then in love with them at the same time. The question is…Can you have it all? It’s not something unheard when you saw someone who has a girlfriend with all the quality. But when you ask the guy, it’s rare when they say “I have it all”. They usually have something to complain about their woman. But surprisingly, you can hear a comment from a guy who has average looking girlfriend to be saying that “She’s everything I want.” If your girlfriend is beautiful, or brainy – Trust me, there’s always something you will be unhappy about. Yes, even if she’s already “all that”. So what do you guys want, actually?
I heard it from some guys who are obvious about What kind of woman that they want to be with. I remember this rich guy who asked me first, “256, tell me what kind of guy you are looking for.” Then I went on and on with my list of criteria. Almost hard to stop. When I was done, then I asked him. “What about you? Do you want to tell me your list now?” He said, “I don’t have a list, 256. I just want one thing. I want to be with someone who loves me with all her heart.”
So back to the little quiz above. That quiz is almost like a joke, actually. Picking someone to live with, isn’t as simple as that quiz. You want This much, but your options might just be That much. Cos as you mellow with the years, you become even more clearer what you really need in life. You want someone who would not mind sitting beside you in case you fall sick and you have to stay in bed for a few days. You want someone who would even lift you when you can’t walk or bathe you when you’re too sick to do it on your own. He told me all that. It made me thinking for a while. This guy has a lot of money. With his wealth, he can date the brainiest of all the beauties. But yet, he doesn’t pick any of those as his criteria. Cos maybe he went through a lot in looking for the girl who has EVERYTHING, and he could find many who are pretty, or maybe brainy too, but maybe he finds it hard to find for the girl who loves him for who he is, and not his money. He told me, “I can pick any of those pretty girls, but what if one day I am not rich anymore? These girls would definitely leave me.”
So that’s what I told my goodfriend, whom I gave the little quiz. “The quiz is just nothing. But on your way to find the answer for the little quiz, you realize something that – It’s not because of what your eyes tell you. Not even a girl’s love can confirm you that you find what you’re looking for. Love is more abstract than that. When it’s Mutual, then only the magic happens. You love who loves you… Regardless the beauty, or the brainy. When you love, you don’t need all that reason. So the key is…when you find the person who you love and love you back --- Make it last…cos what you have is what other people are still trying hard to find. :)
Note: Don't ask people who and how you love. You love, you define :)
Sunday, June 20, 2010
She said she’s so worried of Losing the boyfriend. She loves him so much. But jealousy almost took her life cos she couldn’t stand it when the girlfriends are showing interest in her boyfriend right in front of her eyes. I sensed one kind of immaturity there. When the boyfriend is likable by many of the girls, Hey, that could be ALL. Don’t make the story long. You ladies have to know how to tell the difference. If your guy is that charming, he might have many female friends who like having him around but not more than that. Why make it complicated. I told the girl, If your boyfriend is that charming, don’t you think that’s a reason to feel delighted that – Hey the charming guy is MY boyfriend. Why do you have to build tears out of your boyf’s charms? Omigawd…what happen to you ladies? Stop focusing on the wrong thing!
He doesn’t have to be sophisticated. He doesn’t even have to dress good. Yang penting, selepas kita lahir, diri dia sendiri pun sudah nombor dua. Kita yang nombor satu. Dia belikan kita baju dulu sebelum dia belikan baju untuk diri dia sendiri. Kalau duit dia tidak cukup, biarlah anak dia saja yang pakai kasut baru dan dia pakai kasut lama. Kalau kita sakit, mom kita pun maybe nda sanggup redah hujan tu untuk hantar kita pi hospital. Sebab mom kita teda kekuatan fizikal itu, tapi dia ada. Dia akan redah hujan tu untuk hantar kita pi hospital hanya sebab kita demam panas. Dalam sibuk kita melihat betapa besarnya jasa mom kita dari kita kecil, harap kita JANGAN LUPA tentang seorang lagi yang menjadikan kehidupan kita itu “satu kenyataan” kerana tanpa dia, kita teda di sini.
If kamurang sudah baca tu post sia tentang siri2 kenangan zaman sia kecil, sia ada mention yang sia adalah the Daddy’s girl because I was close to my dad masa kecil. In fact, banyak characteristic my dad yang ada dalam diri sia. Walaupun adakalanya I wished that I don’t get that bad tempered from him, but since I do, I finally realize the parts of my dad that I have in me – makes me Who I am today. My dad always know how to pamper me when I was a kid. Sia ingat yang everytime sia lepas bangun and found myself alone, sia mesti nangis dan my dad akan cepat2 pegi sayang2 sia sampai sia berhenti nangis. Sia sendiri pun almost lupa how cengeng I was but as I was trying to remember the old memories with my dad, sia suddenly ingat tu semua. I never actually counted my blessing that I had a dad who knows how to pamper a child yang begitu manja. But a year after another, I learn that bukan semua bapa macam tu. Memang I have a very special dad. Though his bad tempered was that bad to balance his soft side, but still, everything he is contributes to the wellbeing of his children.
Before we even started schooling, my dad la yang berabis ajar kamirang baca ABC. Sia masih ingat how dia ketuk jari pakai pembaris sebab kami malas dan lambat belajar. Masa first day masuk darjah 1, dia yang tarik tangan sia supaya bangun sebab sia betul2 malas dan takut mau masuk school. Then sia ingat yang kalau sia dapat markah tinggi, sia berabis mau minta puji sama my dad supaya dia puji sia, tapi kadang2 dia marah sia pula. Apa lagi kalau dia nampak tu tanda pangkah dalam buku sia. Masa tu sia nda paham. Sekarang sia paham sudah. Jadi seorang bapa yang tanggung keluarga seorang diri tu bukan perkara mudah. Kita tidak akan paham kesusahan yang dia lalui. Yang kita tau, makan pakai kita cukup. Life wasn’t easy for us back then. But it was because of that, I feel very thankful that I’m blessed with some senses to appreciate this life even more. Pejam celik, sedar nda sedar, walau macamana susah pun, dapat juga dia hantar anak2 dia pegi sekolah tinggi2. He’s really a good example of a good father sebab dia adalah seorang bapa yang sentiasa alert dan beringat tentang future. He spent very little for himself so that he could save up for us. Bukan semua orang boleh buat begitu. But that’s my dad. Tanggungjawab dia untuk anak2 dia yang paling utama sekali. Pengorbanan dia memang menyentuh hati dan tidak mampu untuk kami balas.
Apapun, adakalanya bukan senang untuk paham perangai dad kita. Sometimes kita mengeluh kenapa dia terlampau strict dan adakalanya berfikiran kolot, tapi kalau bukan dia macam tu, belum tentu lagi kita jadi orang yang baik. My dad selalu cakap yang dia sudah buat semua yang terbaik untuk kami, jadi kalau kami masih lagi pilih jalan yang tidak baik untuk hidup kami, itu semua kami kena tanggung sendiri.
Mungkin ada beberapa kali dalam hidup kita yang kita akan mengenepikan dia. Apa lagi bila ada lelaki lain yang masuk dalam hidup kita. Kita punya gelora cinta tu kadang2 buat kita lupa macam2 benda. Apa yang dad kita cakap pun semua salah, dan kita punya hati saja yang betul. Tapi di masa kita susah dan sedih, baru kita sedar yang walau siapapun yang datang dan pergi dalam hidup kita, dad kitalah yang akan selalu ada di sana. Apa hal pun, akhirnya sama dia juga yang kita datang. Oleh itu, jangan sekali2 kita sisihkan dad kita walaupun ada lelaki lain dalam hati kita sebab ndah kisah la what and how much lelaki tu buat untuk kita, it can NEVER match what our dad does for us. Kasih sayang seorang bapa tu tidak akan dapat ditukar ganti dan yang paling penting sekali, pengorbanan yang dia buat tidak akan dapat dibuat oleh lelaki lain yang datang dalam life kita.
This man yang saw us grow dari baby lagi. Kita teruk macamana pun, dia terima kita seadanya. Kita tidak payah mau berlawa-lawa atau berlagak baik depan dia untuk dia sayang kita. That’s why la, dalam percintaan kita rasa love dari satu lelaki tidak pernah cukup, ada saja yang kurang dan kita always expect more and more. Sampaikan kita jumpa berapa banyak lelaki pun, kita tetap akan rasa yang we are NOT loved ENOUGH. Tapi kita cuma perlu ada satu bapa saja, dan dia sudah boleh bagi kita kasih sayang yang cukup untuk seumur hidup. Kehadiran bapa kita adalah satu BERKAT untuk kita dan kalau pun kita nda mampu untuk kasi gembira dia, cukup la kalau kita jangan kasi susah hati dia lagi. And I believe, kebahagiaan yang terbesar untuk dad kita bukanlah apa yang kita boleh bagi dia, tapi kalau dia tinguk kita ada kehidupan yang baik, buat perkara yang disenangi orang – mungkin itu pun cukup untuk kita kasitau dia yang “What I have become today comes from your loving hands” Maybe sometimes kita yang perempuan ni akan hairan dengan tindakan dad kita yang terlalu protective. He's just too worried about us. Sometimes we thought that our dad thinks that we are always that little girl. We desperately want to let him know that, Dad, I'm a grown-up lady now, I know what I'm doing, ok? But then I understand, since that he saw us from the day we were born, it's kinda hard for him to finally see us stand with our own two feet. It's still the same kid that he bought barbie doll for. We have to understand how big our dad's love for us and he only wants the best for us.
This man yang saw us grow dari baby lagi. Kita teruk macamana pun, dia terima kita seadanya. Kita tidak payah mau berlawa-lawa atau berlagak baik depan dia untuk dia sayang kita. That’s why la, dalam percintaan kita rasa love dari satu lelaki tidak pernah cukup, ada saja yang kurang dan kita always expect more and more. Sampaikan kita jumpa berapa banyak lelaki pun, kita tetap akan rasa yang we are NOT loved ENOUGH. Tapi kita cuma perlu ada satu bapa saja, dan dia sudah boleh bagi kita kasih sayang yang cukup untuk seumur hidup. Kehadiran bapa kita adalah satu BERKAT untuk kita dan kalau pun kita nda mampu untuk kasi gembira dia, cukup la kalau kita jangan kasi susah hati dia lagi. And I believe, kebahagiaan yang terbesar untuk dad kita bukanlah apa yang kita boleh bagi dia, tapi kalau dia tinguk kita ada kehidupan yang baik, buat perkara yang disenangi orang – mungkin itu pun cukup untuk kita kasitau dia yang “What I have become today comes from your loving hands”
Maybe sometimes kita yang perempuan ni akan hairan dengan tindakan dad kita yang terlalu protective. He's just too worried about us. Sometimes we thought that our dad thinks that we are always that little girl. We desperately want to let him know that, Dad, I'm a grown-up lady now, I know what I'm doing, ok? But then I understand, since that he saw us from the day we were born, it's kinda hard for him to finally see us stand with our own two feet. It's still the same kid that he bought barbie doll for. We have to understand how big our dad's love for us and he only wants the best for us.
DAD, YOU WILL ALWAYS HOLD A SPECIAL PLACE IN OUR HEARTS. YOUR SACRIFICE IS UNMATCHED. FOR THAT, YOU ARE ALWAYS THE KING OF OUR HEARTS. LORD, BLESS OUR DAD FOR EVERYTHING THAT HE HAS DONE FOR US. THANKS FOR GIVING US THE BEST DAD IN THE WORLD.
Friday, June 18, 2010
I used to be like you guys too. I like hearing all those candy words to come out from someone’s mouth that send a signal right to my veins that “this guy has a special feeling for me” and I would like to be fed more and more of those words everytime as if my life depended on them. Ouch? I mean, so you guys take words of love That seriously?
If you ask me now, as you can guess, I’m not a big fan of words of love Anymore. I’m not that fond about them anymore. And I have reasons. Words of Love are here to make us feel the joy of becoming “something important” in someone else’s life. It’s Words of Love that make us realize that we are needed and loved. But Are you sure? I mean, words of love becoming so overrated that they can mislead people into believing lies and end up hurting and then even leaving a big wound in your heart. Cos the point is very simple…it doesn’t matter if they are sweet to hear, but what matters the most is Does the person who say it to you really mean it?
Maybe I have lost faith in Words of Love because they become so cheap and almost out of value. That sounds cruel but experiences taught me a lot. It doesn’t matter how good they sound but if the person who said them didn’t mean them, it means NOTHING at all. It’s a violation of human wisdom in language because just by saying a few nice words, you make someone believe that they are loved, they are special and they are missed and cared – while it could be that None of those are actually TRUE. People use Words of love to toy with people’s feelings and to have a quick solution to solve relationship problems or to talk down someone from getting angry – Yeah…you name it. But they are all the wrong reasons! We expect that words of love mean exactly as the words are saying. When someone say I Love You, that means he really does love you and you Alone! That means you expect the person to think that you’re that special that he only says the word to you and not along with many other girls that also thought they are the most special to that guy. Omigawd…now you see how words of love have fooled people.
Maybe this is why I am NOT so good with words of love anymore. I choose to. I am so good with words, mind you. I can speak words that can knock senses into you or I can relay to you some wisdom that I learn from somewhere and go straight to your heart and mind but still I don’t fancy to go near words of love cos I decided that it’s not my game. Even if I really mean something nice to someone, I refuse to use words of love because I think people have done enough violation and those words of love starting to sound so cliché and unreal and far from original.
I understand if people think it’s strange. And some people also think that I am heartless and I am emotionless when they fail to hear anything sweet that comes out from my mouth. I don’t have time to explain to people that I am a non believer in words of love – Until you prove to me that you actually “fit enough” to say them. I don’t want to bear witness of another liar who is using words of love to buy easy affection. So in case anyone asks why I take it easy when you say something nice to me, is because the Words are not alive on their own. You have to prove yourself from your deeds that everything that comes from your mouth could be taken seriously. Cos if you rely on words alone, I think people know that you don’t have to go to school to speak those words.
It’s WHAT YOU DO that tells if you really love someone. If you can stay TRUTHFUL, never cheats behind her back, be there for her during her times of needs and be the one who makes her heart cheerful – Yes you can do the list of what you can DO to make her feel loved. Guys who have so much to offer don’t rely on “empty words” that are only coated with nice language but means nothing. I REFUSE to join this league who think they can buy the world with words of love.
NOTE: So in case any of you wonder why  is so easy on a millions of words but so hard on I Love You, now you get the clue. Actions speak louder than words. But if you ask me, Yes, I will someday say it to the one who I think deserve it. But I will be very reserved for now. Maybe I’m just doing my little part in giving values to words of love. I hope more people will start to do the same :)
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
I paused for a while and tried to reconnect back my senses. With all these gloomy news that cover the atmosphere at the offices and homes where someone gone for good…I recalled back that LIFE is so short, and that’s not all – It could be taken away from us in a Split Second. I didn’t know whether I should grieve, or I should complain, or I should ask questions – I really didn’t know what to do. One thing for sure, I felt so bad inside. I felt so sad. “No this could not be happening.” I am not sure if they could cope with the loss. Losing someone from this earth is just so painful to whoever involved.
Then from all that, I started to think all over again HOW PRECIOUS this life is. HOW PRECIOUS AND PRICELESS this life is. We always complain about our problems, our arguments and millions other things that often bother us daily. Now I could see HOW SMALL all those are. I would like to scream, DON’T YOU GUYS KNOW THAT THIS LIFE IS GOING TO END ANYTIME? DO WE HAVE TIME FOR ALL THAT? Maybe because of my emotional episode that made me realize that LIFE IS EVEN MORE PRECIOUS than what I thought. I take a different measure to approach things in life now. I tend to connect to my spiritual being more closely than ever – that I appreciate even more the things that I have in my life. I savour every happiness that is happening in my heart and I say my thankfulness for the smallest blessing that I can recognize with my senses. I never forget to say in my prayer that Thank you Lord for such a GIFT because despite life being unfair and sometimes cruel, it is indeed then Greatest gift to be given the chance to breath and live and do what we want, with the loved ones around us and create many good memories that we can bring to the grave.
Thinking of this…we could not waste anymore times to make enemies and to make our enemies fall and do bad things to other people. This life ISN’T about all that. Come to think about it, we have so many things to do with what we like, the people we love and where we like to be – All the good things are enough task for us to complete this life that you never know when it’s going to end. All those problems that make you feel like you want to end your own life are just tiny dusts compared to the fact that you gonna lose this GIFT anytime. To all those who have gone, how I wished they had really made the best from their lives – I could only wished the best for them. But to us who are alive, please savour this gift until the last day…The Gift of Life is indeed the BEST GIFT that we are given because this is where we can take about love, friendship, family, friend, works, hobbies, passions and all the good elements that you can ever think of. They are nothing without LIFE to begin with.
Appreciate this gift…Live it to the fullest… :)
Monday, June 14, 2010
I spent some times thinking WHY my friend sounded so upset about her colleague new date. I mean, even if she could foresee the future, but the colleague is a grown-up too. She knows what she’s doing. After knowing that the colleague has just broken up from a relationship, she needed to cheer up. So when a guy came to her, of course she would accept his companion. When we start talking about “that relationship is not going to last” – Well, even Nostradamus predictions are questionable. So don’t tell me you stop someone from dating just because you have a crystal fortune ball that can tell your friend’s future?! Oh Come On!!
This is another symptom of Overprotective-friend, who think that the date is going to steal the friend away. Look guys…if you ever feel this strange force to defend your friend by stopping her from dating – that’s the first signal. That’s irrational. Like you can’t force love, you can’t force your friends to stay at the neighbourhood forever. There are times when they would need to move out and look for a greener pasture. In this case, think again if you’re protecting your friend or maybe just yourself! Friendships that are true and sincere don’t take LOVE as a reason to end. It’s ridiculous to think that way. Maybe it would slow down for a while but trust me, you will always have a place in your friend’s heart. There are times when she would reach out for you instead of her lover/spouse. So stop that possessiveness because if you love your friend, you would be happy to see her happy. And even if in my friend’s case, she knows for sure the guy is a player, but you never know maybe her colleague also wants the relationship to entertain herself and not more than that. I mean, this is really not your business. If she’s going to make a mistake, LET HER! Because this is the process of living. People make mistakes and learn from it. You can’t just appear as the Mahaguru and tell your friend that this person or that person is not good to date. Remember, if you don’t want your friend to fail, trust me she doesn’t want to fail even 10 times more than you so she must take all the necessary measure to protect herself. Moreover, let them handle their own love journey. Don’t stop them just because you think you would lose a good everyday companion cos That’s Selfish.
Yes, I have told you guys that I have friends like that too. I have my guyfriends who told me they didn’t like me making friends with certain people just because they disliked his attitudes and worried that he might not be the right one for me. I would appreciate that from the bottom of my heart. But nobody knows the future. I think your friends also know their capacity as a human being who Take Chances and Risk Failures. It’s not wrong to say your views that you know certain things about the person your friend is dating and you let your friend know because you think it’s important for her to know. But you can’t just blindly accuse and make judgment that this person or that person is bad just because you don’t want to lose your friend to her new date. Trust me you’re just overreacting. Especially when you come to the level where you start to hate and make enemies with whoever your friend dates. Come on guys…
Be rational. Call yourself a good friend when you only want to see her/him happy. And even if you have to lose his/her companion to the new date – Life goes on. You will have your time too. So don’t make this complicated. Just stay in control with your emotions and nobody has to get hurt before anything bad happen. Just keep the peaceful environment…Friendship and Love --- they don’t have to fight for place in one’s heart cos a special place is reserved for each of them :)
For someone who is not a fan, I could say many things about this enthusiasm. I could say that it’s not worth it. I could say that it’s a waste of time. I could say that the footballers are earning millions and you guys still earn as much as u do now. I mean, where does this fanaticism bring you? Yeah, I could say all that. But guess what, I won’t say all that. Cos I understand what u guys feel. The saying goes, “Never get between your man and football” is an enough remark that guys do need their time to really entertain their passion on the manly things. We ladies don’t have to understand why. Just give them their own space as they would do when situations need them to.
I made a few funny statement in Facebook like “The ladies are wondering whether of their they would lose their men during World Cup”….Hahaahaaha. After a few days since it first started, actually it isn’t that bad. The guys are still going on the same pace. They still go to cinemas and they still have time hanging out with their friends. Just that, when the matches are on, they could be found glued to the screen instead of sleeping. As a result, World Cup could steal their sleeping hours from them. And lack of sleep leads to other things like waking up late, not having the same drive and energy to go to work and maybe result in less progress at work. Then I made a post at Facebook again this morning saying, “I'm sure today is the Monday full of swelling eyes from lack of sleep. If any less progress in work, do you think your boss will accept "watching world cup" as an excuse? Hahaaha...Anyway wish everyone a good day ahead :) (Say no to Monday blueS) hehe”
So I guess, considering that it comes only once in 4 years, I think u guys just go ahead and entertain that craving for football cos my concept is – Do it because it’s not wrong and it makes you happy – Go for it!! Enjoy the month away and make sure you don’t regret a bit when this month passes. Wish everyone an awesome World Cup fever…This fever is different cos although it makes you “sick”, the only remedy is to feed yourself more and more of it! Hahahaahahaha. Have Fun! :)
I pray to God that I can also be a good daughter to you. :)
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Saturday, June 5, 2010
I have this habit of taking off my heels when I reach my office chair. It’s just a habit that dies hard so without taking orders, my legs will automatically take off the heels. You guys know I am wearing high heels so maybe I want some comfort as I do my work at the desk. Judging from the incident of how I got a phonecall from my other phone which caused by my hyper kicking leg, now you know that my legs aren’t making this “heels-off” habit an easy one. (Yes!! I kicked my handbag where the other handphone was and it accidentally dialed the other phone! I thought I was dealing with a serious criminal who tried to blackmail me or maybe just a silly ghost who could not wait until the nite comes to scare people… *Lols!!)
If you guys can recall that I am a pretty clumsy person. I put my stuff everywhere and my desk is always in big mess. The only time when you can catch my desk clear usually comes with a secret. Try peek at the floor and what I usually do is only taking the mess down on the floor. Hahaahahahahahahaha. When I am busy doing many different kind of little task that need me to move around the office, I usually will walk in my rubber slipper (if I can find it) or if I could not find it immediately, I will just walk with bare feet. But when I need to go out the office, I will need my heels back. I recalled a few spontaneous incidents. Without even looking, my feet were looking for the heels underneath the table. Usually, my feet could find the heels although sometimes they got the wrong side. But I remember when either the left or the right foot didn’t actually find the other heel. In desperate situation, I would peek down and looked for the other heel. Still…nowhere to be found. I was like, O M I G A W D…Where’s The Other Heel? At one incident, I was rushing and I needed my shoes fast enough so I could make a move but the other heel disappeared from view!! Since it was my private space at the office, nobody would step there and touch my things so I knew it all along that this my own doing and if I didn’t know where I put my stuff, nobody else would. But because I was running out of breath trying to look for my other heel, I just broke the silence and asked them out lou; looking so innocently curious and desperate,
“Excuse me guys, did you see my other shoe?” (“Kamurang ada nampak kasut sia sebelah???” )
They looked at my and I looked at them. Suddenly we burst out laughing because it was the silliest question that they could imagine would come out from my mouth. I mean, they always know that I would misplace my stuff, like all the stationery and tools and everything else – they know it that if I put at one place, I would usually forget it. But now, it’s my own FREAKING SHOE, for Pete’s sake!!! Hahahaahhaa. That shows that my feet are never “silent” cos they keep kicking everything away and Guess What? I have to ask people Where Is My Other Shoe??!!! Suddenly I burst out laughing and made everyone else laughed. I don’t know if I should blame my short term memory or my hyper feet or maybe my heels do have leg that they tend to hide from me. And when I finally found the other heel, it was usually hiding under the mess and…What??? Are you kidding me? How did the heel reach there? *Lols
The funniest part of me telling the story again…when I said, “Sia tanya dorang sebab mana la tau dorang ada nampak di mana itu kasut sia sebelah” Hahahaahahahahahahahahhaah…256 needs a serious memory therapy Omigawdddddddddddd!!!!
Friday, June 4, 2010
She was just like any girls before. She fell in love and she loved with all her heart. But what she got was the man cheating on her when he “accidentally” fell in love with another girl at work. My cousin recalled slapping her boyf’s face for how many times she lost count. Her heart was crushed and scattered all over the floor. That was years before. Now it’s a different story. She is dating a new man and about to get engaged. The old guy comes back and out of pity, she still treats him well behind her man’s back. She is practically cheating her ex boyfriend into believing that they are still in a relationship and also cheating her fiancé to be. She said she did it FOR FUN because she could ask the old guy to buy/pay her things. So she has a point when she told me…
“Men women are the same. Both are cheating each other. So the question of How Hurtful it is when your guy cheats you, the guy can also be asked the same thing. We are EVEN.”
In the old days, women could be the victims because they were expected to stay at home and be the wife and mother. But not anymore. We Cannot stay the victim forever because now that we are getting even in education and then professions - now we could see why it’s so easy for men to cheat on their women as written in history. So doesn’t matter who started this, but women know now that they hold as much power. I don’t say that this is A REVENGE but logically speaking, the women just open themselves to the same options men have so this is WHERE and HOW it all happens. When you have so much temptations in front of you, THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS. You can pick 2 men instead of one and you can get your payback time before the next sunshine. Speaking of who is toying who – Yes, you guys are right that you men could be the victim too. Your lady could sweet talk you and sweep you off your feet with their charms when she’s doing the same thing to the other guy(s) behind your back. And when you find out the truth, you would start cursing all the same thing that could come out from a girl’s mouth. When she says, “I’m not a Barbie doll”, he would say, “Hey guess what, I’m not a toy soldier too!!”
What I want to conclude here is…This isn’t about gender anymore. This is about how you are going to play the game. If you have the chance to two-time your partner and you take the chance just to try out the thrill, Fine, that’s your game. If you want to make more people curse and hate you for toying with their feelings, hey, that’s individual choice. We can’t be the judge. It’s either we become the person who get hurt, or hurt – or just be the one who watch from afar (and maybe ends up writing an article like this for other people to read.)
My article with the title We Are Not Barbie Dolls was made for the guys WHO DON’T KNOW yet that WE could also turn them into a Toy Soldier if we want to. So this isn’t about gender. This is about YOUR CHOICE if you want to be virtuous and do the right thing in your love journey. If you still think that relationship is A Child Play that you can change your I Love You into I Don’t Want You Anymore in a freaking single nite, Whoaaa…trust me now is when the girls would want so much to believe that Karma does exist.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
See you guys next post. :)