People Are Like Stained-glass Windows...

Happy Friday everyone. I have something to write about but I'm a little pressured because my parents gave me a signal of torture that I delay some works way too long. I plan to make up for it today. Hehehehe. Another lesson.

So today, I give you guys something you can add into your cute inspirational collection. I think you guys can tell that I love angels. They are pure, innocent and very inspiring. Expect to see more angelic figures in the future. I'm going to write about something controversial in the next post. Erks. I need to find the mood and time for it. Thanks for dropping by guys. :)

She Has A Twin Friends!

Hahahahahahaha. 

Please check out Who Nelly is in the post “Oh Poor Nelly!”.

Just a little update. Actually, Nelly is not alone in the room. She has a pair of friends in my room. Just that, this pair is hidden below the bed.

*Lols. 

I did my laundry last nite and only I remember about the little pink “Nelly’s friend(s)” under the bed.

Now, that’s cute or what.

*giggles. 

Note: Jojon mentioned something about getting one “Nelly’s cousin” for me if he saw it anywhere, but I said no need because this species needs a break to be in the list of belongings. Hahahahahahahahahaha.

The toddler in me again, huh. Kinda cute, right. Hehehehe. 

Oh I forgot. This Twin Friends of Nelly is a gift from my sister.

Interview To Be A KULI?

One of my female friends gets really anxious on her way to prepare for the interview in 2 weeks. It is a post in the government agency, so it will give her a secured position, IF she succeeds. She keeps asking me what kind of questions will come out and how to answer them and so on.

First, she got the wrong person to ask. Ask anyone but Twofivesix[256] okay? Since when I ever got through an interview successfully? I failed very badly, my dear friends. *Lols. Ohh, don’t give me that look. Hehehehe.

Let me recall the last interview that I went to. It was the best interview that I did, because although it doesn’t go along with my certificate, but from my little experience, I could be somehow qualified to the job more than those who has the proper certificate alone. I was the only one who has different qualification among all the candidates. I Knew It that I was gonna fail. *Lols

But to look beyond that, it might not be because of me having different certificate. The post is to be an “Assistant” to a major post. So when you have the word “Assistant”, you must know that it’s not the same as “The Boss”. (*Lols). I understand even more why I failed the interview. I don’t think anybody would want to hire me as an assistant. I don’t fit to be an obedient assistant. Omigawd, I forgot that I was interviewing to be an Assistant! Hahahahaha

Look people. You guys listen. The main idea for an interview is To Present Yourself The Best and let the interviewers know your best qualities. You don’t want them to overlook that yes, you’re smart, you’re a fast learner, you’re honest – All that stuff! But let me correct you guys in this. Maybe it’s NOT all about that!

Just when you try to let them know that you’re so good in many things, you guys would leave the interviewers frowned. You might be proud that you’re a firm person, you have a strong principle and assertive, but hey, do you think they want “An assistant” to be that well-spoken and bossy? Yes, you’re right. They need a KULI, not a boss!!! They want someone that they can order and boss around, “Make me a cup of coffee” or “Make photocopy of this document now!” or “Answer that freaking call!”. So from the person’s characters alone, you can see if the person is fit to do all the petty tasks WITHOUT screaming back at the boss, “Shut up and make the f*cking coffee yourself!!!” (Hahahahaahahahahahahaha). Omigawd, I failed! *Lols

So, do you think just because the interview is to be a KULI, you can just snap your fingers and make the job yours? Nahhh, gotta be kidding me. Just when you think you have a good certificate, and good self-presentation, good communication, - So what? So you can surely get any job you want? Nope!! Not everyone is fit to be an assistant. It’s very simple. If I were to hire anyone to be MY own assistant, do I look out for someone who is like me? Definitely NO!! My goodness. An assistant with my characters will make me go crazy. *Lols.

A short conversation with my female friend just now refreshes my whole understanding all over again. Although I think she’s not so well-spoken, uptight and very not knowledgeable, she might just be the one for the job. As a matter of fact, she is already a favourite worker to the firm where she’s currently working in now. Her bosses like her so much. Why? Because she doesn’t answer back when she is cursed. Her lady boss could throw strange look at her outfit and she responds with a smile. She would run fast to the post office when she is asked to pay the bill – o man, should I be surprised? I am not her match, for Pete’s sake!!!! *Lols

So my point is…If you put all your heart and soul to aim a job as a KULI, make yourself very humble because they are not looking for a boss to replace them, okay? Your bossy attitudes won’t help you, and be realistic with that. As for me, I know it that I fail indefinitely. I hate to take orders. When I want to do A, and someone else comes and say, “256, go do A”, I would change my mind about doing A. That’s how resistant I am to taking orders. Hahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaahaha. And to confirm my failure even more, yes, I will answer you back when you say something I don’t like to hear, and I will NOT mind to brainwash you back just to correct your misled perception. So, you want someone like me as your KULI? (/me saw all the readers run away before I turn my face at them) Hahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaahhahahaahahahahahahahahahah /me pingsan ketawa

Muahsss all. Lurvee ya guys.

Have a nice day.

Schooldays Memories: Fancy Someone’s Boyfriend?

I had this funny silly attitude about – not caring too much – about what people feel. Ada this guy, who really look like someone famous yang sia minat ba. Automatik sia suka tinguk tu lelaki. But then I didn’t know that the one of ladies dalam kelas sia tu, adalah girlfriend dia. Since that I didn’t really care that much, I just carried on with it. I think he looked so cool ba. Then masa hujung sessi tu, I really wanted the guy’s picture but sia pun nda pernah cakap sama tu lelaki so I have a friend yang kenal tu lelaki. So sia pass camera sia sama dia, “Please snap his picture for me.” You think this is stupid enough? Wait until you hear this.

Kawan sia tu bukan pula pegi ambil picture tu terus. Dia pegi cakap dengan girlfriend tu lelaki! Hahahahahahahaha. But masa tu sia pikir benda tu perkara kecil dan langsung tidak patut melukakan hati girlfriend dia tu ba, so you guys know what I did? Omigawd. I actually talked to the girlfriend dengan selamba jaa. “Can you please let my friend snap a pic of your boyfriend with my camera? He looks like someone famous yang sia sangat minat ba, then I hope you don’t mind.” Masa tu sia cakap macam bersahaja ja, macam la yg depan sia tu robot. Hahahahaha. Sia sedar sia said something not right when she senyum2 paksa and sia rasa2 sia nampak mata dia mcm berair ba. *Lols. Dalam keselambaan sia, sia sempat lagi terpikir, “Opps! Sorry if I said something wrong!” But in reality, sia just left her and anggap benda tu settle. You Evil 256!!! Hahahahahaha

So dapat juga la kawan sia snap pic dia, I don’t know berapa kali. Kenapa sia buli lupa? Sebab itu pic tidak jadi!!!! Hahahahahahahaha. Semua gambar untuk that roll of film hampir semua rosak sebab sia silap guna battery. Sia tidak pakai battery alkaline, but surprisingly itu camera tidak bagi signal untuk remind sia yang sia silap battery. So gambar dia semua gelap dan tidak nampak muka sebab power dia nda cukup. I cursed juga berabis masa tu sebab byk pics yang best2. But sia baru recall perangai sia masa tu memang selamba dan tidak byk pikir. Apa yg sia mau buat, sia buat ja.

I’m a little embarrassed to recall that little chapter. I think it’s meant to be that the gambar tidak jadi. It’s not like I want to remember how I talked to someone’s girlfriend about how I fancy her boyfriend. Gila ka? Cuba kalau sia kena mcm tu, belum tentu lagi teda kerusi meja berterbangan ke arah tu perempuan. Heheheheh.

Bah 256, jan lagi buat benda2 mcm tu ah. Bikin malu sama sia ja.

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

If you guys minat boyfriend orang lain, apa mau buat? Bolehkah tidak payah buat apa2? Admire saja la ba dari jauh. Jan suka2 buat mcm sia tu masa. Tapi sia confirm sia punya style different sudah kalau benda tu berulang lagi masa sekarang ni. Sia nda akan tanya punya, sia terus sambar ja tu boyfriend orang. *Lols. /me pingsan ketawa. Uiks, tak kan serius. Hello?? I’m just kidding okay? Hahahahahahaha Gotcha!

Pesanan dari penaja: Pandai2 la kamu handle crush kamu sama boyfriend org lain tu. Cuma lindungi mata kamurang dari lebam dan rambut kamurang daripada kana tarik. Majulah Sukan Untuk Negara. Hahahahahhahaha. (Bah, lawak tu lawak juga, kalau biru mata hitam mu, sia nda jamin ahh. *Lols) Light & Easy post once in a while yeah

The Right Person For The Right Job

I have this admiration towards very appealing ladies – I think they are so blessed!! Of course, I would easily name Beyonce as the hottest of them all. She’s lovely, she’s sexy, she could dance the hype, and she can sing really really well. Some of my most favourite numbers, come from her. But I think there’s someone else who spell HOT and SEXY in a better meaning. This babe definitely made it to the top.

She’s NiCoLe Scherzinger, lead for PussyCat Dolls. Man, she’s hot isn’t she? If I were some man, I would be drooling her way. *Lols. How could she be that hot in my eyes? Just watch any Pussycat Dolls music videos, you will know why I said so. Look for the dance songs, okay? I could watch music video “Beep” repeatedly and still thought it’s hot as hell. What makes her so hot is when every move she makes, looks so right and perfect. I love that bitchy gesture, eye signal, face expression – all add up to result such an admirable showmanship attitude that you can’t simply fake. You must be born naturally with that graceful body and – what else she needs? She’s tall, lovely skin, lean body – she’s definitely made the cut as the Hottest Babe on the universe. Want some more attitude plus great music? Then go and watch - Jaiho.

Wait, since when Twofivesix[256] went right to nothing but the physicals? Yeah, you’re right. It’s more than that actually. I think that somebody might be blessed with all the looks too, but she might not be in the best field that really shows what you’ve got. Nicole picks a career she’s best in. Whatever is good in her is used to the max – isn’t this maximizing your blessing? Yeah, that’s a better way to put it. If Only all of us is doing the right thing for all our best qualities as a human being – having people to really admire you for that unique quality- as how I did it with Nicole here. Another thing about Pussycat Dolls is, they don’t just sell their sex appeals to climb the charts, they have great unique music that really make up for the empty space that Spice Girl left – just that, PCD does it Better to fit the current trend.

The conclusion is, if you are doing a career that shows your best sides, you can’t go wrong about it. People will appreciate and honor your good choice because they know you’re MADE to do a certain job. You are BORN to do it. To me, it’s like a celebration of blessings. If you are good in painting, why the hell you’re doing teaching? Pick a job that goes along with your purpose as a human being. Don’t live other people’s dream. Life is Short!

Note – I still vote Nicole for the hottest babe! *giggles.

Obsession Of A Thief

Strange But True!

Have you guys ever come across certain individual yang looks all nice, but has this “habit” of stealing your belongings? Take your time and read this, who know you have not come across with one yet. Cos this gonna shock the hell out of ya. Individuals like this do exist!!

I first came across someone like this back in schooldays. The person was the nerdiest of us all. Not only that, she was an excellent student. I mean EXCELLENT! She scored 100% in Add Maths and even our Add Maths teacher said that she could actually replace him to check the exam papers. She’s That Good! As a friend, she’s soft-spoken, and she speaks all the nice words, polite tone and she would giggle like the most innocent kid. She wore glasses that actually complete the whole Nerdy impression that she gave people. The Last thing in anybody’s mind was – someone like this is actually an Obsessed Thief!!!

Her roommates knew better. They started to lose stuff like calculator and cassette and the silliest part is when they could find those things in her locker, and she even openly used those stuff like it was hers. My goodness!! When the owner of the calculator saw she was using the calculator, she asked her, “That one looks like mine which has lost. Is that yours?” Then she came with stupid answer like, “My brother just bought this for me”. And unless you want to be a little rough, you would confront her further. But if you’re too gentle for that, you could end up standing like a fool with your eyes open- wondering how the heck she could be hiding a monstrous hideous thief inside of her? I mean, it was almost shameless! The calculator owner said the calculator has all her marks on it, she couldn’t be wrong about it!

All of the roommates were starting to feel scared about this “silent thief” lurking among them and to protect themselves, they locked their lockers all the time! Even if the toilet was only doorsteps away, we could find all her roommates brought along their locker keys even to a short visit to the toilet. At first, we didn’t understand, because they didn’t just spill it out that “that maths genius in our room is actually a thief” – they actually spared the truth from most of us. Nobody would believe it anyway, UNTIL…you become the victim!!

Another major incident happened when she went out with her classmates. They went into a supermarket and she started joking about “just put the biscuits inside the bag bah!” and she actually did it! In front of her other friends. She stuffed another and another junkfood inside her bag, and her friends went speechless because they didn’t know that she had the guts to do that. Guess what? The security saw it and they all got arrested at a room and asked to pay double the price of the stolen foods, or else they could be handed to the police. She has no money to pay and she was crying, really getting into the nerves of her innocent friends. It was the friends who had to collect money and pay before they got released. It was totally a lesson for her classmates. But the story didn’t leak that fast. The friends were somehow protecting her because they didn’t want to embarrass her.

Aha…the year after, what do you call this, a bad luck? I finally got to be one of her roommates. She looked quite close to me because she liked to follow me around. I found nothing wrong with her because she was so nice and kind. Though I have heard about the “little stealing stories” but I did not believe it right away. I must find out with my own eyes. She’s a Maths genius, okay? How stupid could she be in telling right from wrong? How hard it is to identify that stealing is wrong? So after months, her classmate came to me, “Please help me. My book was stolen by “her”.” I was like, “Ah? Are you sure?” So I helped out by looking at her bed and Yes, we found the book below her pillow. I almost choked. I said to the girl, “Then ask her to return the book, maybe she only borrows.” That classmate of her said, “I have confronted her and she said it was her book. Her brother bought it for her. It has my name on the book!” And from there, our other roommates started to notice that we have also lost some money but nobody spoke about it. Because we did notice that we lost like a few ringgits from our lockers and thought that we misplaced. But it all made sense – because every morning this girl woke up hours before we all did. After all came out to the surface, we did confront her. I recalled one incident when she locked herself in her locker and refused to go out. The rest of us were outside the locker and started to torture her. I took the lead, of course. I was so pissed because she could probably stole something from me too, her own friend. I remember asking her repeatedly, “Why do you have to steal? Tell me???? Make me Understand??” She cried and said sorry from inside the locker. I actually pitied her for some reasons and eventually we found the way to forgive her. No one spoke of that until we finished school.

Okay, so do you think this is over?

The small world did it again. I saw her again in my college years. She was as cheerful as ever. I was delighted to see her too because nobody would remember seriously about her offense by looking at her super-nice impression. Again, SHE DID IT. Her roommate in college got it worst. She took her roommate’s ATM card and withdrew RM500 and spent it like there’s no tomorrow. She did it all in the week when the roommate was not in. It was a little mistake that the roommate made when she left the ATM card with the pin number. Who would have guessed that “the nerdy who was reading the bible” at the time, heard everything when she told another friend that she left the ATM and pin number to ask for a favour. When it all came out, the history repeated itself. The “torturing session” happened again when she was confronted by a group of friends (including her roommate) about that RM500 lost from ATM. I was there too because they wanted my help as a witness since I was her old schoolmate.

Do you see why I call it an OBSESSION of a Thief? I come to realize that this “stealing habit” is in her flesh. She could say sorry, she could cry, but she could not get rid of the obsession. This is AN ILLNESS. She could be smart and all, but Stealing is a different side of her. It’s something like a Nice man with a nice career and attitude who has a dirty nite life, screwing callgirls and partying nite after nite, and the next day, comes back to reality, be a courteous man-a dedicated worker-an obedient son- until it’s nite time again. Like oil and water who can’t blend together, but stay in the same body. And the body of the doer has to do the both sides to complete the cycle. In her case, to be A Nerdy Maths Genius &… A Thief.

How to handle orang macam ni? I can suggest a way. Orang mcm ni mencuri secara “lembut”. Dorang tidak akan break your locker untuk curi barang, melainkan peluang tu terbuka depan mata. Sebab dorang ni bukan violent punya orang. Jadi, one way to help them to not have the space to channel that obsession is To Not Create Opportunities for them to steal. Simpan all your belongings di tempat yang dia tidak boleh capai. Or avoid from staying in the same room with orang mcm ni – adalah lebih baik terjumpa tepi jalan and smile and say hi. At least you could remember the warm feeling of her niceness and tidak payah handle dia punya obsession mau mencuri.

So untuk si dia yang Mencuri tu, buli dinasihat ka tu? I don’t think so. Dorang bukan bodoh ba guys. Harap2 dorang ni akan ada focus lain yg akan takes away the need to steal. Especially when dorang sedar dorang boleh guna tu kebijaksanaan dorang tu untuk earn sendiri benda2 yang dorang mau curi tu. Apa2 pun, sia harap sia tidak akan deal dengan org mcm ni lagi. If any of you yang baca ni actually has this obsession, maybe you guys boleh stop sekejap and pikir sikit that what you are having might not be your fault, but it’s your own hands who steal, so your hands won’t do anything unless you let them, so THERE’S SOMETHING you can do about it.

Don’t let this stupid stealing obsession STEAL your good life from ya.

What Could A Birthday Mean: A Wish For Dingobee

I know that I have been quite biased in my blog so far. I gave too much ways to the guys to appear here and still waiting for barely one space for the ladies. And I must say this. If I were to give it for the first time to any of my lady friend, the most deserving one would be Dingobee a.k.a Angelbear. This post must come easily for me because I already have a lot to say about her – yes, even if we are not more than just online friends. In fact, I am a lot less than most of her online friends.

She deserves this post because she is the Most Supportive online friend that I know since I first come back online on regular basis. She actually taught me quite a lot about the proper blogging. That is a big help for me because without a senior blogger, new bloggers won’t get inspired to come up with their own. I always thought that blogging was hard, and seeing her doing it, I knew it was possible for me to do it in my own capacity. Not only that, I also stole links from her blogroll because being a new blogger months ago, I had no one to turn to – and she definitely made the effort to stuff all the necessities in her blog for newer bloggers like me to find what we might need in our blog. I honestly thank her for that.

Knowing her even more by reading the daily updates from her blog, I know that Dingobee is a very honest person. That’s one thing I would envy her. She could stand tall being herself, not hiding a single thing, and still be happy with what she has, and still be likable although she would curse and swear all she likes. For someone like me, even a brave kid on the street would inspire me, let alone a courageous lady like Dingobee – she definitely a worth-knowing online friend. The most important thing that I can learn from her is – to be who you are doesn’t hurt at all. We might lack here and there, but people will appreciate the honesty and happily accept us as we are.

Knowing her from the IRC chatroom, I think she is among the few whom I could share fruitful chats with through exchanging info and knowledge. And although she won’t hide her tantrums as much as I would, I don’t think I can ever get funnier than she can. I said to her that she could beat my Ulal, she said she rather not. Then I said, Please be happy to stay at number two. *Lols. (Okay, I might not say that exactly. Hahahahahahahaha). She’s definitely a cute character at times – especially when she throw that meerkat face =.= (Hahahahahaahahahhahaha). I have to be honest with you guys, I first found it awkward seeing the people draw cute faces like that – I mean, my goodness, you guys can’t be thatttt cute! It was a cute thing that I can learn in modern chatrooms. *giggles. Hello 256? Welcome to IRC??! *Lols.

And what completes this whole appreciation to her is when she finds her way to understand and accepts me just as much as I am willing to share. That is such a terrific quality that is hard to find in most online friends. It’s like, she might refer me as a mysterious figure in IRC but then she just lets me be that figure. I might not say enough, but actually I feel so deep with that kind of acceptance and understanding that she has.

And with all the things that I have listed, do you guys still wonder what could this birthday mean to someone like Dingobee? It’s a celebration of maturity and accomplishment, my dear friend. Having someone else to list out all the relevant qualities you have is not meant to be dedicated to just anybody. The person has to reach that level enough for people to think that it’s worth “my time” and “my space” to write something about her – and yup, to me, you are there already.

So Dingo. You are another year wiser. With all the life experiences that you have shared, like I always say, you are a survivor and you gonna make it far with that kind of approach that you use. You are one example of a strong woman – and this is not the first time you heard it from me. Just in case you are anyway impressed with this post I made for you, I hope you know that I won’t spend a freaking half an hour just to plainly impress someone without me meaning it. In my capacity as an online friend, I think I have nothing to gain from this, UNLESS all this truly comes from the heart. :)

Happy Birthday Dingobee. Age is just a number, but what more important is, the better person you have become. Without adding another year to the age, you might not be there yet. So be thankful for this birthday because

It could mean So Much and More to a person like you :) Happy Birthday! Muahssss!

Oh Poor Nelly!

Dunia ni sibuk memperkatakan tentang H1N1 iaitu virus selsema babi. Duii gia, dia pun nda mau jua ketinggalan ba kan, mau jua mencipta variasi selsemanya sendiri. Heehehehe. Siapakah “dia” tu? Dia tu adalah binatang berkaki pendek yang bukan semua orang suka, ada yang tidak berani pegang, jauh sekali mau makan, cuma kalau ditinguk-tinguk, dengan situasi hidungnya tu…cumil jua ba si “dia” tu kan? 

Hahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahaahaha 

Believe it or not, sia langsung teda terpikir mau tulis ni article sampailah 5 minit yang lalu. Ini semua gara2 “dia” macam buat muka kesian baa sana that…mau nda mau sia tulis jua la pasal dia ni. *Lols. Kamurang pecaya or not? You have no choice bebeh! Sia ada bukti lagi this!! 

Ini dia buktinya!! 

Jeng jeng jeng! 

Hahahahahahaha. 

Ini adalah pandangan daripada sisi katil sia. Entah berapa lama sudah dia macam tu. Dia meninguk ja sia titun that sebab dia mengadap katil sia. Tapi entah la kenapa pagi ni sia buli memberikan perhatian kepada dia ni. Mungkin sia kelucuan dengan “keterdesakan” dia melihat dari timbunan baju2 sia. Duiii giaaa…tiba2 timbul rasa kesian ba sama dia ni. Sebab jangan cakap orang lain la, sia sendiri pun melakukan diskriminasi terhadap species dia ni. Sia ingat beberapa hari yang lalu, gara2 ikut my bro jalan, terus dia singgah sana kedai makan cina. Sia ni bukan penggemar kedai makan cina. Kenapa ya? Jawapannya selepas ini. Hehehe. Masa order tu, I told my bro sia sudah mamam. Terus dia paksa juga sia order apa2 makanan, so dia cadangkan sia mi sup mangkuk kecil. Then sia ok ja la. Masa order2 tu, sudah lah sia sorang ja minta mangkuk kecil, sia kasi penegasan, “Sia mau ayam saja” dan yang lain2 semua minta species dia versi salai punya. *Lols. Then sia kasitau tu pelayan bagus2, “Ingat ahh, yang mi sup kecil tu ayam ja”. Ini lah senarionya kalau sia di kedai makan cina. Tapi macamana pula kalau jadi macam ni – Tiba2 tu pelayan datang dan cakap, “Ayam habis sudah.” Terus sia terdiam kejap. “Ikan la kalau mau,” dia kasi cadang sia. Sia pun apa lagi… “Ok, ikan pun ok la”. (Dalam hati: Jangan saja yang ‘itu’) *Lols. Gara2 perangai sia yang mcm ni, sia selalu kana sindir2 oleh kawan2 and family sia. Hehehehehe. My own personal discrimination terhadap si dia ka tu? Then can I defend myself? Boleh ba kan? Yakinnnn boleh! (*Lols) 

Kalau sia ni mengamalkan diskriminasi terhadap dia ni, kamurang check balik post untuk Christmas yg lepas. Species dia ni juga yang antara hadiah Christmas yang sia dapat, iaitu dalam versi tabung. Belum lagi sia buka tu koleksi hadiah2 lama sia yang sia simpan baik2. Kamurang akan merasa “kecomelan” yang amat sangat, gerenti punya! Sebab species dia ni hampir memenuhi tu kotak. Comel2 belaka muka mereka tu. Montel2 lagi tu ba! Eiiii…gerammnye I! *Lols. Jadi walaupun sia begitu resistant dalam soal makan bila berkaitan dengan si dia ni, tapi sebenarnya sia sangat menghargai kecomelannya. Cumill baituuuu! Hahahahahahaha.
Alamak! Apa sudah jadi dengan si kawan di gambar tadi tu. Alalalaalalala…karang merajuk lagi, susah kita. Hehehehehe. Nahh, itu gambar di atas tu pun actually another living proof yang species dia ni tidak didiskriminasikan oleh sia. Ya la, walaupun beliau berada di bawah timbunan baju-bajuku, tapi kira bagus sudah tu kalau melihat kepada situasi keseluruhan bilik sia ni. Kira bagus laitu kenampakan lagi mukanya, nahh, tangan dia pun nampak oso. Itu sudah bagus tau!! (Hahahahahahaahhhahahaah) 

Kalau sia tinguk2 muka dia ba…macam kesian jua ba dia tuuu. Ngam2 lagi sibuk2 orang cakap pasal H1N1, lepas tu macamana isu2 penutupan ladang ternakan dia yang sampai dipolitikkan, hinggalah kepada hal2 di meja makan. Then mau nda mau, sia terkenang jua la nasib si kawan di bawah timbunan bajuku itu. Kesian pula sia sama dia tu kejap. Duii giaa. 

Mungkin ia lebih daripada itu. Cos si dia yang kamurang nampak di gambar tu, bukan setakat si-dia yang biasa2. Si dia tu nama dia si Nelly, bukan sia yang kasi nama tu, tapi dia yang kasitau nama dia si Nelly, sebab ada tu tag bergantung sama2 dia iaitu “My name is Nelly.” Si Nelly ni pernah jadi “my favourite” untuk satu jangkamasa. Sia sayang gila sama si Nelly ni dulu. Jangan harap orang boleh pegang dia. Dia punya skin sangattt lembut. Kalau sia gesel skin dia tu pipi cousin sia yang masih budak, mesti dia ketawa tu sebab memang lembut tu bulu dia. Kalau sia di rumah, sia akan bawa si Nelly ni tinguk tv. Eiii…kenapa kunu sia sayang betul dengan si Nelly ni dulu? 


 
Sebab Nelly ni mungkin hanya satu patung binatang montel itu, tapi dia ada di tangan sia sebab “kasih sayang”. Untuk satu occasion, my boyfriend punya kesusahan mencari patung species dia ni, sampaikan dia round2 macam2 shopping mall pun dia nda jumpa. Bukan senang juga mau cari patung dia ni. So, gara2 kesungguhan dia mau belikan patung species si-dia ni, dia pegi online shop. Then secara diam2 dia order si Nelly ni. Bila order dia tu sampai di ofis dia, dia frust sebab “nampak di gambar macam besar”. So kegeraman ba dia kali tu, sebab dia harap yang itu patung besar sebab dia bayar pun harga yang “besar” juga. Mungkin dia pikir tidak berbaloi harga tu untuk patung sekecil itu, dan mungkin dia berharap yang patung tu besar supaya sia happy. When sia dapat tu patung, sia happy gila, tapi pada masa yang sama sia rasa bersalah sebab boyf sia spend duit yang banyak hanya untuk dapatkan sia patung tu, sedangkan untuk menggembirakan sia bukannya susah. Kalau patung harga RM10 pun sia akan gembira dengan intensity yang sama. Sia sebenarnya mau marah lagi dia kenapa dia mau spend2 banyak2 untuk benda2 mcm tu, tapi sia selalu kana marah balik sebab the last thing people want to hear is when they buy something for someone, the person lectures them on “how big spending” is bad for you – sebab duit dorang yang dorang pakai, suka hati dorang la mau spend macamana kan? So kehadiran si Nelly ni membawa byk makna untuk sia masa tu. So since dia sudah pun terbeli si Nelly ni untuk sia, so sia pun sayang la si Nelly ni baik2. Bila sia peluk si Nelly ni, sia tau besar maknanya dia untuk akhirnya berada dalam tangan sia. Jauh2 dia ni datang naik kapal terbang dan end up di sebelah sia. Walaupun si pembeli tu rasa sedikit kerugian sebab saiz si Nelly yang kecil, tapi sia berabis kasitau yang material si Nelly tu sangat bagus punya. I never find patung yang material dia begitu lembut, so maybe the price mostly go to the material ba tu, not the size. All in all, Nelly adalah satu kenangan manis untuk sia. 

Mentang2 lah the giver is now my ex, si Nelly pun ditaruh di bawah timbunan kain2 ahh, 256. *Lols. Apa pun…bravo to Nelly. You have a post dedicated just for ya bebeh. Muahsss my little Nelly. *giggles.

A Good Secret Keeper, Are You?

I have told you guys that I have been the place where some people come and share their problems. It’s not just that. They even share a lot of secrets. I never actually notice my “extra duty” until the little conversation that I had with my sister just now.

We have this very close first cousin (the one I mention in the post, “The Victim Of Birthday Bonus”). When we were small, she always preferred my sister. They had many good times that didn’t involve me. But now, it turns out to be the opposite. I become her favourite instead of my sister. Although I don’t have that much proof to earn her trust, but she actually takes the risk of trusting me. She told me about her dark secrets that not even her parents know about. And I have been keeping those secrets ever since. So when I had a chat with my sister just now, she mentioned that the cousin of ours just told her something…something that I already know much earlier. So I told my sister, “I knew about it already. In fact, I know a lot more than what you guys know.” That line knocks me. So does that mean I’m a good secret keeper? Am I always this way?

Actually…I have experiences back in schooldays when a friend found out that I told someone else a secret that she asked me to keep. I have long failed as a secret keeper. But maybe I have to rethink. Maybe I don’t fail yet. Take a moment and ask yourself. Are you gonna keep all the secrets people tell ya?

I have a few things to be put into consideration. I would share a secret in two conditions:

1.Some people come and tell me something they consider a secret, but then I know that some other people already know about it too, so automatically I’m loosen up on keeping my mouth shut about it. But I’ll still be careful that I only open my mouth to the group of people who already know about the secret.

2.When I’m told a secret and I know how important it is to the person, I still feel like it’s okay to share it with others who has no connection with the secret’s owner and less likely to bump into the secret’s owner. So it’s like telling a story to another person about someone who they don’t know. Because to me, a secret only means something when it’s kept from the people who could cause harm to you. Other than that, it sounds like another story that means nothing to others.

But one common mistake that we do in trying to keep a secret it…

When you give your trust to someone in an instant private conversation and thought the person gonna keep it for ya. This is the mistake that I did back in schooldays that got back to me – it left me completely stupid when the secret owner came back to me and said that “someone said that you told her about my secret.” Luckily, we don’t have much dirty little secrets when we were younger. I’m sure I did not cause anybody shame or lost of life or anything serious like that. I think that it takes a series of bitter experience to make you a better secret keeper. Please keep in mind that I don’t think anybody picks this profession as a “secret keeper.”

Anyway, I can admit that I am a much better secret keeper now. Especially when I respect people more and I understand why some secrets are so important to them and that they entrusts me with the secrets. Trust and faith from others are among the things I should be grateful for because they don’t come freely and easily. I have to earn them. So, as a grown up person I am, being able to keep a secret is actually an act of maturity.

So my little advice is, if someone comes to you and share the secret that if you tell others, would bring them shame and tarnish their good name, Let’s do this – Keep the secrets for them cos who knows one day you might need them to do the same thing for you. We all have secrets and if only we come to the right person to share it with. So again, challenge yourself that if the secret is really gonna leak out, make sure it’s not from your mouth. Let’s see how long can you keep it… *grinz. Being a secret keeper definitely gonna add good value to yourself as a human being. So to become a value-added human being, I don’t mind at all!!! Hehehehe. Good Luck!

When It’s A Woman Who Calls…

Just now, we faced a little problem. We already booked a venue and thought that we are given all the facilities ready. We found out a bit late that this certain accommodation that we need is not included in the facilities we paid for. We need to pay for the facility differently and that we must inform them much earlier for us to be able to get the facility ready for us. So a little dissatisfaction happens. My bro was complaining, my dad was mumbling. This thing caused us problems. So they asked me to make the call to the person in charge. So I did.

I made the call and the guy picked it up. I explained to him that we didn’t know we need to pay for the facility differently and because of that, we were facing some troubles. He courteously tell me that it is always known to most people that it should be done that way. So it was my bro and dad’s fault for not “asking enough” when they went to make the payment the other day. So, without even starting to “work something out” from that desperation, he finally gave himself up!? I passed the phone to the security guard and they talked a bit. And then I thought “that was it” for us, so I hung up. The guy called me again and said.

“Okay, you guys can use the facility. We usually don’t allow this without you guys getting the permit first but since that you are already in this situation, I will allow you. Just ask the security guard to help you guys out. I have given him the order to allow you guys use the facility you want.”

I said thank you and smiled. We saved ourselves from problems and most importantly, we saved some money too. When I told my aunties and uncles who were at the venue at that time that I just got an easy permission for something “not free”. My uncle blurted out, “Is that person a man or a woman?” I told him that the officer is a man. “No Wonder!” That’s how it works. If you want to ask something from a man, ask a woman to do it. A man won’t ever get a permission like that from another man. That’s according to my uncle.

Then, this brings me back to years ago. Back in uni, the word that appears to be so big for us is the word “Tips”, especially when the exam or test is approaching. Tips means Clues about the questions that are going to come out. So I remember, a coursemate, a Chinese guy passed me by and said to me, “Hey 256, I think you better go and ask Prof for some tips for this coming quiz.” Then I went, “I heard that Safri already went to meet Prof and he refused to give any tips.” Then he said this to me, “Kalau dengan Safri dia memang tidak akan bagi. Kalau u yang pegi mesti dia bagi.” That time, I thought he was just trying to sweet talk to me. But in reality, maybe that’s how it works. Your heart just melt when it’s the opposite sex that come to ask for something. You automatically become a little bit more compassionate.

But this perception is a going overboard too. I have my guyfriends who thought that I got what I want because I was using “all the charms” I have as a lady. I get a fast approval or even good treatment from the people I ask approval from – just because I’m using my secret weapons. Damn it! No, I never play dirty. Not knowing how to play dirty is my weakness actually, so don’t accuse me for getting something because I play dirty. When I told them that I get something fast, they keep saying that I’m using my charm. I don’t even have that charms ba, aiyooo!!!!! We women have abilities too, okay? We are qualified too. We don’t just get things easily just because we have charms! Damn it!! No, it sounds degrading to me. If I have all the charms but stupid, do you think people would give approval just for the freaking charms? Especially when big money is involved, would you risk it all just because a lady “who has charms” come to you? Oh come on! But if some people like the way I talk or present myself, I think that’s individual evaluation and I can only present myself the best I know. I will be grateful if people like it, but then it’s totally up to them.

Anyway, I do agree that women do have their own advantages over men, especially when it comes to talking people down. So women, if you have it, use it the right way. We have to stand tall using our own feet and don’t let the men think that we can live with our womanly charms alone. But then if it has to happen that way, I’d say why not. All charms are a blessing, right! *giggles.

You go gurl!!