"Missing The Bus"

Imagine you are at this familiar bus stop where usually there are some people who wait the bus at the same time. You know that you will not have to wait long cos there are a number of buses that will pass that route and most of the time, it's barely 10 minutes waiting.

So one day you find yourself waiting alone in the bustop. Maybe the rest have catched the earlier bus so you may be a little late. So you stand there alone, and finally saw a bus coming. You expect the bus to stop, but to your surprise, it doesn't stop. The driver fails to notice that you are waiting for a bus. Maybe he thinks that you want to cross the road because you don't wave you hand to stop the bus. But then you know, every bus driver should know that when someone stands there at the bus stop, is to wait for a bus. But it's too late. That bus has left.

Can you imagine the feeling? 

Imagine that this is your reaction. You are so pissed that you manage to shout and give a bad gesture to the driver. Surely the passengers must be wondering why are you acting that way. Logically, you can get another bus in no time so why so sensitive?

This is the thing that the passengers won't get to feel unless they become you. First, you are feeling ashamed that you have to wait alone and a bus that is not full, doesn't stop to pick you. Second is, you know you can have another 5 buses for the next half an hour, that's not the problem. The problem is, that earliest bus that you can catch Should Stop for you. That's what the bus is for, right? That's how the driver gets the income from, right? So for no reason, the bus just fails to do that.

So there are happenings in our lives that similar to that situation. 

Sometimes you just be the person who misses the bus you don't deserve to miss. And it doesn't really matter how many buses after that, just that moment of missing that bus you expect to catch. 

5 minutes isn't long but if only you catch the bus on time, you could have saved that 5 minutes. :))

The Jobless Story

I get SMS from an acquaintant, asking about vacancy, If I know anyone or anywhere who have vacancy that she can apply. She has been asking this to me for so many times in a few months. Whenever she gets bored at home, she will SMS be if I know where she can get a job. Having a few people like her who come to me and asked about vacancy, it got me wondering. Actually it's really not hard to find a job if they really want to do anything as long as they have a job. The thing is, they are very picky. They don't want a job that is tiring. They don't want to come home late. They want somewhere very near their house area and on top of all that, they want a job that pays good. 

Before this, I told them the office nearby needed a clerk. It was the vacancy everyone was asking me for. Then, I said to them, "You know how to type, right? Cos you will have to type customer's letters." Even that basic thing they did not know. They replied me with, "Oh, if computer saya tidak berapa pandai." What?? Then how? So they have to let go the  vacancy because of lack of skills. Then they did ask me if I needed extra assistant. The thing is, I don't know what can they do to assist me cos to them it might look fun when they have someone to teach them something new and then get paid at the same time, and go home at 5, who don't want that, right. When they themselves know they won't have much to do because they don't really have sthing that they are really good at. Is this mindset normal?

Those who are stuck like this, I hope they can just get busy polishing their skill, maybe attend courses - at least know how to type! One shouldn't stop learning and expect others to be considerate, giving them the job that they know what to do instead of what they are needed to do. Even if you have any "orang dalam" in the government or private sector, all they can help you is get you the chance that thousands out there don't get, but in the end, they can't help you if you have no qualification, unless you are talking to a very considerate Owner of the company, and they give you the job out of pity. But u still need to prove yourself, if you can be productive or not. You'll still get kicked after a few months if you fail to contribute. 

So if the locals have this kind of mindset, maybe it's true that our economy will be in trouble if we rely on them, cos there are many jobs out there that need someone to do but won't suit their requirement. So is that why all the boutiques and shops normally employ foreigners? 

I can only write this but only you can do sthing about it. You can't just wait for things to fall on your lap. The older you get, the more people expect from you so you can't keep telling people "I don't know how to work with computers" just like you did when you just finished your SPM. It's time to upgrade!! 

You Pay or You Do It Yourself. Simple Isn't It?

My supplier told me that he doesn't want to do the work because it can take him hours, or even the whole day to do it - when he can earn so much more doing something else. That's why he finds someone else to do it, because he still needs to get the job done to keep business coming in. Which also means, the work that he doesn't want to do, is an important work to him. But when it comes to charges, he doesn't want to pay high, cos to him it shouldn't cost that much. Of course if he argues about charges, he'll get the remark, "Then do it yourself". Which we already know he won't. LOLS. So what's the solution?

Something that some people fail to address is the "value of time" and that creativity can come from practice and experience, but you can't expect it to just come anytime when you need it, that's why, "creativity cost something", and it can cost A LOT cos not everyone has it. The only reason people can argue about charge is when they think that "time and creativity" don't have charges - and this will be true if they use the ones of their own. Which means, stop arguing about charges and go ahead "Do It Yourself". But in his case, he puts a lot of value to his own time, and no value to others' time. So if they can't sort it out, means No Business. No Business means No Money. No Money means they can start packing and forget about the business altogether. 

Ridiculous, right. Very basic understanding. But I believe people learn as long as they live. So thats why we are here. Learning as much to live well. Those who can adapt to this, will survive in what they do. :))

I Told Him, I'd Catch All The Colourful Balls He'll Throw At Me

Sometimes when our life hit a plateau, we think that we are not making use of our potentials. There are things that we can explore, but don't see them yet. Are they not around? or they are around but we are just too ignorant? That's why, because of this thought, I've been praying for opportunities to come to me, and even if it means I have to work harder, I have to sacrifice more and I might have to go extra miles just to grab  them all. Recently, I see the opportunities coming, almost all at once. Then I remember my prayers. My good God, He's giving me what I want. Then I had a really bad time just now when my expectation just gets high, and I realized I was unable to do them all at once! My head hurt. Darn. What did I say to God again? That I will have a way to deal with them, right? Then what happened? 

Now I see. That where the challenge is. It's not directly from the opportunities but how I deal with them in trying to fulfill my own expectation. So I imagine myself catching all the colourful balls that God throws at me, and I hope my hands are never full to catch them on time. At least I'm doing my first step. I want to improve my life, myself and to maximize even more all my potentials.and I'll get busy catching the balls. 

He's answering my prayers. Give me the strength to do all my responsibilities.And thank you Lord, for some magical reason, I really find out that the more I spend time with you, the more I feel that You're always there for me and my loved ones. Totally Blessed. Alleluia.  

MEN, according to Oprah Winfrey

"If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. 

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. 

 Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who have a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are. Even if he has has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending... Compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships. There is nothing cute about baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new

relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you. A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals. Look for someone complimentary...

not supplementary.

Dating is fun... Even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes... When a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him ~ he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful: Dr. Phil says... You should know that: You're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one. They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices. Make the right one. Ladies take care of your own hearts.."

Note: I copied this from a Facebook status. Whether or not it's from Oprah, it's still valid and relevant. Take care of yourself well, ladies...:))

Unbelieve The Believer, Unfaith The Faithful

Do you recall so many times when you just "quit believing" in Him and His power? It's usually because your prayers were not answered according to your time. In fact, from my experience, it could turn your heart bitter, sour, even tasteless, and made you just want to forget about your religion. A few friends of mine also said the same thing. "I feel like my prayers are not heard." when they were asked why they were considering another religion.

I think, to have prayers "delayed" is not gonna end there. It will happen again. But to you, who are still a believer, what about you? Why are you still a believer? What about all your prayers and petitions that are not answered or the help from above that never arrives? I'm sure all of you have your own story to tell.

I can say that I'm going through that again. I have some petition that are "yet to be answered" but for some reason, instead of losing heart, I keep saying the little intention whenever I pray. It's been months that I even have special praying sessions for this particular petition. If I were my much younger version, I would have sulked at God (again). Well, even at the present, I still occasionally ask God, "God, Why?" But then there's sthing more than just asking Him IN DOUBT. I just know He has been listening to everything. I just know. Sometimes I'm tempted to just go back to my old ways of reacting to Him, by getting mad at Him, by blaming Him and shouted at Him in anger. Maybe I could just refuse to pray! Maybe I could stop going to Church! Maybe I could stop finding comforts in Godly stories and Bible verses! I can just do all that to show Protect to God for now answering my prayers in my own terms and conditions.

I could, but would I? Everytime the devil whispers to me Doubt in His power, when I'm tempted to just rebel at Him and accuse Him for so many things, something just stops me. Or even if it happens, it would not be long after that, I gain my consciousness back to praising His glory. I could even speak and answer the Devil on God's behalf that he can continue dreaming about poisoning my mind. I can try to be critical and analytic but God's power in my life, is not more than just hearsays. More than just rumours. Or gossips. Or fairy tales. I HAVE WITNESSED HIS POWER WORKING IN MY LIFE. How can I deny Him now? I don't have that ability to do it anymore.

Come to think about it, for those of you who have surrendered your faith because you lost hope in God, did you only judge God on your latest petition that He doesn't answer yet? How about so many times before that He blessed you. Moments of your success, moments of laughter and joy, moments of recovery from sickness, Did you forget?

Even during the time when my own petition is not yet answered, He keeps blessing me daily. He takes care of my loved ones, and how He helps me in overcoming problem by problem, giving me the ways to the solutions, giving me foods to nourish my body and giving me ways towards the small details of my Happiness. That's why, when I ask God, "God, why? Why did you let sthing like that happen to me? Can I know the reason why?" - I just know that nothing is accidental. I have decided that GOD is in this from the very start. Things might look a bit messy at the present, but I just know that mystery is going to unfold, and I'm gonna be the one who will be rewarded by much delight. He's working in my favour. That's why He let me wait for a bit, cos I'm not alone in this world. It's not realistic that God answers my prayers right then and there when I have to follow the course of the world - where millions of people are praying for their own petitions too. Sometimes what we ask for, involves a lot of people. Things need time to fall in place. So with this understanding, you will know WHY, as long as I don't deny this wisdom that is given to me, I will never succeed in trying to Un-believe or Un-faith myself - even if I consider myself as the most selfish in this world, I just can't. GOD IS REAL. He's the one who created me, He knows what's He's doing. 

When you ask me, How do you know? My answer is, "I JUST KNOW". That's the beauty of Faith. Thank you Lord for guiding me. Help me to grow even more in Faith and I wish that one day, you allow me to SHOW YOUR WORK through my life, and I swear those people will never doubt in You anymore. 

Alleluia.:)

Faith Is Not Just For Show

During our hangout yesterday, my friend talked about a scenario of a devout follower (which happened to be her bro in-law) who likes to preach about religion and God, who likes to attend church' activities and constantly advising others about the right way of doing things. But it's quite confusing cos his life is a mess. He resigned his work and decided not to work anymore. From there, they get into financial  crises. It has been years that their home and car installment were paid by my friend's mom. And even when he said he decided to have his own business, the family collected money just so he could have it. But nothing really works. He still doesn't put enuff effort. While others are busy paying his bills, he's getting busy attending church activities. Which my friend referred as "totally out of proportion".

She said it's from your way of life, you'll get respected by people. You will honour your religion if you live in such a way that others can salute you for doing your responsibility well. Cos if you cannot balance your commitment, you'll be a burden to others, you're hurting others. What an embarrassment to not adapting faith into way of life. She got so pissed and said, It's like he can lazy around and just pray to keep getting financial assistance from others. Goodness gracious. One heck of a topic but sores the ears but you know she has a point. Nobody's perfect but the point is, everyone has to learn from mistakes and keep improving. Faith is more than just for a show :)

Should We Give Miley Cyrus A Break?

The Adorable Miley Cyrus. Her stunning hair. The best long hair that I saw on google...hehe

I read about her performance in Video Music Award 2013 that was held recently. I was a bit influenced by the hatred notes made by the public. I watched the clip, again, I was shocked too. I admired some of her songs like The Climb and When I Look At You. Her long hair, her good girly image, I'm sure she has been a wonderful inspiration to the teenage girls out there. I  never really watched Hanna Montana, but I know she was so famous for that, so again the world watches her grow up from a little kid, a young girl to -- this one, a grown up girl in her 20. Many of us don't have this kind of limelight. If we make a breakthrough performance like this in our friend's party, I'm sure the most it can go viral to is just in SMS or Facebook. Still never as much coverage as Miley got on her VMA performance. Remember the tweaking, the grinding, the foam finger? Those are all the highlights to her so-called shameful performance that night.

Of course I hated the stage performance too. It looked so indecent. The reaction on Will Smith's face, would be exactly on your face if you bring along your kids in the show. But that was before I actually watched the the clip from the beginning. How she came to the stage in the bear suit, with some dancers with the same bear theme costumes. To my surprise, it was a good opening. The music, the aura of fame, she has that. When she made that move, it all looked acceptable, cos she's Miley Cyrus. She has the license to just do what she wants on stage. I don't know where that thought came from. I just had it while watching the opening. So when I listened to the song, it was not a bad song at all. Why didn't I read anything good when there are indeed good things about her performance?  So, now I know I never actually listened to that song. I went to youtube and look for the official MTV of the song "We Can't Stop", and her some other live performances before that. Then I wondered, why the public sounded so unaware of her new approach? She was already into this way before VMA. The song was about "freedom" of doing what you want, even if you'll get hated for it. She said it in the lyrics. How she changed her hair, her dressing, it was all part of how she gonna present herself with her new album. I remember Britney's era, and then Rihanna. They were all used to have this pure good girl image before they turned rebellious and became who they are today. So what's new with Miley Cyrus?

Okay, she could have made it a bit more decent than what she did on the duet with the male singer, and how she stripped herself into that nude bikini, didn't do her pastime justice but look at us. Do you think we turn out to be everything that people expect us to be? They can just wish that we will remain the same but we can't stop from changes, or from the tendency to be what we really want to be. So for the 20-year-old Miley, this is her time. It might not be her best performance in her lifetime, she might or she might not regret it but still, I can feel that part of her just wants to express herself out of the box, and if she hit the wrong note, she'll learn and she'll get better. So guys, enough with the bashing. Lets move on and give this girl a break. Sometimes I'm quite surprised how these westerners who I thought are living in the open and honest culture all their lives, actually give that much fuss on something like this. Well, okay, lets hope there's no more shock like this from her, okay. Hahaha. Good luck Miley. We know you are more than that so go ahead and keep shining. Your fans have not given up on you yet, I'm pretty sure of that. Wish you all the best!

“The Lost Notebook”

Do you guys realize that the problem in humans is not because “they can’t think”, but it’s because sthing can simply deny them from taking benefit from whatever kind of rational thinking that their mind can produce. Do you get the idea?

For example, you lost a broken notebook. Okay, maybe you misplaced it, or maybe someone stole it, but then, hey, it’s a broken notebook! You never need it anymore for the past few months but you just keep so much hurt in you. You can go on telling people why you shouldn’t feel sad but deep inside, you feel the pain of losing it. I mean, of course it’s if that you still have it cos it’s your belonging, it should be with you and not somewhere else. You can’t help but think of all the things the notebook has done for you. Its years in service, maybe you spent your memorable moments holding it. You just can’t let go that sentimental value of that notebook. Okay, maybe a normal phase for anyone who has just lost something.

But that’s not normal when it holds you back. You can’t keep bringing the lost notebook story to people, making it a big deal – which you almost forgot the fact that it’s broken and no longer can be used. Guys, this can sound really simple but you could be one of them who are still trapped with “your lost broken notebook” story. Things that you know you are able to let go, but you refuse. You think you can’t just let go sthing that once was so meaningful to you. Regrets keep coming to you, wishing that you could have taken care of it better. Oh no, again, you forgot it’s broken.

So if this is familiar with you, it’s time to let it go guys!! If in your case it’s not “ a broken notebook” but a friend or someone important that is drifting away from you, remember this. If they belong to be in your life, they will catch up. If they are not, someone will come and fill that place. Just leave the space vacant, to be fair. *winks. The clock keeps ticking, it won’t stop to any drama we put or how much delay we take, heck, even when we are sleeping, the clock will be ticking happily. Time gone will not come back, so if you want to grieve for something, do it fast, finish it fast and quickly turn a new page. Get busy writing it. Be a professional “author” of your book of life. And sure as hell a professional author won’t keep grieving about a lost broken notebook. :)

Note: Trust in His wonderful plan, and keep doing your best. Get up from every setback, and remember, if people do you wrong, it’s totally their problem, only when you give them so much space to disturb your own peace, then only it becomes your problem too. So decide wisely, guys.

Guilt.

Do you ever have this one guilt that you just can’t let go? You have told the same stories to your friends, your colleagues, your mates, but it appears that you never really tell the person. The only person who is yet to know about it is him. The one you feel guilty at.

I won’t say that it’s all fated that he’s still around, and really available to hear anything I want to say. I made the effort, and located him, but never really said it. Only recently that I thought of seriously going to ask for his forgiveness.  I had the chance before but I did not take it. I thought that after all the damage, he has forgiven me anyway. And how we used to talk again like adults, he told me how I turned his world upside down when I left him but then what mattered was he was happy to see me again. I remember that when I appeared that time, it wasn’t for the most noble intention. I was just testing the water. When will I learn my lesson?

So after some bittersome trial that happened in my journey lately, I finally thought of him. Looks like I was never over this guilt yet. I still owe him that. I knew it somehow that I must come clean with these big guilts before I could really proceed with my life. The fact that I still have his gift, the gift that he thought was a token from his heart, I lost count how many times I asked people’s opinion if I should return it. Now, what am I waiting for?

He’s around and he’s waiting for me to say my first word. I should just say it to him just to clear it off my chest. This world is just not fair, right. Especially when you are the victim. Why doesn’t life make it easier for human beings and their helplessness. If it were so simple, I could simply pick not to hurt anyone.  So today, coincident or not, is his birthday. A perfect time for me to do a bit of recollection, and finally talk with my most sensible sense – I want to ask for forgiveness. Although I can defend myself why I do what I did, no, it’s not about that. I just thought that I could have done it better but I did not. I was too coward, too selfish and it was all about me, me me. I have come this far and it’s time for me to really mean it when I say I’m sorry.

Even in my prayer, I keep having the same thought of guilt. It’s time to really really let go of this guilt. I’m gonna ask for his forgiveness with every bit of sincerity that I have, and I know, with such a kind heart that he has, he will forgive me.  And from there, I hope to be free from this too.

God, have mercy us poor sinners. Guide us to do the right thing, to correct our mistakes and to fix our ways. In Jesus name, Amen.