Do you recall so many times when you just "quit believing" in Him and His power? It's usually because your prayers were not answered according to your time. In fact, from my experience, it could turn your heart bitter, sour, even tasteless, and made you just want to forget about your religion. A few friends of mine also said the same thing. "I feel like my prayers are not heard." when they were asked why they were considering another religion.
I think, to have prayers "delayed" is not gonna end there. It will happen again. But to you, who are still a believer, what about you? Why are you still a believer? What about all your prayers and petitions that are not answered or the help from above that never arrives? I'm sure all of you have your own story to tell.
I can say that I'm going through that again. I have some petition that are "yet to be answered" but for some reason, instead of losing heart, I keep saying the little intention whenever I pray. It's been months that I even have special praying sessions for this particular petition. If I were my much younger version, I would have sulked at God (again). Well, even at the present, I still occasionally ask God, "God, Why?" But then there's sthing more than just asking Him IN DOUBT. I just know He has been listening to everything. I just know. Sometimes I'm tempted to just go back to my old ways of reacting to Him, by getting mad at Him, by blaming Him and shouted at Him in anger. Maybe I could just refuse to pray! Maybe I could stop going to Church! Maybe I could stop finding comforts in Godly stories and Bible verses! I can just do all that to show Protect to God for now answering my prayers in my own terms and conditions.
I could, but would I? Everytime the devil whispers to me Doubt in His power, when I'm tempted to just rebel at Him and accuse Him for so many things, something just stops me. Or even if it happens, it would not be long after that, I gain my consciousness back to praising His glory. I could even speak and answer the Devil on God's behalf that he can continue dreaming about poisoning my mind. I can try to be critical and analytic but God's power in my life, is not more than just hearsays. More than just rumours. Or gossips. Or fairy tales. I HAVE WITNESSED HIS POWER WORKING IN MY LIFE. How can I deny Him now? I don't have that ability to do it anymore.
Come to think about it, for those of you who have surrendered your faith because you lost hope in God, did you only judge God on your latest petition that He doesn't answer yet? How about so many times before that He blessed you. Moments of your success, moments of laughter and joy, moments of recovery from sickness, Did you forget?
Even during the time when my own petition is not yet answered, He keeps blessing me daily. He takes care of my loved ones, and how He helps me in overcoming problem by problem, giving me the ways to the solutions, giving me foods to nourish my body and giving me ways towards the small details of my Happiness. That's why, when I ask God, "God, why? Why did you let sthing like that happen to me? Can I know the reason why?" - I just know that nothing is accidental. I have decided that GOD is in this from the very start. Things might look a bit messy at the present, but I just know that mystery is going to unfold, and I'm gonna be the one who will be rewarded by much delight. He's working in my favour. That's why He let me wait for a bit, cos I'm not alone in this world. It's not realistic that God answers my prayers right then and there when I have to follow the course of the world - where millions of people are praying for their own petitions too. Sometimes what we ask for, involves a lot of people. Things need time to fall in place. So with this understanding, you will know WHY, as long as I don't deny this wisdom that is given to me, I will never succeed in trying to Un-believe or Un-faith myself - even if I consider myself as the most selfish in this world, I just can't. GOD IS REAL. He's the one who created me, He knows what's He's doing.
When you ask me, How do you know? My answer is, "I JUST KNOW". That's the beauty of Faith. Thank you Lord for guiding me. Help me to grow even more in Faith and I wish that one day, you allow me to SHOW YOUR WORK through my life, and I swear those people will never doubt in You anymore.
Alleluia.:)
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