The Friday Is So Good...

It’s a mourning day for the Catholics. A day to remember the crucifixtion of Jesus Christ. For all the Catholics, let us take this chance to meditate and think for a while, what our faith has done to us, and would we become without it. That’s the way I want to put it – the simplest language even the non-devoted could understand.

We have almost come to the end of the fasting season and what do we get from this season? Feels like it’s only yesterday that I was talking about Ash Wednesday, and now the season is coming to an end. But...it could be a bigger beginning to some people.

During this season, I actually feel so blessed. I have made a few changes that would affect me in the long run. Some of my problems have also solved much easily than I thought. You tell me...how can I NOT be thankful to God? Despite being someone who lacks in many areas even speaking of faith alone, He never abandons me. Yes, the same goes to the rest of us. It’s about noticing and sensing in what form the blessing comes to our lives. I will NOT mislook this, because I know I am a nobody who has nothing and the only reason why I’m still here is because the grace from above. Sometimes, when I say my thankfulness in my prayers, I feel that I can never say enough, as much as I mean it. I mean, it’s silly for me to ask this, but I hope the Lord would pause and look inside my heart and see how much more and more thankfulness I actually mean than what my mouth can say. It’s just too much. Thanks Lord :)

Without This faith that I have, even how small it is compared to what others have, it still has A LOT to do with who I am today. It’s because of my faith that I put constraints to my life, that I care to be called – good, nice – it’s because of this Faith. This faith taught me that I would be appreciated because of the good deeds that I do. Though I might not do it to get something back, but if I were to get something back, then I would be so grateful to receive something good. Speaking of “Good” – how good can I be? I know that I can’t be that good anyway. I am a human being with a lot of defects that mostly come from my own humanly weaknesses, but I realize that to be perfectly good is not the point. There’s a reason why we are created this way – and when we are so busy talking about perfection, it isn’t part of the agenda after all. It’s about fighting the evils with the small weapon of goodness inside us. It’s damn hard, yeah right, but that’s the point of telling who’s strong, who is not. If life is just so easy for us, we can simply give in to evil deeds and get away with it. As sinful as this world has become now, the challenges are getting bigger. If you can survive this world of sins without any blood on your hands, you’re might be a warrior in the eyes of your faith. Because it’s just hard. It’s just hard to be different – and this kind of different is “different” in the way that makes people look at you and suddenly got inspired – the kind of inspiration that make people see that it’s NOT BAD at all to be GOOD. To even have this mission is almost ridiculous to begin with because to be someone slightly different from others is not easy – in this world where we want to be EQUAL and we want to stand and sit the same height with those who are labelled as “great”, it’s just so easy to get drifted from your own agenda in life and without you knowing, you have been working your bum off just to achieve someone else’s dream. I tell you people, this is just a pinch of the challenges that we have to take on. How can we even enter this track without A FAITH that can tell you where to go, what to do – oh man, we seriously do need Faith.

I’m writing all this because I want to do some memory recall on what my faith has done to me. I might be “a lost sheep” without this faith, yes, even how humbly small it is. I think, it’s not meant to be that I have everything I want when I still have a long journey ahead of me to achieve them all. The point is to use this life to achieve our goals, and whether or not we still have that good Samaritan inside us on the way to the top, that’s the challenge. If we look for happiness all around, can we make that happiness exist in our hearts without stepping on others’ back or hear someone else screaming in pain – can we do that, people? Because to do OTHERWISE is surely much easier. After all, life is that mysterious. I seriously DON’T WANT to know everything yet. I want to uncover the mysteries one by one with my own hands. I want the Lord to know that I have seen a small part of this life that show me that the pleasure of this life is when you fall down and your own knees got hurt, bleed your own blood, you cry in pain with your own tears – It’s about you being the weak human being who is doing whatever possible to survive this life. How about that? :) I’m thankful for this day because it’s a celebration of FAITH, once again. I’m thankful for all the blessings that are given to my loved ones and I, and to all the people who have brought joys to our lives. A day like this reminds me of you guys even more. Praise the Lord.