My Another First Times

I have done quite a few changes in the past 1 week and already I'm feeling the massive difference!

I have the aim to get closer to you guys so I put the chatbox and even the pingbox at my blog so u guys can be seen here and u guys can even chat with me privately. I know that most of my visitors are silent readers judging from the invisible sensor report for my blog. These changes only take place in 1 week and already I thought I’ve been this way for months! I also started adding friends into my Facebook friendlist and I could share their thoughts and experience daily. Although I use Facebook just to link to my blog, I also dropped comments on the interesting things that they wrote. I really feel I am a step closer to my online friends, which most of them are really happening people. Thanks for accepting me to be part of your little community :)

So far, I always make myself available at YM and IRC. Speaking of YM, I am also very new to this application. Tonite is written in the history because after all the years that people have started using YM, I have only started learning how to make voice call!! And then tonite was also the first time that I saw someone on webcam! Omigawd, so that’s how it works, right?

It all happened so fast when I pressed some button before I could actually see the face of the person I was chatting with. Since it happened so fast, I took a big gulp realizing that actually I have not explored a lot of facilities that cyberworld has in store for us. Many people have used this to really make the world smaller and get really close despite being miles away from each other.

I want to say my special thanks to this online friend who actually taught me this first lesson. Heheehe. Guess what? Because I was so “sakai2”about this YM, he actually caught my laughter on the YM voice messages and I got really embarrassed. Hehehe. And guess what, he officially the first person who got me on YM Voice call after many failed attempts and after we got through, we didn’t actually know what to speak about. We chatted more in written conversation. Hehehehe. This is a great experience I want to remember and I would surely remember the person who brought this experience to me. Thanks a lot to Consen for that..Pheww…why I feel relieved that my laptop doesn’t have camera? *Lols. I would hate to stupidly make unplanned appearance just like how I got my laughter on the voice messages just because I didn’t realize the application has started recording. My goodness!!! Hahahahahahaha. The funniest part was when Consen had to show me from the webcam what A HEADPHONE looks like...aha, that's the peak of my ke"sakai"an. Hahaaahahahahahha. Thanks Consen, you're so sweet. But with all the equipments I have, I wasn't such a beginner cos I could use my handphone's earphone and my walkman's mic to finally make the voicecall happened! Hehehe :PP

Thanks a lot for another First times that took place tonite. I really appreciate it. You people are just wonderful. I think, give me a month. I hope I could be equally good as you guys. No more blushing moments during more first times in the future! Hahahahaha. Thanks…muahss u all.

NOTE: There's always a first time in everything. So it's okay to feel like a kid who just started to learn how to walk cos everyone starts like that, agree?

Part II: Online Identity: WHY?

Continuation from Part I

And then, not long after that, someone else smashed me in public channel – the least that I expect this figure was also tired of seeing my secrecy? And said, At least you let me know your job ba. Why do you have to pretend? (That it not to mention that he said I shouldn't be too cunning and playful) – Suddenly something knocked me, I almost burst out laughing – I’m Under WHAT LAW that I must tell you my job? And Why people are sometimes TOO UPSET when certain people are not generous about their personal details? I mean, ASK YOURSELF “WHY” are you upset in the first place. If you are one of my relatives or the person that I walk the aisle with, you HAVE the right to be upset why you still don’t know my job or my last 4-digit IC number. But we are talking about the Freaking CYBER so called –virtual world here, people. Think again if it’s even right to react how you have reacted towards these anonymous figures.

And I should mention this earlier that, on Dec 2008, I received another phonecall coming from a person I know from virtual world, who was the first one who got access to me. Maybe he got too excited to show off to other chatters that he got what other chatters don't, so he said this “[256], We are going to go out.” I said, “What do you mean?” He said, “I’m going to Expose you, and also me for the chatters to see.” Then I said, “Why do you have to include me? I’m not part of you guys.” He said, “Yes [256], you’re one of us!” Then I said, “I’m not giving my permission. What, do you think this is a political association or something? We are just an IRC community here. Which law from which planet are you using? Enuff! If you want to expose yourself, go ahead. Don’t decide for other people.” I hate it when someone is using my friendship to show others that he's the hero. And then blackmail me something like "You make one wrong move, I'm going to expose you." Sheittt laaa! (Hahahahaha :PPP. Okay, I said that while I'm using pokemon mask. *Lols)

Suddenly this cyberworld is making another stress-demon for me. WHY? A recent chat that I had with a chatter who first knows me from my blog – said to me. “I’m not hiding [256]. It’s you who are hiding.” I don’t know why I feel that it’s not quite right. I said to him, Geez, why people think I’m hiding? Look, I had enough of this. Do you guys realize something?

It’s because of your freaking expectation that makes it look like I’m hiding. Do you see that??? Only when you expect TOO MUCH from me that you think I’m hiding. Only when you expect to KNOW EVERYTHING about me that you think I’m being secretive. It’s your right to feel “Oh, I wish she could open up more about herself” but you have no right to smash me that you want to know This Much and I only offer you That Much. I mean, you and your rights – me and my rights. Or is it only you who have rights?

Why people make it look like I’m doing something wrong because I’m using my freaking online identity? As far as I know, some people enjoy chatting with me, some people enjoy my blog, EVEN IF they only know me by my nick. Cos now you realize that in this virtual world, WHAT I can offer and share with you guys in the boundary of virtual world (that if, If I go offline, I’m back to reality) is ALL and THE BEST that this virtual world can give to us. We are here to have fun and rest from our reality stress. You don’t have to CARE or GET HURT why that stupid [256] is not sharing people her house address? Damn, care about your spouse or your in laws or your brother or your mistress or ANYONE you want – but don’t bother and spend sleepless nite BLAMING and CURSING me – damn that girl…At least she tell me her last name!!! I think she should go to hell for using such an irritating online identity!! Ouch, you guys didn't just curse at me, did you? (*Lols)

Come on…I’m trying to correct something. This isn’t just about me. I’m taking myself as an example only cos I think I have received the side impact of using online identity. As a matter of fact, I’m sorry to say that I am NOT that anonymous actually. Stop this hype as if I am a mystery to be discovered. Some people know my name and they have confirmed that whoever behind this nick [256] does exist. Don’t you guys feel guilty making me feel like I’m a cyber criminal? I am a real human too, ya know. I don’t have time to recreate another long list of DETAILS to mislead the people I know from cyberworld. You’ll be surprised that when you finally know me, you’ll realize that I hide very little about myself. Especially after I release this blog. I tell my real experience and the experiences of the people I know.

So if you come to me and complain, Why that chatter is telling others that her gender is a male? Look…If the person makes you believe that she’s a male and THAT’S IT, please stick to your day job, take care for your family or what to cook for dinner – don’t spend a freaking time worrying WHY? WHY? WHY? did she lie about her gender. *Lols. Unless you’re a girl and you fall in love with “her” after believing that she’s a male, cos she sounds so masculine and caring during the chat sessions, promises you the world – and makes you write down your dream on a paper that “I’m going to marry this guy and 1 year from now, we are going to have kids” …Aha, that’s when you should feel alarmed. Because the person is using her online identity to HURT and FOOL someone and stop someone’s life clock from ticking normally…Oh yeah, that one is different. I hope we have Cybercops to arrest her – Please don’t lie about your gender next time – maybe put behind virtual bars? or got hanged using virtual gallow?. Ahaa…ridiculous right? Maybe you people just have to be extra careful before you FALL for lies coming from this freedom that the unlimited virtual world offers us. Cos sorry to say – this is the risk that you face when you decide to be here.

On the contrary, if an online identity brings you NOTHING but smiles and laughters, why EXPECT more? If that online identity doesn’t disturb your life, why do you still feel disturbed? You get what I mean? And if you tell me, Can you expect anything from virtual world to switch to your reality? YES YOU CAN!! I mean, don’t forget that a cartoon character like Pikachu can’t be doing all the typing for this blog right? It has to be a real human, right? So behind an online identity, there is still a human being. So yes, anything reality can start from the virtual world. I believe that A LOT of people here have honesty to offer. They also won’t stop a virtual connection or chemistry from going to reality, but they don’t expect too much or they don’t force things to happen. Just let it happen on its own. One thing leads to another and if this is DESTINED, yes, we will thank this virtual world for letting us meet. But if you ask me, are Online Identity users are playing tricks, bluffs and lies? NO. This isn’t about which virtues they use, this is about HOW safe and comfortable they want to appear in this unpredictable world of internet.

Just RESPECT how they do it, people.

Especially when they don’t disturb your life.

Isn't life short enough to have time to stop having more and more fun because of small matters like this? So you know the answer. Respect each other and this world is going to be a much better place for us. :)

Online Identity or not, the person behind that Nick has a heart too. Remember that :)

Part I: Online Identity. WHY?

Believe it or not, if anyone should write about this, maybe I’m fit enough to do so. Actually I have written about this before but back then, it’s not the right time to publish it. Now I feel the needs to do so. I want to write a new one, very very spontaneous now, and hopefully to the point.

Cyberworld, a word of illusion to some people. It’s virtual and not reality. Now I am in my blog, a space where I put my writings for other people to see. The platform is in the virtual world. Something you can see, but you can’t touch. Most of my readers are also those who come to this so-called illusion world. It’s here people, that you and I first met. And here we are, still enjoying and appreciating what’s good that we can share together.

Meeting in virtual world gets more exciting when people who are strangers, got to talk in chatrooms. They are using many kinds of nicks, from cute to strange. IRC is fun because we can see the list of nicks and simply click which one we want to initiate chat with. We always do it randomly at first, and then we start to have preferences. We spot some nicks that has that “aura” and attraction to maybe know the chatter better. Yes you may. This is your right.
Let me talk about your OTHER right. You are under NO laws or regulation that YOU MUST identify yourself as who you are in your IC (as registered by NRD) so that other people know it’s you who are typing something. IRC/virtual world isn’t a political association where you MUST list all your details so the other members know who you are.

So whoever wants to go to virtual world, they use different kind of approach. Some of them use virtual world as “another part of reality” where they still talk and discuss things with the people they meet everyday. Some of them do it totally the opposite. They want to be half anonymous – let only the real life friends know who they are and let the strangers remain strangers. And the other kind is those who totally treat this world as “another world” who is a separate world from reality; where EVERYONE is anonymous. Even if he might come across his real life friends or family, he wants to still stay anonymous. Whichever they choose, can you deny their freedom? Or can others deny your freedom? If you say yes, then present us which acts are you referring to.

Back in 2008, a few months after I started chatting on IRC, I’ve been using this nick. I just picked this nick very randomly. It’s just lucky that this 3-digit hit me first and so – I just typed /nick Twofivesix[256] and then because I could just join the chatroom without people really care how long I parked there, I just felt like, Hey, I think I’m gonna register this nick. My mind was THAT simple, my dear friends. If you think that I already sketched a plot how I would do it in 3 years in cyberworld – you are WRONG. Nothing is ever planned. Trust me I have better things to do.

I first came as a real flirt in the chatroom. I just enjoyed having fun with creative conversation and dragging more and more people to talk about a topic and have a good time laughing. Exactly why I came to the virtual world, in the first place. But then, the more familiar I become, the more personal it is for some people who think that they want to know me more. Then lesser that I care about it, the more curious these people become. Then some of the have made the moves to start digging Who is that Twofivesix[256]. I wasn’t that “strict” with my online identity policy actually. I told you I didn’t plan this at all. I do what's cool. Finally someone from the virtual world got my phone number and speak to me on the phone.

Twofivesix[256], Give me Your Freaking Picture!!! Maybe too tired of waiting, finally someone blurted it out. So fine, I actually MMSed my pic to the person and guess what, he told me he could have won a bet over my picture. And not enough with that, someone violated the law by digging my full name and IC number using my mobile number from some insiders of the telco company which service I use – just to check if this Twofivesix[256] is real or she’s just bluffing about her details? Thanks, cos the person proves that what I told him was all truth. He had to say “Sorry [256], I doubted you.” What do you guys think I would feel?

...to be continued in PART II

But The Friendster Said So!!

Ini lah kalau sudah wujud macam2 method untuk buat networking. Social sites macam Friendster and Facebook – memang menarik. Schoolmates lama2 pun you boleh track. The last time I browse Friendster memang cukup interesting. All my seniors pun sia dapat track balik. Cuma since I don't have the account, I just browse and tumpang tengok saja without link to their page. Cukup untuk sia tau update dorang and dapat tengok pictures yang dorang put public. Sudah sangat2 interesting for me. Since I don't have an account, dorang tidak dapat tau yang sia ada visit page dorang. So you never know berapa orang yg visit your page and actually read what you wrote and see the picturesthat you put there. You never know how much they are BUYING what they see and read!!! Hahahahaha.

Cerita ni pasal sorang kawan rapat sia juga. Dia ni pun a busy person. Time cuti baru dapat lepak2. Tapi dalam dia busy2 tu, dia pun actually berminat mau tau perkembangan kawan2 kami yg lain – biarpun kawan tu kami nda la biasa sangat, tapi berminat juga mau tau apa cerita terbaru. But dia pun mcm sia juga. Most of our other friends yang we tiada contact number dorang, we just rely on what we see on page Friendster dorang. We particularly talked about this female friend, who got married to another friend juga. But their relationship happened after graduation so we saw their wedding pictures pun dari website juga. "Ohh so betul la si anu ni sudah kawin sama si anu." Something like that. Sempat juga kami tengok her Friendster page from my office.

The next time we met and lepak makan2, she said to me, "Ui, si anu tu sudah divorce ka apa o?" Then I said, "What?? Betul ba ni?" Then she said, "Cuba kau tinguk tu Friendster dia, teda sudah tu pic kawin dia semua. Semua pic dia sorang ja. And then, dia tulis status dia "Single". Then sia pun tekejut la. Baru jua kawin then cerai. Nda best pula dengar. But source dia tu cuma the Friendster page ba. Buli pecaya ka?

Then kawan sia ni actually sudah start percaya the rumour yang dia create sendiri JUST BY looking at the Friendster page. I don't know berapa ramai kawan yang dia sudah cakap benda tu yang kununnya that female friend is divorced. Or at least, maybe dia tanya that question to them, "Dorang sudah ceraikah?"

Until one day that we keluar lepak again, this time ada my bestfriend ikut. Husband kepada perempuan yang dikhuatiri sudah divorce tu (according to her Friendster page – "Single" status) adalah sepupu jauh dengan my bestfriend. So again my other friend ni brought up the matter. "Dorang sudah cerai kah tu?" Then my bestfriend terus mencelah. "Ui gila ka cerai. Urang ada anak satu sudah woo." Tebesar terus mata kami. Punyalahh. All this while kami almost thought dia sudah cerai sedangkan rupanya semakin bahagia. Sampat lagi sia tinguk my other friend tu and said, "Nah tu la…jan kau pecaya sangat tu Friendster. Ntah apa2 yang dorang simpan sana. Bukan betul pun." Hahahaahahahahahaha.

Pernah juga dulu masa tu I made friend with this guy from IRC. Memang suka gurau2 with him and flirt2 sikit juga masa tu. But we never really be serious about our personal details. I remember yang he pernah kurik2 juga if I already have someone or not. And the way he said things, as if he doesn't have anyone yet. He told me about a bitter breakup yang masih buat dia serik. I heard gossips from other chatters yang this guy already has a girlfriend. But hairan juga. Time kami chat, he never shows any sign yang any girl matters anything to him. So I visited his Friendster page, I saw that he put his status "In a relationship." I told my big bro. "How come he didn't tell me he has a girlfriend already oh? Teruk o like that." My big bro learnt that I saw it from the Friendster page. "Jangan la pecaya tu Friendster tu." I said, "But why he put like that if tidak betul?" Then si Jojon cakap, "Cuba kau pi tinguk Friendster sia. Lagi dasyat. Bukan buli pecaya sangat ba tu Friendster tu" Hahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Pandai tul dia memujuk litol sista dia kan. Mimang ba itu ulal tu. *Lols.

But I come to learn that memang betul the guy is in a relationship, biarpun sampai sekarang he never actually mengaku with me. Bukan sebab sia percaya sangat tu Friendster, but memang ada source lain yang lagi kukuh. Kalau setakat dengan Friendster, with a click saja pun you boleh mislead orang. So Choose NOT to get misled by Friendster la if dalam hal2 relationship ni. Sebab KALAU LAH relationship itu semudah "click!" sekali ja, lain cerita lah.

Smbg sikit cerita yang awal2 tadi. Then my bestfriend told us about beberapa couple yang dia kenal. These real life couples ARE NOT that friendly dalam Facebook dorang. Di facebook they look like enemies, tapi di luar sebenarnya dorang mcm belangkas. I mean, the point is – Adakah you will tell everything about your life in these social sites that you're taking part in? Or do you have the time to update everything, what's going on with your life? I think most people do this page because they want to be in the circle of networking and learn about other people, when they don't usually offer that much about themselves. They still want only the people who know them in person to know the real story about them. But untuk yang belum berapa paham how it works, nahh, jadilah macam2 assumption itu ini – Lagi bagus mcm ni saja la…Apa2 hal macam ni, just take it easy. The truth is the truth. Not even a freaking Friendster/Facebook page can change it. Not with a single click, No No. Hehehehe. So? Just take it easy with these social sites. Want to know the truth, just get it straight from the owner of the body. Fair enough. Hehe

NOTE: I do believe anyway that some people are transparent enough about themselves and their lives in these social sites. It doesn't matter how you guys do it, as long as everyone is having fun, and everyone is doing it for a good intention. Yeah, thanks for reminding me that I don't have any account on those sites. Thank you. Hahahahaahahahahahahahahahaha.

The Lucky Catching Game!!!

This is the interesting result of my, what do you call that, inaccessibility? Hahahaha

Yesterday, I logged in to IRC, my usual schedule. Usually, I log in to IRC just in the middle of updating my blog or surfing for some materials. It’s very seldom that I log in to IRC just for the sake of chatting. That’s why you guys often see me left the room in a hurry.

Yesterday was VERY INTERESTING. The chatters who know me, know that I only join one channel and I don’t go online all the time— So it’s TOUGH to catch me. Especially when you don’t join the channel that I join! I usually online at different times, and then I leave before you come. Yes, if you have the intention to catch me when you also have your dayjob to do, it is INDEED tough to catch me. Actually, since I posted the post The Value Of A Man –which I could consider among the most controversial posts so far – I received feedbacks from various sources. I remember, among them were IRC memos from the chatters I never knew. I was skeptical when I saw new nicks because these nicks never chatted with me. I didn’t know if they were some regular chatters in different nicks. I should be skeptical for many different reasons. Some chatters have used funny ways to dig something from me. So I was not so generous with answering memos from people I don’t know.

Luckily, yesterday I finally joined as Twofivesix[256], my main nick…which is something that I don’t usually do. I always joined as [brb] or [256] .Suddenly, before I even join the channel, I got a Ping from a chatter with the nick that memo-ed me before. And out of nowhere, he got into my private message even before I got to click a channel to join…It’s like…Wowww… It’s like as fast as a lightning and thunder. Hahahahahahahaha. I was like, How The Heck??

He told me that he has 6th and 7th sense – the 6th sense is to take yesterday as offday, and the 7th sense is to wake up early because [256] would go online by 9.34 AM so he needed to get ready early to catch me. Hahahahaahahahahahahahaha. And finally, he caught me – Now that’s lucky or what?? Hehehehehe. (Yeah, nice theory on the 6th and 7th sense – with 2 extras from normal people, are you really blessed or just greedy? Hahahahahahahaha :P)

1) He never chatted with me or saw me around because he doesn’t join the only channel I join.

2) He only learnt about my nick and blog from another friend, who is also a blogger/chatter who never chatted with me. (Thanks Wilder :))

3) This guy is So So So Hyper!! My fingers finally found a match! Hahahahahaha. Chatting with him, making me “the silent [256]” because I barely got my chance to type. He typed so fast and he posed so many questions I didn’t know which to answer first!!! Hahahahahahaha. I had to say, Hold on..Stop those fingers!!! Let me speak!!! Hahahahahaahahahahahahahahhahahahahaha.

4) He surely used all his flesh and bones to squeeze details from me. He asked all the questions other chatters were shy to ask me. I almost screamed, “You’re lazy! Others would wait by my blog to find something new about me and you are here asking these info for free!!” Hahahahahahahahaha. Erkss… Okay, I might not say that exactly. :PP He said, “No, you’re lokek!!!” Why, thank you!!!

This chatter makes me laugh so so hard because he was so funny. But one interesting thing from all this is – even how inaccessible I am, people could find the way to catch me, using very limited resources. That’s why I think it’s so funny. I remember the other chatter (also my blog reader and a chatter friend) who e-mailed told me that he has to wait 6 days to get my reply to his first email. And now, this chatter who caught me yesterday, who used memo to talk to me, said to me, he has to wait 1 week for my next reply to his memo. And he said I was mean because the last memo he sent, didn’t get a reply. All this made me laugh so so hard. The funny thing is, these guys actually use A LOT of numbers. I mean, they actually do the counting!! That’s so sweet!! Hahahahaha

What are you guys trying to tell me? Am I that hard to catch? Whatever it is, it’s not done purposely, okay? Hehehehehehe…I feel that all the efforts are sooo soo sweettttt. I mean it. I mean, I have readers who follow my blog everyday, and click my blog a few times a day to see updates, you guys think I don’t know? Hahahahaha. I put an invisible visitor tracker in this blog, so the first thing that I checked was the hit counter. I can know which blog you guys come from, what’s your browser, how long you stay and your returning visit. I appreciate it so much, when chatter like Wines, he actually remembers the lines that I used in this blog. He sometimes used it in his Away/Leave message, and nobody knows it except him and I, because I know it was taken from my blog.

I don’t know what else to say!! I can say that I am surrounded by the coolest people around here. Thanks for accepting me a friend, a blogger , and thanks for accepting me to be part of this community, despite my inaccessibility. When I went into Facebook (using my big bro’s account) and saw the other chatters were joking and laughing, commenting pictures, I felt so LEFT OUT. But still, when I join the chatroom, most of them still treat me so nicely as if I were there all the way. Thanks ahh guys… (Please note that when I use “guys”, it means both girls and guys – it’s just the way people call everyone in general…please take note ya…hehehe). Sia yang kecil dan tidak dikenali ni pun, ada juga ruang di kalangan u guys. Thanks so so much…muahss muahss muahss muahss… hehehehe.

I appreciate it…from the bottom of my heart. :)

Thanks :)


NOTE: Don’t do the catching game too often, you guys are going to give me a heart attack. *Lols. You want to talk to me, you have my blog, you have my e-mail, you have my memo – and you don’t have to appear as lightning and thunder again or steal someone else’s senses to give you another 2 extra senses. 
Hahahahahaahahahahahahahaahahaha, Oh myy…I lurveee ya people. Muahssss.

A Puzzle of Confusion Or Speculation?

I receive an email from a reader. It’s very interesting. Wanna hear? She guessed that twofivesix256.blogspot.com is run by MORE than 1 person. Ouch?!

I mean, if she guessed that this blog is run by a guy or a gay, I would not be that much surprised. *Lols. I mean, 2 persons? Where did she get that?

This is undeniably a sensational gossip for my small unknown blog right here. Hehehehehe. She says that the reasons why she guessed so is because of my mix languages. Sometimes I’m writing full English (but those are broken, sis. *Lols) and sometimes, I’m writing in my own pathetic Sabahan language. And she thought that my stories are logically covered by at least two persons’ lives. Oh come on…

Hahahaahahahahahahahahahahaahahaha

She also suggested that Twofivesix[256] and any kind of the nick’s variation such as, [256], Twofivesix256 and even [brb], are different people. I mean, she said that only Twofivesix[256] is the real one. [256] or [brb] are someone else. Ouch? I don’t know what to answer her!! Hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

What do you think? Do you want to deal with this confusion that she started?

Another piece of creativity when she brings “my sister” into the picture. She said that me and my sister are sharing the same online identity. Again, Ouch??

So, who am I here? I mean the one that is typing this right now? The real or the second real Twofivesix[256]? Hahahahahahahahaahahaha.

Another strong reason is that, she said that if I’m so busy with my work, I won’t have time to write so much. But I still have time to update almost daily. So she’s not satisfied because this is getting more mysterious than she first thought. She said that I never really bring up in detail about my sister – it could be that she could be the co-owner of this blog.

Wait wait… I think it’s already very chaotic for me. I will get back to this matter when I’m a bit free.

Very Interesting. Analytic mind, sounds very familiar. Hehehehe.

Maybe if you have so much time to kill, come up with a more creative story. I find myself enjoying it. But don’t make conclusions cos that’s gonna make me mad. *Grinz. Hehehehehe. Besides that, wild guesses - I don’t mind at all.

NOTE: I actually appreciate it. It shows that some people care enough to solve this puzzle :) Or is it actually a puzzle, after all? Aha, that’s Another puzzle to solve. *Lols

TWOFIVESIX_256@YAHOO.COM

OnLine & OffLine Characters: Are Yours Different?

Are you still the same person online and offline?

Are you sure your online friends can read your real characters?

For us who are involved in cyberworld, making more friends from various places through chatrooms and social online networking like Facebook, have you ever thought for a second if your real characters can really come out while you’re socializing online? I mean, how well can you express yourself for your online friends to really read your real characters?

I don’t know about you, but for the few people who I have the chance to know more than just online chatting, some people really suck in presenting themselves online. They appear to be boring, harsh and even “uncivilized” online when their real characters are very different from that. Some of then fail to appear intellectual when they are actually quite brainy. I don’t know what these people have in mind. Do they do it on purpose, or what? They better be doing that on purpose. Cos it’s not really a cool thing if you mistakenly make people misread you, just because you can’t bring yourself well in the online world.

I make my little research whenever I get to know an online friend a little bit more than just in cyberworld. Maybe because I notice about the difference between online and offline characters in some people, so I have put my little aim. My aim is that – I want people to get my real characters while they are socializing with me online. I think that’s the best way for me since that I am using a concept of separating online and offline world. With this concept, it’s so unfair for my online friends when they are making friends with me here, and less chances to bring the friendship to reality, and still I fake my characters. I think that it’s a total waste of time for me if everything is just FAKE. So, it doesn’t matter about my internet-identity concept, just as long as I play some honesty. So, how does it fare so far?

So far, memang ada yang character dorang sangat berbeza. Dorang nampak boring kalau di chatroom. But when I get on the phone with them, suddenly they become a totally different person. I mean, maybe that’s all online world can to us, right? Like there’s no way we can express ourselves so much. Can I object that? I don’t know why, but for me, I don’t have problems expressing myself from my writings. I insist that I can make people read my true characters.

I don’t know if I have succeeded in doing that, so far. I mean, I never put it too hard on myself. I just bring myself the most comfortable I know. And from my own evaluation, my characters are the same hyper [256]. Anyway, the first chatter who got to speak to me offline, thought otherwise.

He said, “[256], I can’t feel you when I chat with you. Until I hear your voice for the first time on the phone, then only I started to feel you.”

Ouch?! True meh? I think we should ask my bro Jojon if that’s true or not. For me, I am among those who can express our true characters quite well. Erks…Okay, let me rethink my statement. I will give the verdict at the end of this post. *giggles.

Jojon a.k.a Ulal is one of them. He’s totally good in expressing himself. He’s as charming as he is. (/me saja2 mau kipas my big bro (shss…mau minta spend baitu… *Lols). He laughs as much as he would type it. I totally salute my big bro for this. He doesn’t mind for us to read him cos he’s carefree and he has a positive mind. He’s just being himself and that makes him likeable and I feel good when my bro is around. What more can we ask for, right? If we can find friends who can make us feel good, and we enjoy their company, they make us laugh – I think that’s the best that we can expect from cyberworld, Yeahh…whether or not it’s true characters.

I also know another friend who looks so masculine when he’s online. But when I got on the phone with him, he’s already ‘something else”. The voice alone is almost girly and nothing that I can relate with masculinity. Hahahahaahahahahaha. It put me in shock for a few minutes because it was a poor match of online and offline characters.

Kennedy is another example of those who can’t match their online and offline characters. *Lols. (/me capat2 tapuk sebelum kana kubit. Hahahaahahaha). Nevermind. He knows it already. When he’s online, the impression that I have on him was so different. He uses the different kind of words that you would want to take more seriously than you would when you saw him online. What can I say? Maybe people don’t do it purposely. But I think if you have to pick, you would rather be charming when you’re offline. At least that’s the charm that you can offer to people in reality.

Okay, WHAT ABOUT ME??? Emm… Okay, delete everything that I have said earlier on about me being good in expressing my true characters online. Actually…who I am in chatrooms are not so much my true characters. I am NOT THAT NASTY in real world. Hahahahahaha. Do you know that I got warned by an op because of my adult language in public channel? It gives people the impression that this [256] is SuperNasty. I AM NOT! Hahahahaha. It’s just my fingers. I write everything I won’t say or do. So it’s really the fun version of myself that you can find in chatrooms. Unfortunately, I don’t chat so much lately. It’s true in SMS. If you guys get in SMS with me, it’s still the same chatroom language that I use. I’m still nasty. Hahahahahaha. But IN PERSON…I AM NOT.

The only thing that I can express well is about me being hyper in words. I talk a lot in real life. I also think a lot and I write a lot. Who I am on the phone is something closer to my true self. Heheheheehhehe. You will know how much I laugh, how much I talk and HOW I talk. It’s not nasty at all. So gudgirl one baa… *Lols. (Jon, tulung sukung sista kau ni ahhh…nanti me blanja… *Lols)

Okay, the conclusion is…It doesn’t matter if people can read you or not. As long as you’re enjoying yourself and people are enjoying your company, let it be part of the process of friendship when they learn little by little about you and find out themselves if you’re the same person who appears to be when you’re online and offline. Because we are here in the cyberworld not really for the purpose of making people read our real characters. We are here because we want to have fun, we want to kill boredom. So let it be the thrill for our online friends to find out our true characters. How about that?

*Grinzzzz…

Hehehehehehe. Happy Tuesday everyone!

Note: One thing for sure is, my BLOG is VERY CLOSE to my real personality. I can't be more honest than that. :)