"Missing The Bus"

Imagine you are at this familiar bus stop where usually there are some people who wait the bus at the same time. You know that you will not have to wait long cos there are a number of buses that will pass that route and most of the time, it's barely 10 minutes waiting.

So one day you find yourself waiting alone in the bustop. Maybe the rest have catched the earlier bus so you may be a little late. So you stand there alone, and finally saw a bus coming. You expect the bus to stop, but to your surprise, it doesn't stop. The driver fails to notice that you are waiting for a bus. Maybe he thinks that you want to cross the road because you don't wave you hand to stop the bus. But then you know, every bus driver should know that when someone stands there at the bus stop, is to wait for a bus. But it's too late. That bus has left.

Can you imagine the feeling? 

Imagine that this is your reaction. You are so pissed that you manage to shout and give a bad gesture to the driver. Surely the passengers must be wondering why are you acting that way. Logically, you can get another bus in no time so why so sensitive?

This is the thing that the passengers won't get to feel unless they become you. First, you are feeling ashamed that you have to wait alone and a bus that is not full, doesn't stop to pick you. Second is, you know you can have another 5 buses for the next half an hour, that's not the problem. The problem is, that earliest bus that you can catch Should Stop for you. That's what the bus is for, right? That's how the driver gets the income from, right? So for no reason, the bus just fails to do that.

So there are happenings in our lives that similar to that situation. 

Sometimes you just be the person who misses the bus you don't deserve to miss. And it doesn't really matter how many buses after that, just that moment of missing that bus you expect to catch. 

5 minutes isn't long but if only you catch the bus on time, you could have saved that 5 minutes. :))

The Jobless Story

I get SMS from an acquaintant, asking about vacancy, If I know anyone or anywhere who have vacancy that she can apply. She has been asking this to me for so many times in a few months. Whenever she gets bored at home, she will SMS be if I know where she can get a job. Having a few people like her who come to me and asked about vacancy, it got me wondering. Actually it's really not hard to find a job if they really want to do anything as long as they have a job. The thing is, they are very picky. They don't want a job that is tiring. They don't want to come home late. They want somewhere very near their house area and on top of all that, they want a job that pays good. 

Before this, I told them the office nearby needed a clerk. It was the vacancy everyone was asking me for. Then, I said to them, "You know how to type, right? Cos you will have to type customer's letters." Even that basic thing they did not know. They replied me with, "Oh, if computer saya tidak berapa pandai." What?? Then how? So they have to let go the  vacancy because of lack of skills. Then they did ask me if I needed extra assistant. The thing is, I don't know what can they do to assist me cos to them it might look fun when they have someone to teach them something new and then get paid at the same time, and go home at 5, who don't want that, right. When they themselves know they won't have much to do because they don't really have sthing that they are really good at. Is this mindset normal?

Those who are stuck like this, I hope they can just get busy polishing their skill, maybe attend courses - at least know how to type! One shouldn't stop learning and expect others to be considerate, giving them the job that they know what to do instead of what they are needed to do. Even if you have any "orang dalam" in the government or private sector, all they can help you is get you the chance that thousands out there don't get, but in the end, they can't help you if you have no qualification, unless you are talking to a very considerate Owner of the company, and they give you the job out of pity. But u still need to prove yourself, if you can be productive or not. You'll still get kicked after a few months if you fail to contribute. 

So if the locals have this kind of mindset, maybe it's true that our economy will be in trouble if we rely on them, cos there are many jobs out there that need someone to do but won't suit their requirement. So is that why all the boutiques and shops normally employ foreigners? 

I can only write this but only you can do sthing about it. You can't just wait for things to fall on your lap. The older you get, the more people expect from you so you can't keep telling people "I don't know how to work with computers" just like you did when you just finished your SPM. It's time to upgrade!! 

You Pay or You Do It Yourself. Simple Isn't It?

My supplier told me that he doesn't want to do the work because it can take him hours, or even the whole day to do it - when he can earn so much more doing something else. That's why he finds someone else to do it, because he still needs to get the job done to keep business coming in. Which also means, the work that he doesn't want to do, is an important work to him. But when it comes to charges, he doesn't want to pay high, cos to him it shouldn't cost that much. Of course if he argues about charges, he'll get the remark, "Then do it yourself". Which we already know he won't. LOLS. So what's the solution?

Something that some people fail to address is the "value of time" and that creativity can come from practice and experience, but you can't expect it to just come anytime when you need it, that's why, "creativity cost something", and it can cost A LOT cos not everyone has it. The only reason people can argue about charge is when they think that "time and creativity" don't have charges - and this will be true if they use the ones of their own. Which means, stop arguing about charges and go ahead "Do It Yourself". But in his case, he puts a lot of value to his own time, and no value to others' time. So if they can't sort it out, means No Business. No Business means No Money. No Money means they can start packing and forget about the business altogether. 

Ridiculous, right. Very basic understanding. But I believe people learn as long as they live. So thats why we are here. Learning as much to live well. Those who can adapt to this, will survive in what they do. :))

I Told Him, I'd Catch All The Colourful Balls He'll Throw At Me

Sometimes when our life hit a plateau, we think that we are not making use of our potentials. There are things that we can explore, but don't see them yet. Are they not around? or they are around but we are just too ignorant? That's why, because of this thought, I've been praying for opportunities to come to me, and even if it means I have to work harder, I have to sacrifice more and I might have to go extra miles just to grab  them all. Recently, I see the opportunities coming, almost all at once. Then I remember my prayers. My good God, He's giving me what I want. Then I had a really bad time just now when my expectation just gets high, and I realized I was unable to do them all at once! My head hurt. Darn. What did I say to God again? That I will have a way to deal with them, right? Then what happened? 

Now I see. That where the challenge is. It's not directly from the opportunities but how I deal with them in trying to fulfill my own expectation. So I imagine myself catching all the colourful balls that God throws at me, and I hope my hands are never full to catch them on time. At least I'm doing my first step. I want to improve my life, myself and to maximize even more all my potentials.and I'll get busy catching the balls. 

He's answering my prayers. Give me the strength to do all my responsibilities.And thank you Lord, for some magical reason, I really find out that the more I spend time with you, the more I feel that You're always there for me and my loved ones. Totally Blessed. Alleluia.  

MEN, according to Oprah Winfrey

"If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. 

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. 

 Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who have a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are. Even if he has has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending... Compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships. There is nothing cute about baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new

relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you. A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals. Look for someone complimentary...

not supplementary.

Dating is fun... Even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes... When a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him ~ he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful: Dr. Phil says... You should know that: You're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one. They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices. Make the right one. Ladies take care of your own hearts.."

Note: I copied this from a Facebook status. Whether or not it's from Oprah, it's still valid and relevant. Take care of yourself well, ladies...:))

Unbelieve The Believer, Unfaith The Faithful

Do you recall so many times when you just "quit believing" in Him and His power? It's usually because your prayers were not answered according to your time. In fact, from my experience, it could turn your heart bitter, sour, even tasteless, and made you just want to forget about your religion. A few friends of mine also said the same thing. "I feel like my prayers are not heard." when they were asked why they were considering another religion.

I think, to have prayers "delayed" is not gonna end there. It will happen again. But to you, who are still a believer, what about you? Why are you still a believer? What about all your prayers and petitions that are not answered or the help from above that never arrives? I'm sure all of you have your own story to tell.

I can say that I'm going through that again. I have some petition that are "yet to be answered" but for some reason, instead of losing heart, I keep saying the little intention whenever I pray. It's been months that I even have special praying sessions for this particular petition. If I were my much younger version, I would have sulked at God (again). Well, even at the present, I still occasionally ask God, "God, Why?" But then there's sthing more than just asking Him IN DOUBT. I just know He has been listening to everything. I just know. Sometimes I'm tempted to just go back to my old ways of reacting to Him, by getting mad at Him, by blaming Him and shouted at Him in anger. Maybe I could just refuse to pray! Maybe I could stop going to Church! Maybe I could stop finding comforts in Godly stories and Bible verses! I can just do all that to show Protect to God for now answering my prayers in my own terms and conditions.

I could, but would I? Everytime the devil whispers to me Doubt in His power, when I'm tempted to just rebel at Him and accuse Him for so many things, something just stops me. Or even if it happens, it would not be long after that, I gain my consciousness back to praising His glory. I could even speak and answer the Devil on God's behalf that he can continue dreaming about poisoning my mind. I can try to be critical and analytic but God's power in my life, is not more than just hearsays. More than just rumours. Or gossips. Or fairy tales. I HAVE WITNESSED HIS POWER WORKING IN MY LIFE. How can I deny Him now? I don't have that ability to do it anymore.

Come to think about it, for those of you who have surrendered your faith because you lost hope in God, did you only judge God on your latest petition that He doesn't answer yet? How about so many times before that He blessed you. Moments of your success, moments of laughter and joy, moments of recovery from sickness, Did you forget?

Even during the time when my own petition is not yet answered, He keeps blessing me daily. He takes care of my loved ones, and how He helps me in overcoming problem by problem, giving me the ways to the solutions, giving me foods to nourish my body and giving me ways towards the small details of my Happiness. That's why, when I ask God, "God, why? Why did you let sthing like that happen to me? Can I know the reason why?" - I just know that nothing is accidental. I have decided that GOD is in this from the very start. Things might look a bit messy at the present, but I just know that mystery is going to unfold, and I'm gonna be the one who will be rewarded by much delight. He's working in my favour. That's why He let me wait for a bit, cos I'm not alone in this world. It's not realistic that God answers my prayers right then and there when I have to follow the course of the world - where millions of people are praying for their own petitions too. Sometimes what we ask for, involves a lot of people. Things need time to fall in place. So with this understanding, you will know WHY, as long as I don't deny this wisdom that is given to me, I will never succeed in trying to Un-believe or Un-faith myself - even if I consider myself as the most selfish in this world, I just can't. GOD IS REAL. He's the one who created me, He knows what's He's doing. 

When you ask me, How do you know? My answer is, "I JUST KNOW". That's the beauty of Faith. Thank you Lord for guiding me. Help me to grow even more in Faith and I wish that one day, you allow me to SHOW YOUR WORK through my life, and I swear those people will never doubt in You anymore. 

Alleluia.:)

Faith Is Not Just For Show

During our hangout yesterday, my friend talked about a scenario of a devout follower (which happened to be her bro in-law) who likes to preach about religion and God, who likes to attend church' activities and constantly advising others about the right way of doing things. But it's quite confusing cos his life is a mess. He resigned his work and decided not to work anymore. From there, they get into financial  crises. It has been years that their home and car installment were paid by my friend's mom. And even when he said he decided to have his own business, the family collected money just so he could have it. But nothing really works. He still doesn't put enuff effort. While others are busy paying his bills, he's getting busy attending church activities. Which my friend referred as "totally out of proportion".

She said it's from your way of life, you'll get respected by people. You will honour your religion if you live in such a way that others can salute you for doing your responsibility well. Cos if you cannot balance your commitment, you'll be a burden to others, you're hurting others. What an embarrassment to not adapting faith into way of life. She got so pissed and said, It's like he can lazy around and just pray to keep getting financial assistance from others. Goodness gracious. One heck of a topic but sores the ears but you know she has a point. Nobody's perfect but the point is, everyone has to learn from mistakes and keep improving. Faith is more than just for a show :)

Should We Give Miley Cyrus A Break?

The Adorable Miley Cyrus. Her stunning hair. The best long hair that I saw on google...hehe

I read about her performance in Video Music Award 2013 that was held recently. I was a bit influenced by the hatred notes made by the public. I watched the clip, again, I was shocked too. I admired some of her songs like The Climb and When I Look At You. Her long hair, her good girly image, I'm sure she has been a wonderful inspiration to the teenage girls out there. I  never really watched Hanna Montana, but I know she was so famous for that, so again the world watches her grow up from a little kid, a young girl to -- this one, a grown up girl in her 20. Many of us don't have this kind of limelight. If we make a breakthrough performance like this in our friend's party, I'm sure the most it can go viral to is just in SMS or Facebook. Still never as much coverage as Miley got on her VMA performance. Remember the tweaking, the grinding, the foam finger? Those are all the highlights to her so-called shameful performance that night.

Of course I hated the stage performance too. It looked so indecent. The reaction on Will Smith's face, would be exactly on your face if you bring along your kids in the show. But that was before I actually watched the the clip from the beginning. How she came to the stage in the bear suit, with some dancers with the same bear theme costumes. To my surprise, it was a good opening. The music, the aura of fame, she has that. When she made that move, it all looked acceptable, cos she's Miley Cyrus. She has the license to just do what she wants on stage. I don't know where that thought came from. I just had it while watching the opening. So when I listened to the song, it was not a bad song at all. Why didn't I read anything good when there are indeed good things about her performance?  So, now I know I never actually listened to that song. I went to youtube and look for the official MTV of the song "We Can't Stop", and her some other live performances before that. Then I wondered, why the public sounded so unaware of her new approach? She was already into this way before VMA. The song was about "freedom" of doing what you want, even if you'll get hated for it. She said it in the lyrics. How she changed her hair, her dressing, it was all part of how she gonna present herself with her new album. I remember Britney's era, and then Rihanna. They were all used to have this pure good girl image before they turned rebellious and became who they are today. So what's new with Miley Cyrus?

Okay, she could have made it a bit more decent than what she did on the duet with the male singer, and how she stripped herself into that nude bikini, didn't do her pastime justice but look at us. Do you think we turn out to be everything that people expect us to be? They can just wish that we will remain the same but we can't stop from changes, or from the tendency to be what we really want to be. So for the 20-year-old Miley, this is her time. It might not be her best performance in her lifetime, she might or she might not regret it but still, I can feel that part of her just wants to express herself out of the box, and if she hit the wrong note, she'll learn and she'll get better. So guys, enough with the bashing. Lets move on and give this girl a break. Sometimes I'm quite surprised how these westerners who I thought are living in the open and honest culture all their lives, actually give that much fuss on something like this. Well, okay, lets hope there's no more shock like this from her, okay. Hahaha. Good luck Miley. We know you are more than that so go ahead and keep shining. Your fans have not given up on you yet, I'm pretty sure of that. Wish you all the best!

“The Lost Notebook”

Do you guys realize that the problem in humans is not because “they can’t think”, but it’s because sthing can simply deny them from taking benefit from whatever kind of rational thinking that their mind can produce. Do you get the idea?

For example, you lost a broken notebook. Okay, maybe you misplaced it, or maybe someone stole it, but then, hey, it’s a broken notebook! You never need it anymore for the past few months but you just keep so much hurt in you. You can go on telling people why you shouldn’t feel sad but deep inside, you feel the pain of losing it. I mean, of course it’s if that you still have it cos it’s your belonging, it should be with you and not somewhere else. You can’t help but think of all the things the notebook has done for you. Its years in service, maybe you spent your memorable moments holding it. You just can’t let go that sentimental value of that notebook. Okay, maybe a normal phase for anyone who has just lost something.

But that’s not normal when it holds you back. You can’t keep bringing the lost notebook story to people, making it a big deal – which you almost forgot the fact that it’s broken and no longer can be used. Guys, this can sound really simple but you could be one of them who are still trapped with “your lost broken notebook” story. Things that you know you are able to let go, but you refuse. You think you can’t just let go sthing that once was so meaningful to you. Regrets keep coming to you, wishing that you could have taken care of it better. Oh no, again, you forgot it’s broken.

So if this is familiar with you, it’s time to let it go guys!! If in your case it’s not “ a broken notebook” but a friend or someone important that is drifting away from you, remember this. If they belong to be in your life, they will catch up. If they are not, someone will come and fill that place. Just leave the space vacant, to be fair. *winks. The clock keeps ticking, it won’t stop to any drama we put or how much delay we take, heck, even when we are sleeping, the clock will be ticking happily. Time gone will not come back, so if you want to grieve for something, do it fast, finish it fast and quickly turn a new page. Get busy writing it. Be a professional “author” of your book of life. And sure as hell a professional author won’t keep grieving about a lost broken notebook. :)

Note: Trust in His wonderful plan, and keep doing your best. Get up from every setback, and remember, if people do you wrong, it’s totally their problem, only when you give them so much space to disturb your own peace, then only it becomes your problem too. So decide wisely, guys.

Guilt.

Do you ever have this one guilt that you just can’t let go? You have told the same stories to your friends, your colleagues, your mates, but it appears that you never really tell the person. The only person who is yet to know about it is him. The one you feel guilty at.

I won’t say that it’s all fated that he’s still around, and really available to hear anything I want to say. I made the effort, and located him, but never really said it. Only recently that I thought of seriously going to ask for his forgiveness.  I had the chance before but I did not take it. I thought that after all the damage, he has forgiven me anyway. And how we used to talk again like adults, he told me how I turned his world upside down when I left him but then what mattered was he was happy to see me again. I remember that when I appeared that time, it wasn’t for the most noble intention. I was just testing the water. When will I learn my lesson?

So after some bittersome trial that happened in my journey lately, I finally thought of him. Looks like I was never over this guilt yet. I still owe him that. I knew it somehow that I must come clean with these big guilts before I could really proceed with my life. The fact that I still have his gift, the gift that he thought was a token from his heart, I lost count how many times I asked people’s opinion if I should return it. Now, what am I waiting for?

He’s around and he’s waiting for me to say my first word. I should just say it to him just to clear it off my chest. This world is just not fair, right. Especially when you are the victim. Why doesn’t life make it easier for human beings and their helplessness. If it were so simple, I could simply pick not to hurt anyone.  So today, coincident or not, is his birthday. A perfect time for me to do a bit of recollection, and finally talk with my most sensible sense – I want to ask for forgiveness. Although I can defend myself why I do what I did, no, it’s not about that. I just thought that I could have done it better but I did not. I was too coward, too selfish and it was all about me, me me. I have come this far and it’s time for me to really mean it when I say I’m sorry.

Even in my prayer, I keep having the same thought of guilt. It’s time to really really let go of this guilt. I’m gonna ask for his forgiveness with every bit of sincerity that I have, and I know, with such a kind heart that he has, he will forgive me.  And from there, I hope to be free from this too.

God, have mercy us poor sinners. Guide us to do the right thing, to correct our mistakes and to fix our ways. In Jesus name, Amen. 

"It's Your Love" - Version II

Remember this song? This is the first song of my bathroom singing that I uploaded in this blog...but it was the short version of the song before and the sound was really bad. As you know that I have a method that can make me record voice much clearer, so I re-record this song. What I like about this song; other than the nice lyrics, it's about because of the key of the song that matches my voice just fine, so no adjusting, makes my life easier...LOLS. Unlike all the songs that I have recorded so far, some I even changed the key to the lowest possible. That baddd, huh. Hahaha.Phew, luckily it's my blog I can be "as funny" as I wish to be. Hahaha. O ya, I did it again. It's not JILL, it's GIL. If I record it the third time, I'm gonna make sure I won't simply change pronunciation again. Ehehe. I'm quite well-known for it now I think. Haha.You should be able to see the Play button below this, if not, u have to download Adobe Flash player available in the net. Alrighty...till next post...:))

Are We Living In A Brokenhearted World?

Day to day I like to go through the status updates made by people in Facebook. I can see a pattern of Heartbroken in most of them. Whether they are currently going through the phase of being betrayed/ignored by someone they love, or being rejected by a potential lover, while the rest are still talking about old memories of tough heartbreak that they still fail to get over. Wow guys…What does that make this world?

Why must this happen in the first place? How does it start to go wrong, when everyone is looking for Love? And what are we doing? Isn’t heartbreaking totally the opposite? I tell you what’s wrong. In our quest to look for love, we are doing it ALL WRONG. When we start going out with someone, it’s not always for the right intention. Whether it’s infatuation or just lust, all are meant to be gone as quick as it comes. With lack of sincerity, we make promises, without the intention of keeping them just get the quick benefit of getting someone’s trust – build a make believe happiness that only lasts for a while and let tomorrow worry of its own trouble. Then, we are putting less effort to stay loyal to one. We entertain  our wandering eyes, and getting the thrill of chasing another and another new person, because it feeds to our pride and ego.  The farther we go with exploring possibility with someone new, the more pain we are collecting for our hopeful partner, which is just waiting to explode and make her/his world crushed in pieces. Does that sound familiar to you? Now you see why we are doing it all wrong. The Love becomes overrated, cos it’s NOT LOVE to begin with. Cos we tend to drift away from our relationship for all the wrong reasons. We know that nobody’s perfect, which means, if you can say your partner is not perfect, YOU are also far from perfect. But sometimes you judge your partner as if you are at a better human level than them. You love lies in the eyes, and not the heart.  When there’s a problem, WE DON’T TRY HARD ENOUGH to work it out. What we see if to just call it a quit, and the excuse it that we have lack of understanding.  The fact is that, our direction and destination have changed because of our own will.

I speak for the adults like you and me. Those who have underwent early teenagahood with loads experiements and self-findings. We get excused to make mistakes in that era. But not anymore. Now that we are totally aware of our deeds, we won’t just accidentally fail a relationship that we mutually start. It’s always because we fail to be loyal, we fail to be responsible, we fail to be sincere in what we say and do, and how we belittle the heart of the other person whose dream is built around our promises.  And shamefully still, many are still overcame by lust, without thinking that losing control over our flesh desire is not a one-off crime. If we fail this one, we will fail again. Why, don’t you guys get tired of failing your relationship? Don’t you think it’s about time to finally let in the kind of love that our Creator made for us to have with one and only partner?

We have to change this, guys. We have to fix our ways! Now, please get rid of all the falseness and fakeness in your intention. Stop doing it wrong! Don’t even walk in a relationship you don’t intend to make last, don’t date a lonely person when the person’s can anytime be manipulated by your temporary need of companionship and if you think you can’t be loyal, don’t make promises, don’t even be in a relationship you are not ready for. And please, do not toy with God and Faith just to mislead others that you are worthy just to prove yourself to be totally unreliable – which means you are not just wronging human, but also your own God. We have to fix this guys. We need to turn things around. There’s a hope guys, there’s a hope. If we come back to the way of righteousness, God will help us heal this brokenhearted world into a world  of peace and love. But first, we must correct our ways first. Lets do this together. God, help us to be righteous in our quest for Love. May you guide and lead us to fix our ways and do the right thing. Amen.

A Birthday Prayer

I was looking for a Birthday Prayer and I picked this one to share here. :))

Heavenly Father,

It's my birthday, and the number just keeps getting bigger.  Yet as "vast" and "great" as the sum of my years seems to me today, vaster and greater are my thoughts of you.  The number of my years is calculated merely on terms of decades, but if I tried to "do the math" concerning your glory and grace, I'd have to count every grain of sand on every beach that has ever existed.  With David I can honestly say, "How precious to me are your thoughts."

Father, keep on rescuing me from all wrong thinking about you.  Keep showing me how little I really see and understand about the greatness of your love for us in Jesus.  That won't embarrass me; it will truly thrill me.  May the gospel keep on getting bigger and bigger and bigger.

It's a source of incredible peace and freedom to know that you've ordained all of my days for me.  That feels not like unfair fatalism but rather Fatherly affection.  I'll not live one day more or one day less than you decree, by your sovereign purposes and eternal pleasure.

There's a part of me that would like to turn the clock back for a possible "do-over," especially for certain stretches of my life.  But then again, not really.  Your name is Redeemer, and you're the God who restores years eaten away by locusts.  I choose to rest in your love rather than stew in my regrets.  I have great confidence and hope in your commitment to make all things new.

All I ask is that each additional day, week, month, or year your appoint for me in this world will be filled with a greater gasp of the only love that will never let go of me.  By your Spirit, Father, continue to reveal to me how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ - the only love that surpasses knowledge (Ephesians 3:18-19).  Everything else will take care of itself.  I make my prayer in Jesus' matchless and merciful name.  Amen.

SOURCE 

 It's nice, isn't it. You can read it too on your next Birthday :))

"Ombak Rindu"

Finally, a Malay song. LOLS. Just another version of my rough bathroom singing so if it sounds so messy let it be, okay guys...hahaha. This song is good, in fact the best thing about the movie, yeah, even more than the sobbing dramas you can find there. Haha. Not really a tough song but my voice is just not made for high-pitch songs so I can just sing it for fun...ehehe. By the way, I found a translation for the song title goes with "LOVE AMID THE CRASHING WAVES" and Not "The Wave Of Miss" ah...LOLS. Direct translation doesn't do the Malay words justice guys so don't be too fond of it...hahaa

It’s HIM That Made Me Do This

You know what you want in life. You definitely know. You also know that you made a lot of mistakes in life too. You certainly know that even how far you have come, you are never good enough on your own. And there’s this thing called destiny. We believe that God has a plan for the believers. Yes we believe in that. So, with all this knowledge, you know that what you want is not always what you need, and vice versa. With God’s wisdom, if we humbly come to Him, we know that He will show us the way.

So when you pray for something that you want, then the next thing, something appears in your life. But, it’s not what you want! But then it comes in such a manner that it can actually be fit into an answered prayer. Then with the knowledge that you never know enough, you just Believe that THIS COULD BE IT. You just make peace with new changes that come to you, thinking that it could be God’s answer that you’ve been praying for. How can you resist it? You just take the chance and pray to Him to guide you on what you should do with it. You adhere to it. When things go smoothly, despite your tendency of resisting it at first, you slowly accept that THIS IS PART OF HIS PLAN IN MY LIFE.

Without you knowing, you are slowly adapting to sthing which is outside your list of Wants. You never ask for exactly that but when it comes, you accept, because you have faith in Him, and you know you are not that smart to figure everything out on your own. Before you know, you have walked this path that you believe was His plan, so it should be The Best for you. With added confidence in your prayer for so long, to ask for His protection on your progress, yes, everything went smoothly. Might be stormy at times, but you managed to survive it each time. The more you believe that, YES, THIS IS WHAT HE WANTS ME TO DO.

Strange enough, after such a journey, something starts to go wrong. Of course, as usual, you will come to Him for guidance. Moreover, you know that IT CAN’T FAIL no matter how bumpy the road is. “Hey, It’s From God, He will help me through this.” With so much confidence, now you are facing a major setback. Oh come on, Not again. But that won’t scare you anymore. YOU HAVE GOD, remember?  But, I am not sure how many of you who are exactly AT THIS POINT OF YOUR FAITH. That your situation just make you ask so many question, “Whatever happens to your plan for me, O God?”

Then you come to the end of the line of calling this battle a quit, then you look back, OH NO, I CAN’T DO THIS. IT’S GOD WHO BRING ME TO THIS. I MUST FIGHT!!!!  Then you do your thing, fight for what’s right, but things are just don’t get better.  It gets worse the more you fight. At one point, you just retreat, and turn your head up, Oh God My Lord, Tell Me How I’m Gonna Do This. 

That painful moment of trying to sort out that THIS JOURNEY might afterall be A WRONG ONE. Suddenly your faith gives you a blurry sight – you almost  could not see it! You flashback how long you have come just to be defeated and to start back a new journey. Why, After All The Thankfulness, After All The Prayers, Whyy? Whyy? GOD, IT’S YOU WHO MADE ME DO THIS!! WHYYYY…!!

A sense of guilt just hit you and right away you ask for forgiveness for having DOUBT. What will you do now? Be patient? Or just be brave enough to change direction from what you initially thought was guided from God? Yeah, you would risk a new beginning. BUT THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOU AND YOUR STRENGTH. This is also about the fight that you believe come from God which moving on means you declare nullification what you believed to be His plan for you.

Let His Mighty plan unfold soon!! This is the time when you have to renew your faith all over again! Oh Good Lord, Guide Us. Give Us Wisdom. Send Your Holy Spirit To Help Us Walk, Decide And Do According To You Will. You Bring Me To This, You'll Bring Me Through This! I Pray This In Jesus Name, AMEN.

Who Deserves That Loyalty?

Everyone knows that this life is anything but a fairytale.  We are not a bunch of Princes Charming and His Cinderella. Cos if we are, these Prince Charmings will put his Cinderella at his castle, lavish her with love and necessity, treat her well – Happily ever after.  Is this the case in today’s world? How are you treating your woman, men? Do you remember her sacrifices for you? How many times she swallowed her pride and ego just so she can give way to yours and so you can always be the one who wear the pants? Do you even notice how she’s waiting for you all the time when you are busy out there counting every attractive female your eyes can catch? Do you even care how she counts every minutes from the last SMS you sent her and how many times she goes through your old text when you busy with your activities that don’t even have anything to do with her? This is the same woman whose hope built around your promises. Your promises that you’ll be the one for her. Promises that she expects you to honour, and she has already started playing her part since the first day you said it. And renews it everytime you repeat them, that she can even remember the tone of your voice and the words that you use to speak them.

There are a lot of mistreated women in this world. The one who mistreated them, is none other than the man they love the most. It could be the father to their kids, the so-called future husband, the once dubbed the most romantic boyfriend, or any other name that they thought you deserved to be called. Even how many times you treat  her bad, you break  her hearts, how many nites she wets her pillow with the tears that you caused her, SHE IS STILL THERE. Do you know how many women out there who are standing by their man’s side, are actually getting  a poor treatment from their man?

You can list the reasons why she’s not perfect. You can say that she might not be the most well-dressed lady you know, you might not like her hair as much as you like the hair of one of your officemates, maybe she is too talkative, maybe she demands your time more than your normal friends, maybe she makes you feel guilty all the times when you cannot comply with her small silly requests, oh heck, you can list a book-long if you want. So do you think you are that perfect yourself? Do you know that she will take a day off just so she can spend time with you when you are busy complaining when she requests to get a bit of your time after work? Do you know  that she hates your bad temper and jealousy, oh she hates it so much, but she still looks at you as if you are the best guy that she has ever met in her life? Oh, do you think you think she likes your hair that much? She might not, but do you think she cares to even put it in her list? She doesn’t. She will tolerate that, and even more from you! THIS IS ABOUT A WOMAN AND HER LOYALTY.

A woman, with the weight of the world on her shoulder, dedicates her life to her man. She doesn’t want him to be perfect, but she still wants to love him anyway, Love him as perfectly as she could. And what you men do? You men are busy getting consumed by wordly temptations. It doesn’t need much to make you turn your back on “this angel” who cares for you, instead you are busy collecting points to love her less – Suddenly you can even go against your God by dishonouring the spouse and breaking all your promises to her, sthing which supposed to be honoured by someone who claims to have faith in God. To all the men who are mistreating their ladies, this is for you.

A Man Who Loves His God, Will Also Love His Woman. So do not claim that you are a man of God, when you can’t even treat your woman right. This is a slap of reality to all the men who think they can appear really strong and holy just by having faith on the lips and not on the actions. YOUR LADY DESERVES BETTER THAN THIS. Fix your ways, men. Go back “home”, there’s a woman who’s waiting for you. TREAT HER RIGHT. Be Deserving Of Her Loyalty.

1  Peter 3:7

In the same way, you husbands must give honor to your wives. Treat your wife with understanding as you live together. She may be weaker than you are, but she is your equal partner in God's gift of new life. Treat her as you should so your prayers will not be hindered.

What If YOU are That Gift?

I’m sure you do admit that you have some talents that your friends don’t have. Don’t you ever wonder why do you have those talents? Don’t you think they are given to you for a purpose? Or you think you since you don’t ask for it, you don’t necessarilly need to use it?

It just crossed my mind. There were times when I was put in a situation where I helped people with just listening to them and gave some piece of mind on how to solve their problems. They actually listened to me and applied it, and the next time they came to thank me. Now I remember again how I saved my aunt from wanting to commit suicide because she thought her hubby (my uncle) was cheating on her. And how I helped a customer from getting in a big mess after she fought with her housemate, and I said to her, “GO BACK AND SAY SORRY TO HER” and she did. She didn’t have to move out from the house at all!  All her problems solved just by doing what I suggested. I also remember, how I was there to cheer up a guy who got dumped by her gf of 5 years and he almost could not face life. And there I was. Knowing that it won’t hurt for me to just cheer him up, I did and he moved on pretty easily and finally got his confidence back. Tho the ending was not so good because I almost victimized myself for being the substitute when I didn’t intend to go that far, but at least he managed to rationalized with his breakup and managed to approach a new relationship that is still going on well until now. I’m sure u guys have ur own story too. Can’t u see it that this is about life, how we cross each other’s path, most of them we just drop by and create some memories, before we continue with the journey. Of course we can’t stay for long. WE ALL HAVE A MISSION IN EVERY STATIONS.  There will eventually come a time when we will finally stay at this particular station, a station we belong to be. I was wondering, maybe this is what they say by becoming “the instrument of God’”, that you come into someone’s life helping them with their situation, some you even help to change their lives to better!

Of course when you think about it, you’ll feel that you can be in a pitiful situation to be “used” for their own benefit, sometimes what you get back is nothing but hurt because not everyone appreciates what you do. We are only humans right. We are not a guardian angel where we are there only when we are needed and then forgotten until they get in trouble again. But I’m sure…sweet things are waiting for us. Especially when we accept the fact that we are just fulfilling our missions on Earth, to be there for one another. Not everyone will appreciate us, YES true. But don’t forget WHO SEND US? It’s Him :) Our rewards don’t come from humans, our rewards come from Him for He is so loving and so generous . The more good things you do, the better. Having a God like Him, you know that you’ll get rewarded even without asking for it. When you are busy asking people, “What are your gifts”, you just never know one day one of them will answer, “YOU”. You won’t always come as a helper, but You are actually a gift from God to someone special, and this someone special will be a reward God gives you, that all kinds of appreciation and love that you deserve to get will be flowed through the person. In the mean time, just be patient when not everyone will see “the gift in you” but keep doing good things. You’ll leave a mark in people’s life as you complete your missions. Remember, despite all your gifts, YOU ARE THAT GIFT ITSELF. God bless. :)

"I Won't Give Up"

Another bathroom singing from me! Hahaha. I've been wanting to sing this song since the early year but the song kinda hard to learn so I sort of "gave up" on it. Hahaha. And guess what. I came across it again and decided to give it a try and viola! This time it will go up to the blog no matter what. Cos I like the message of the song to actually NOT GIVE UP. Remember from my latest voice post? I keep saying, Don't ever ever give up! Actually I have this song in my mind as I was saying that. Hehe. Now feel free to get inspired all over again. LOLS. Do Nott...I repeat, Do Nott Givee Uppppp! :))

God Bless Us All!

Let It Go And Let God In!

I'm sharing with you guys this nice simple article I found just now. To those who are in a difficult situation, THIS CAN SURELY HELP.

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If you are anxious, tense, or concerned about anything in your life, dear friend, begin now to relax, let go, and let God fill your need.

No matter what seems to be missing from your life—be it a much-loved person, a special place, an activity of great value, or a feeling of well-being—know that God is right now filling your need.

Take a deep breath. Release it slowly, telling yourself quietly: I let go. I let God fill my need. Accept the reality that God's wisdom is ever present and available, ready to fill you with new understanding, light, and life. Let God fill every void, every emptiness that seems to separate you from the desires of your heart. Let go! Let God fill your need!

God's light and substance and divine activity will move in and through you as you let go. God's creative process is awaiting your acceptance of its productive, healing action. Let your thoughts be lifted up. Let the presence of God dissolve your fears and doubts and remove every unbelief. Let go and let God within you do the work.

Begin now to relax from the strain and effort of questioning, planning, and reasoning. Take a few moments throughout the day to calm your thinking and place all your attention upon the words: I let go. I let God fill my need.

Immediately, you will experience visible and tangible benefits, inside and out. You will feel renewed strength and faith and courage. Your prayers will be more effective, and your understanding of the presence of God within you will be clearer. You will find that God's love takes care of what you cannot accomplish. As you let go, God will freely and abundantly fill every need.

God always provides knowledge, guidance, understanding, faith, healing, supply, or anything else you need. Whatever your life experience appears to be, you have—at this very moment—an opportunity to let go of your personal striving and let God move in you and through you to fill your every need.

During the most critical point in the life of Jesus, when the minds and hearts of His disciples seemed totally depleted of courage and faith, their needs were filled. As the disciples viewed the amazing example of Jesus' quiet surrender, they learned of the miracle-working power of letting go and letting God. Their eyes and minds and hearts were opened to the message of abundant life, eternal life, and love for all humanity.

God's love and goodness will always fill every need in your circumstances, every hunger of your heart, every longing of your soul for peace and assurance, and every good desire for the expression of eternal life and well-being.

Although it may sometimes seem you are separated from that which has been your greatest avenue of comfort, security, or supply, remember: God always fills your need. No matter how great the gulf seems between you and the solution to your deepest desire, you can trust God. Tell yourself again and again, as often as you need to do so: I let go. I let God fill my need.

Let go. Let God fill your need. God never leaves a void. God will never desert you or forsake you. God's presence of love and wisdom is ever nurturing your soul in its gradual unfoldment of spiritual potential. God's power is ever at work within every circumstance. As you let go and trust God, everything is transformed—yes, everything—into a blessing. God continuously makes dark places light, rough places smooth, crooked places straight, and empty places full—full of loving-kindness and abundance of joy.

Let go. Let God fill your need. Let the creative process of God begin now to fill every point in your life that needs the touch of divine love and healing power. God is ready to do what you cannot do by yourself.

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Source: UNITY

"Just Give Me A Reason"

Just my version "bathroom singing" - so it is not supposed to be anywhere good...LOLS...I love singing and I have a nice new mic and a good recording software, I'm just testing around...Yeah right...hahaa. Just having fun guys... I know it's terrible, I used the lowest key and I delay the tempo one level down. Told u bathroom singing has no rules...LOLS

Is Everything Parts Of God’s Plan?

Some of you would answer YES. Right?

U don’t say that when you got bullied at school, u turned rebellious, u turned to gangsters for help to protect yourself, which then involved you in more crimes, like drugs, like robbery, then you quit school just because you decided it was not the place for you – you then became a full-time gangster because it makes u feel strong. Then you learn how it can earn u easy money, u then turned to brothel and prostitution business, involved in killing some bad guys, risked yourself getting killed, and finally, life takes its toll on you, you find yourself finding ur way back to righteousness. You want to change. Mess after mess, you start to get back the fruit of your choice – U suffer from the outcome. One day you stand at the front of your other fellow Christians who are waiting for your testimony, would u say everything happened to you was according to God’s plan?

I beg to differ.  Just giving opinion as a layman, I would say NO.Since when that God teaches us to do all the things that the guy has been doing? Maybe how he got bullied at school was not his fault, but it’s his choice to choose how to react to it. God gives us the ability to CHOOSE! Of all the good things he could end up doing, he chose to be bad. Maybe he has reasons that are not known by others, maybe he faced some broken family problem, STILL, he could end up becoming a good man instead of complicating his life.  

Maybe you have your own opinion that Yes, God runs every moments of our lives. And doesn’t matter what my argument is, My logic with God’s Logic are not the same. That I accept. But still, there are Bible verses that say it clearly that His plans will be laid upon those who TRUST IN HIM, who seek the truth in Him. As we know, we can fall into sins, we can even turn our back on Him anytime. And does God want us to sin? Of course He doesn’t. Most of the time, it’s our full will and consent that we do what we did. In a split second decision, we can decide to not go to church and go to shop instead. Maybe because we are lazy, or we are having doubts in faith, you name it. It’s so unfair that we think God already set out all the dull things we do in life when it’s only a matter of choice that we do what’s right. 

One day we can ask for God’s direction in our lives, and He sent us wisdom and signs. Yes, God does that. But from there, you can anytime ignore His presence and get lost again. This world is just full of sins and temptations, it's just so easy to get drifted. God can be sitting just beside you and you don’t even care. So don’t go around telling people that all the mess in ur life now IS GOD’S PLAN, when it’s not. When you cheat your partner, it’s not God’s fault. When your lust is bigger than your brain, it’s not God’s fault, when you count your misery instead of your gifts, that’s certainly is not God’s fault. He can have the loveliest plan in your life, but are you following His way? If you don’t, How can that plan be revealed to you? Just like the non-believers.  You do dare to say that for them to be nonbelievers and refuse to accept God is also part of His plan? When you say No to those who show you the right way, what about that?

So I want to tell u my dear friends, WE HAVE A SAY in what’s gonna happen next. It’s all a choice. Following God’s will ISN’T EASY. To stay faithful isn’t easy. So it’s not a surprise that not many have it. So when you do something really wrong in your life and still go around and talk as if you are the holy man just because you believe that everything bad you do has happened with God’s permission, while it’s your greed and human flesh that rule you, instead of God.

Good News: God is ever forgiving, He will receive us back. And He can use our current situation, no matter how bad it is, to work in a manner that will contribute to something good our lives. Nothing is impossible to Him, you believers know that!! Question is, how long and how are you are gonna lead that route? U have to turn back and make things right. God’s mercy is for all. Alleluia.

When 2 Prayers Collide

I just have this thought in my head. For those who believe in God, I’m sure you also believe that your prayers are heard and answered.

What if, in the occasion of two people, who are having the same ordeal in their lives, are actually praying for different outcome?

One person prays that they can find a way to work it out, and the other person actually has given up and prays to God that he can immediately pass that ordeal and move on?

They are both believers. God loves them equally. Both have reasons why they ask for what they asked and both only want the best for themselves and thought that it’s also the best for everyone. Just that, both don’t seem to think alike. They both want the outcome to be different from what each other wants. 

Not that I try to put myself in God’s shoes, trying to think how would He decide on things. But lets just put it this way. God will grant the prayer of the one who has the best of intention, free from selfishness…

At the end of the day, God knows what is the best for us.

May He give guidance and assistance to those who need. Devil is not that powerful but it can do a lot to mislead people. May God guide us, Amen. 

Does God Love You More Than He Loves Me?

Being a Christian in the early age, I have walked a journey of ups and downs in my religious life. I have experienced my downfall, getting lost and found my way back. Those who are still new in Christianity might not experienced that journey yet. They might not know that you can fall from A to Z, just by giving in to your worldly cares.

I know that life can be tough, that sometimes we can even lose it. One day I can be surrounded by the blessings that I acknowledge, the next thing I can be tested with the the biggest trials in my life. We just never know.

I have friends who are still beginners, who have just started to learn, and they found that faith which is the key. Although they are new, never one time that I try to compare myself to them, not to mention judge them on the relevance of their beliefs and ways of worship. The beginning of it might look so overwhelming that you can feel like standing on top of the world, but you cannot brag and boast about your faith, to the extent that you think you are more blessed, you are more loved and your prayers are more heard. Suddenly you think you can even read God's mind about who He loves more. Gosh. Why do this?

On the knowledge that Christ wants us to love one another, I believe that such way of comparing faith doesn't go along with that teaching. Moreover, some might not know how tough can it be in the battle of keeping that faith alive, and talking too much of faith but does not translate it into values and principles in the way of life, it could almost be referred as Empty faith.Speaking of faith is easy but living it is not that simple.  So fixing ur inner self is your first job, instead of bz judging others. If I would do that, I can start saying that I have begun praying to this God many years earlier than you, so can I brag that God must have loved me more.

Or I can say that I never did all the sins you did in the past, why don't I use that to say, Oh, God must have loved me because I have resisted temptations,  while you were busy committing all the sins? See that? I can find countless of reasons to bring another believer down by comparing things. But still why would I do that? If I ever do that, I'll be very ashamed to look at myself in the mirror, when I keep bragging about faith but I can't even fix my ways of life.

Don't just tell, but LIVE IT. Show people that you are your faith by the way you live. Why not be humble about your faith. It's God's job to know who He loves, He is to know what good deeds we do. And as far as I know, God loves us all. We are not qualified to judge one another. Thanks.

Go live the faith, not just say it. God bless :))