So The Ugly Duckling Is To Be Punished?

I read this somewhere from Facebook. “Beauty Can’t Be Faked. It’s whether you have it, or you don’t!” Whoa, what a statement. Those who posted this, must be in the category who have it (beauty), don’t you think so? Oh, how do they know they are in that category? Personal opinion? Your friends? Boyfriend? Or the mirror can talk? Hahahaha. Oh gosh. Going through random Facebook posts are hilarious sometimes.

From chatrooms, to social networks. Whatever chances available for people to just express how pissed they are at some other people, they sometimes overdo it. I understand if you hate some women who like to show off, or boast about themselves, or just overacting or acting all bitch, but how on earth can some women got pissed of by some other women for being UGLY? In other words, you sure think you are not one of those women, right? By thinking that way, automatically you are talking like you are from a different rank looking down at those unfortunate people under your feet. Oh, is that so?

Even how some guys are giving comments about ladies “who are not pretty”, as if it was really an OFFENSE. It’s like, “These ladies who are not pretty, have to sort to beauty products and even surgery just to be beautiful. Trying to hide their hideous face”. LOLS. Sorry I laughed. I refuse to understand how this could happen. How could some of the people could make it sound like IT WAS A MISTAKE TO BE UGLY. As if IT WAS THE UGLY PEOPLE’S CHOICE TO BE UGLY. Only that way I can rationalize why they hate the ugly ducklings; that’s for having sucky choice to be ugly. But wait, I bet you know it’s not their choice how their faces are, right? Just like you, I think there’s something you don’t like about your looks, maybe your eyes, your nose, your mouth, so if you think others are responsible for their ugliness, that they could actually look good but choose to look ugly, why don’t you FIX YOUR FACE right then and there? I am not sure if you have a belief in the Creator. Yeah, if you do. Let me remind you that it is THAT CREATOR that creates people with their own unique looks. We might not born with the same qualities, but all of us have different weaknesses and advantages. And you are given eyes to see, and be wise in what you see, but what you do with your eyes are judging them for how The Creator made their faces. Yeah, of course you will hurt the feeling of these ugly ducklings, but most importantly you make fun of The Creator’s way of creating people in His own wisdom. Even if it’s not because of all that, just think for once. If you are a little stupid than some smart people you know, a little less patient and hot tempered maybe, yeah, people would HATE YOU for all those. But I bet you would defend yourself saying that IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT cos some of these attitudes are born with you. Now you are talking. Now you know. But I bet your narrow mind and lack of sensitivity and respect for human beings in general, would make you 1000 more piss-able and hate-able than those people who you claim to be ugly.

Please. Stop punishing people for their looks. You don’t like some people, you don’t need to be harsh by hurting them with your words. If you think you are Prince and Princess, you can just enjoy wearing your crown and stay at your castle. You don’t need to be pissed at people just because they are ugly. And especially if they try something to look beautiful, Oh gosh, just leave them alone. Shame on you. No one is guilty for being ugly. You don’t know how much love they have in their hearts and how many people love them. You definitely don’t know these people at all to be seeing them by their face value alone. It’s just too immature and too shallow; almost out of this world. Please Change. Or there’ll come a day when this stupidity will be used against you to teach you a lesson. So stop doing that. Respect one another. You have no right to punish others just because you are poor in your judgment. Beautify your soul and you will start to see the beauty of others that shines from within.

Everybody is beautiful in their own way, trust God in His wisdom of creation. 

The Answer Has Been Found...

Now is November. It's going to be December soon. The thought of December made me think about holidays, and of course Christmas! Then it made me think about something. A question. A question that I used to ask for so many years before.

The question was, "Why my Christmas was never happier? It was just started and then it was over." Yeah. Maybe because I expected too much from my Christmas. I wanted to feel happy but 25th December always ended so fast. Even half the day you thought it was gonna end so soon. Even parties, gifts and attending mass didn't make the difference. Then halfway, I found an answer. I thought the answer is "Sharing blessing" would definitely make the difference. Instead of hoping for a gift, give a gift, and witness how the joy doubles. Yeah, then I tried that too. Still, something was missing. The joy was there,  but not quite enough. So I continued looking for the answer.

Then till one Christmas day, it was nothing fancy. We decided to go to a restaurant and had dinner. Just us, a family. And we had some nice meals on the table. How we actually laughed and talked about things, Oh man. I could not imagine the feeling. I didn't notice about it until when we came home. The joy just lingered still. My heart was smiling. Oh. It was strange. How could a simple Christmas, which I had no expectation left for it because I was tired expecting too much, suddenly could bring a joy that I never expected?

I noticed that the simple dinner with my parents and siblings was a very rare one. We never actually sat at one table and talked like that. In any other days, we took our meal at separate time because we always had different schedule. And although I did recall the time when we laughed at a funny jokes, but always in the absence of someone, cos it happened at random times. I didn't remember watching my parents' face that closely, that I could see the wrinkle on their faces. It was right then I got it. Now I finally got the answer. 

It's strange how you can stop trying to do and be anything more than just being you, and just with that you get to experience the kind of joy that is so pure and beautiful. And what makes this possible is YOUR FAMILY. Just be your normal self and Be There with them,  and start looking at these faces that you thought you saw everyday, but you never cared the details. These people would and have put up with you every step of the way. Goodness Gracious. It was such a miraculous blessing to me to be able to find the answer in such a peculiar way. Praise be to God.

These lovely people are the answer. That's why I'm doing my very best, to improve myself in this. I've done much in my work, in my passion, in my ambition, and in my love life, so it's time to slowly shift and give more time for them. That's why I will always cook for them if I have the time. I will make a time and I know how much they appreciate it because they can feel the sacrifice and sincerity in me whenever I do stuff for them. 

For all of you out there, who are still looking for the answer, I'm giving you a shortcut. Maybe you should stop looking and just take this answer and apply it to your life. You don't need a few more years when I've done the time for you. Now you go and pursue this happiness, share your blessings with your family, make sacrifices when it's necessary, and do something meaningful to make your family grow in love, TOGETHER. 

Shall you find truth in this, I say You're Welcome if you would thank me one day...ehehe. But it's not enough, lets start embracing this joy and happiness that is God given, and never ever waste it again. Alleluia. Thanks be to God for such a gift.

Strictly Recommended!!

Speaking of marketing, you would spend a fortune on advertising alone. Flyers, banners, billboards, you name it. People would go extra mile just to do marketing their products. Marketing is very very important, and like what this millionaire told us during a course, Market your products so well that you have to say sorry to them for having to wait for the stock. He said, it’s okay if you over-market your products till you don’t have enough supply to cover the demand. What matters is, THEY COME TO BUY. How you gonna handle it from there, you can think about that later. I’m sure some of you would not agree.

Today I received at least a few customers, without not even spending a single cent on marketing. Get the idea how? It’s through recommendation. Yes, and you didn’t pay for that recommendation. Not even planned or plotted. What I did was just do my work the best I know, and then something happens from there. Someone else saw it from a friend who was my customer, and then the person asked where and how much, and even if there was not enough info, still, they would still go and look for you!!

I thought it was not that serious. Until I recall a few customers who came driving for hours just to reach my place. Where they could be passing a few more outlets that could be giving them the same thing, or maybe better. But they made up their mind to come to my place anyway, because it was RECOMMENDED by someone they know.

Deep inside me, I felt so thankful for this. I know that I am still undiscovered by many. I am not the only person with the capability, and I can even question my survival in this era of tough competitions. Some people have more links, more networks, more contacts, more money, more strategies – where I lack. But looks like competition is so fair for those who never despair. These people go extra mile just to be my customers. And how can I thank my older customers who helped me. They didn’t even think they were doing something for me. Like a lost friend passed my number to a friend from a different district, to call and get my service, they went through difficulties just to make that happen. Sometimes I care more about them. I even suggested that they go to other place which is nearer. But that have offended some of them. “You don’t get it do you? When someone they know recommends them to go to me, I should not make it difficult for them. Can I just accept them with opened arms? Hahahaha. Now it’s sounding funny.

Anyway, thanks guys. You make my day. Thanks that every work that I do with sincerity and care, they do come a long way. That’s “God’s work” right. He wants me to keep going  :) Alleluia.

Yes I will continue this mission!

"Being Happy Doesn’t Mean You Have It All"

Don’t you agree to this yet? It’s quite an overused phrase too, right. What does it mean? Have you ever thought of it?

It’s normal for others to keep achieving greater and greater height. You won’t see them at the same level for a long time. Well, of course. It could be because they think it’s not enough for them, they want something more. It’s not wrong, right? From a Kenari, you want a Camry; given the financial ability and higher society rank, there is a need to upgrade. But if the needs, go along with capability, why not. Achieve as high as possible. Till you think it’s time to stop and start enjoying life. When will it be enough? Will it ever be enough?

Once upon a time, I thought there was something wrong with me. Because I stayed at the same spot for quite some times. Not much improvement. Some people would come to me and mention “how rare this scenario is”. Then they would mention something like, “Jangan terlalu mudah berpuas hati.” (Don’t feel satisfied too easily). Wait, wait. Can I stop myself if it just happens? What if I feel like I feel good at Level C, when there is still a B, and A than I can achieve? What is it that really measure Happiness in our lives? If I follow what people say, I might achieve B, and then A, but those achievements don’t come free and easy. There’s a price to pay. I wonder if I’d ever trade the satisfaction I have when I am at C while trying to grab B, and then A. I wonder if it’s all worth it. So, how do I know which one would fare the best in the end for me?

I might not have as much as you have. Seriously. I would admit that. But because I have learnt it my way, how to get the most from my life, and what is it that really matters, I just come to the conclusion that it’s the way that I look at things. I collect every possible wisdom to FEEL THE ESSENCE of the good side of EVERYTHING that I can see, I can feel, I can touch – connected to them in a way that please my being. Now with this, it’s not a surprise that I can easily feel pleased. Something good in a day can make my whole day, and I savour the feeling of joy. If I could just steal the moment from every hardship, I swear I would!

Please don’t feel hurt and complain to me when you see that I can be happy with the little things that I have. Cos I understand how others would look at my life, but it’s not necessary for me to explain to them I see my life much much better than that. Please don’t blame me to be able to feel enough with so little things. Trust me, you can shove your thousands theories on how I should grab the moon and stars in this lifetime, before I can totally be called – someone who lives a meaningful life. I agree, but maybe your term for moon and stars are not the same with mine. So don’t argue with me if I’m happy with my simple life, and you are still not happy with all your wealth. It’s not my fault, is it? But just in case you think you want to envy me silently, why don’t you start to count what you have rather than what you don’t have? Yeah, start with that. Once you be able to master this skill of Counting Blessings rather than Counting Money, maybe you get a little bit of idea how I reach here.

Last but not least, I don’t need your permission or approval to be happy. You also don’t need mine. I can as well go ahead and feel happy now, and start being thankful for all the little things I did today to make some people smile, and guess what, why not you try it too. Happiness is not mine alone. It’s for you, me, All of us. What are we waiting for. “Grab it now”. Less or more material we have, in pride of with humble, Happiness is ours to feel.

Alleluia for such a wonderful gift of life!! Thank you Lord!!!

No. 1 Excuse!!

OMG, where was I? You guys notice or not?? I missed One Day of blogging yesterday!! Oh man Oh mannn. How can I let it happen??

I CAN EXPLAIN.

Of course, I was a lil busy yesterday, I mean, I was enjoying my day. It was a good day. A very delightful one. With some very pleasant encounters with people. I came home with a good feeling. Of course I could not wait to blog about something. I was doing very well with my November blog challenge, until…

UNTIL…

UNTIL…

I turned on my lappy as usually and found out, IT COULD NOT START WINDOWS!! It started with the black screen, prompting me to enter Safe Mode and others, and whatever I entered, it just won’t work. As soon as the windows logo loading, it would restart, for countless of times. I WENT BLANK! Thinking about some works that I could do during the nite, and also, MY BLOG CHALLENGE, which I never thought problems like this could arise and made me make the delay that I don’t plan on doing. Not this challenge. Oh man. How could you.

So I noticed I have another two unused laptops downstairs. So it was not the end of the world. I picked my mom’s netbook, and what I had in mind was to surf for SOLUTIONS. I could not let my lappy sleep a day, not without knowing that it was badly sick. So I thought I was gonna use my good relationship with Mr Google to light my thinking bulb. I surfed and surfed, and I got stucked. Thinking that I did not have the bootable XP cd (O yes, XP, people. Win 7 can wait…ehehe) and even my cd rom was not working. I got really stucked. Thinking that I must first bought an external cd rom, or bought a bootable thumb drive and etc. Hello?? Did I look like I have a week to solve the solution? I even wanted it to solve THAT VERY NIGHT!! I actually fell asleep while browsing. Oh poor 256…Hehehe

So today, how could I forget I have a brother who is very computer savvy. Not the “Fluke” types, who made wonders by accident. He could made our computers and lappy from becoming totally junks, to go to work again. So I thought I didn’t have a week to fix it on my own. I told my bro and he said he thinks he could fix it. So when he arrived, he said he forgot to bring the boot cd and external hard drive!! I mean, gosh, it’s like a mechanic forgot his toolbox. OH MAN. Dear poor lappy. You gonna be stranded another night, at least!! That was what I thought. And the first thing he told me, “THIS IS NOT EVEN REGISTRY PROBLEM. Could be hard drive”. I imagined saying goodbye to that poor lappy already when he said that. I mean, gosh, someone could advice me to get a new one rather than trying to replace the component. I don’t know. I was just guessing la. Hahahaha.

So, I still put a lil faith and let him work on it, as I was at the kitchen, preparing delicious foods *giggles. Guess whatt… I heard him saying, “It’s working!” I went and peeped, and saw that it entered the password page now. OMGGGGGG, YOU’RE BACKKK!! Deep inside I actually salute my bro. You’re my bro and you are a pro. It rhymes , right..LOLS…

So here I AM! This is the blog for yesterday and I’m gonna blog another one for today. Since I have explained my excuse so well, I DESERVE FORGIVENESS. Myself, I forgive you for the delay.

(Don’t do it again. Thank you.)

Yooohooo…I’m back on my blog challenge. Stay tuneddd peopleeee :) This is gonna be my No.1 and Only One excuse for this blog challenge. No more! :))

A BirthdayByte From Me

Going to the kitchen and preparing all kinds of foods is nothing new to me. This year especially, I managed to find time to prepare lots of meals. I enjoy feeding my loved ones with the foods they like. It's a kind of pleasure to me when they enjoy it. A few days ago, I made a cake, but the batter was divided into two equal cake tins. So I got 2 cakes, same size. Purposely. One I served on the table for my family to eat...and the other one, I packed and gave to someone. 

Oh, I didn't plan to actually blog about it, if I did, I would have made it look neater. Hahaha. But I like almonds to go with choc. So I had loadsa almond nibs on top of the cake.

 

This was the other one that went into the packing. Extra chocs for this one since I put a choc layer in  the middle, other than just the top.

Okay, it went into another outer silver box. Oh wait, there was a card. Hehe. Why not, I don't just send BirthdayBytes to just anyone, okayy.... *giggles

Well, the taste is number two. It's the thoughts that matter. *giggles. Oh, sorry for the blur part of the card. (LOLS). Whoever claims that he/she was the one who received it, better show the clear version of this card as a proof. Fair enough...Hehehee.

Note: Hope you enjoyed every bite of it! *giggles

Who Is Doe Zantamata and Why?

I like to see and read the posts that are shared in Fb, especially those with photos. And of course, with some words of wisdom in them. I just notice that some of the quotes are overused and repeated again and again. Some of these quotes don't even give effect to me. I mean, I can't find the magic in them. I'm not sure about others. But it must really hit that point of magic, then only I can stop and nod.

I remember start reading some quotes, which look original, that made me go, Yes!! That's totally true! and I read  the name below there. It reads Doe Zantamata. Who's that? Oh, maybe some author I just discovered.  Could be a big name. I thought so.

So I started following the Fb pages that share mostly her quotes. Oh, her? Doe is a She? Apparently Doe Zantamata is a female. I found this in google. That's not too generous of an info, but at least we get some info.

"Doe Zantamata is an author, artist, and photographer. In addition to the Happiness in Your Life book series, she also creates and designs poster books of different titles, including “Happy By Nature,” “Old Children, A Book for “Adults”,” and others. Doe has been writing since before she could tie her shoes. In addition to writing, she enjoys nature, history, and is an animal welfare advocate. She also runs a blog at www.thehiyL.com with daily posts". 

 

It's not easy to Wiki her, maybe she's only starting to gain popularity OR she's just a little too secretive and would prefer people to know her by her works, and not personal life. Doe, a little note on that. If you want to get famous a little faster, it's better to show more of yourself, to get personal a bit, and expose yourself more. The first people that will be your fanbase would be among your family, relatives and friends, and old schoolmates, and some people you met when socializing. Yeah, which you won't get if you want to start to be known from zero, using a pen name that even your own family don't know of. You know what...I'm being sarcastic to myself here, actually. I've been doing the same thing. I can be 10 years in blogging, and still unknown. I have to accept that. LOLS. Kidding! I mean, not in your case. You have a very interesting pen name. Unlike mine...ehehe. And you are famous enough to me. Your quotes are everywhere!!

Doe Zantamata actually has the same kind of ideas with me. In most of her quotes, it just reflects my own philosophy. It's hard not to like her. To Doe, I think I can feel your passion in this. I hope you carry on. I hope more people will get inspired by your quotes. For some reason, I think you have underwent some experiences that have totally brought you to the idea of positivity. I think you totally get it, your mission in this world. You gonna use your talents for goodwill. So continue with this. If you manage to light the heart that is gloomy, you can help people change their outlook about life. Bravo and keep up the good work!!

Pssttt...I'm your fan :))

You may browse around 2 her sites:

http://www.doezantamataquotes.com/

http://thehiyl.com

Qualification Or Passion?

I remember a few years ago, this girl who worked at her aunty’s restaurant nearby always came and talked with me. That time, I was only started working. So the experience of picking a career was still new and revolutionary to me. I told her , what led me to this job is not my qualification. It’s my passion.

She was so surprised to know that I had a qualification that can make me pick much safer career like A Teacher, and I went and pick something else, which is risky and less of a security. I saw that look in her face. She was a bit startled. Maybe she never imagined that someone could be so bold. All maybe she thought it was rare. So yesterday, she came again to my place. And she told me she currently was having a hard time. She was still without stable career. Her application to work with the government was never succeeded. She told me stopped renewing her application. She said, “Not that I gave up, but I think the job with the government won’t suit me. I’m a type of person who likes to be active and explore many things, instead of doing the same job over and over again.” Then she continued, “ Remember what you told me back then? I kept saying it to people, about your story. That you could have been an English teacher, but you did not. You picked your passion. Because if you do what you like, you will never get tired of doing the job. You will feel happy all the time. And that’s what life’s all about. You remember that right?”

I went, “Whattttt?! You actually remembered? I laughed at the part when she referred me as “the could have been English Teacher”, I didn’t actually said that. I only said the part where I could end up be teaching Science and Maths in English, since that was what most of my teacher friends do. Okay now back to her. I appreciate that she took the inspiration from me.

But judging from her situation, she came to kind of a dead end. Cos she tried what she liked, which was in family business of selling foods, but the were a few changes in her market that made it hard for the business to survive. I’m sure she tried her best. She made the effort, I’m sure. But I’m not sure about attitudes. I’m afraid that she was lacking in that. I remember some time ago she told me that she wanted to do some extra work that I might need help in. And it would earn her some money. And then when the time came, she gave a lot of excuses or she never picked up the phone at all. I sensed that there was sthing wrong with her way of doing things.

You could be having the most perfect dream to achieve in your life. You could learn the best way of achieving them. You could have the courage and determination. But these aren’t enough. So be careful about it. You can’t simply adapt a concept that works for others, thinking that it would simply work for you too. Cos there are just some essense that need to go with that, before the recipe turns out perfectly. I’m not Donald Trump. I haven’t achieved anywhere yet. But in this one and at this level,at least I know the kind of attitudes you should NOT have to succeed. Just like I might never be like Donald Trump. Although his achievement is so great, but there are just things that he has that I don’t. The way of thinking, I don’t always agree with him when I watched his show The Apprentice. But then this was the show that first inspired me in my career now. Since I know that I could not adapt everything the way Donald does it, at least I figured out my own way of doing it. At least my passion is so big that I would not mind to discipline, to put full commitment, to put in effort, to keep my integrity – and the basic thing is, you must AT LEAST know how to keep your word. If you fail, show the effort to make up for it. If you are all talks, and not serious, love to play with excuses, seriously…you need attitude makeover first. Then continue seeking for that dream. IT’S POSSIBLE. But IT’S NOT SIMPLE. Only the strong will survive.

But Once you do survive…the REWARD is a truly blessed, well spent life. It’s WORTH IT. NOW go ahead and do something!! Good luck and God bless!!

Health Is The Real Wealth!!

Generally talking, we used to think that our health was so much better back then than now, right? When we were younger, our body were stronger and immunity was better because everything else worked at their best. Maybe I was wrong. But one thing for sure, things so get less and less effective and eroding as we age. Was that idea right?

I used to tell people I had problem with sleep back then. But maybe it was just because I loved to be awake at nite. I would sleep any other time but left the nitetime for me to study and other desk activity, including listening to music . I drank coffee just to make sure that I could be awake as late as possible, even if there was a 7 AM class the next day. It was just crazy. I also had this annual disease of getting flu. Oh, not annual. It’s like monthly. Or as often as possible. Whenever there was a housemate who had a flu, and any close contact that I have, even by just talking nearby each other, “The Disease Is Successfully Transferred”. Darn. I remember that I could be really healthy one day, and just voiceless the next day. The viruses were just playing king and queen with my immune system. You used to be so weak, 256!! For someone who drank nothing but coffee and coke, and ate whatever she liked, and never cared if she slept enough or not, what do you think?

Surprisingly, the pattern has changed. Since the year I’m working, it took a while for me to slowly change my habits. Still, I notice the most and utmost difference only by THIS YEAR. I did some crazy things this year. If you guys remember, how I put myself in a 30 Days Challenge. First in June, I did a MILKYLESS MONTH challenge and went on an extreme WATER DIET, And then July, CAFFEINELESS MONTH. Then I took a break for Aug and September, October with coffee and milk in moderation and ongoing water diet. But some time in October, I started to add another routine, My Daily Cycling. Since my mom brought in the Orbitrac bike from the other house, I found out I love to Sweat!! And one more thing, of course you guys might guess that anyone who are new with physical activity might have muscle ache all over. Guess what, NO muscle ache at all. I was surprise too. Then I look at my bottle of mineral water and got the idea. OH MAN. IT MUST BE THE WATER!

Do you guys know why we are told to drink sufficient water everyday? Water is not like coffee or coke. It doesn’t taste so good. It’s just hard to enjoy drinking water; you can’t even pretend it’s sweet, cos it’s just with the absence of all the flavour of the drinks you like to indulge in. But why only recently that I learned that water is THE FUEL to our organs to function. Really. All the years, I thought that water is just to keep us hydrated and diluting all the extra sugar and sodium that we take, and why I only know recently that water is also provide sponge for our joints. For all the years I didn’t drink water, only last year that it got back to me. My knees were really painful and I could not even use them. I could not kneel or even bend, and I thought, IT WAS THE END FOR MY KNEES to ever function properly again. Remember that water diet that started at June 2012? OMG, it healed my knees!! No medication, no nothing. Just by drinking water. Alleluia. Can u imagine what water does to your body?

And speaking of sleeping. This is finally the year when I don’t bring work to home anymore. I tell myself that I don’t believe that I’m too busy to sleep, and so no matter how busy, I will only do work at the office. Nitetime is only for me to spend leisure, spending time with my loved ones. And SLEEP! Actually, sleeping is never a problem anymore for the past few years, but with my own help, I get better sleep by practising to relax and though my mind is so occupied with heavy thoughts at times, they are not enough to keep me awake. What I know, my body needs sleep to start doing most of the job of health maintenance. Thank God that my health is just so so much better. I’m not anymore susceptible to flu and fever – even when sometimes I have to deal with people who cough and sneeze, luckily my immune system is just better! And since a few weeks ago, I’m starting to adapt Lemon Drink every morning to start my day. What can I say. With this health, we know we are capable of doing WHATEVER we want and Let’s go achieve our dreams!

This health Makes It Possible :) It’s indeed the wealth that surpasses any satisfaction that money can give us. Our Health Is Our Wealth!! STAY HEALTHY, PEEPS!

My Public Apologies

There’s just a long list here, I think. I never write one, but I feel such heaviness when I start to think about how many people that I do owe my sorry to.

I don’t have explanation for everything that I do. Really. Sorry if you think it’s strange. Oh, there goes my first sorry. I’m sorry if I deleted a lot of names from my Facebook accounts. If you ask why, I don’t have the answer that sounds logic to you. What I know is, it’s definitely not as bad as you think. It’s not even anything negative that I can think of. Sometimes I can’t always explain why I do what I did.

I’m sorry to those who sent me messages, and never get a reply. I don’t know what goes into your mind. If you wonder if I actually open and read them, Yes of course. I read every words you guys type. With each of you attending different issue, I choose to keep quiet. Maybe you guys have all the funny assumptions going on in your head. Trust me, maybe it’s not that complicated.

Sorry to those who sent me messages offering friendship. And still left unreplied. You have no idea how I appreciate that. I really do. Just that, I never said a word. Maybe I’m still contemplating what’s best to do. I could not just go ahead and be too casual about my replies especially when there are other parties involved. I sense that there’s a sensitivity that might be affected. So maybe I’m just playing it safe. It’s not that I am not accepting new friendship, No, it’s not that. But sometimes there’s just a better time and way for things to happen.

No arguments, no hurtful debates, No nothing, and suddenly you guys realized you guys were removed from my list. I know it must feel strange, thinking that you did something. In most cases, No. Nothing wrong. It’s not even the end of our friendship. But to not have a conversation for now, is the best so far. Still, I’m surprised. Some of you never asked. You guys, who some are my silent readers, understood. I must have reason doing what I do. And thank you for thinking that “She can’t be so evil no matter what.”

I just don’t want to raise certain issues. And if I need to close down old books, I have to also close the links to it. I’m just making things easier. A conversation is good to go on on certain ground, but to keep things in place, a further conversation will just complicate things. There will be more misunderstanding, and then blames, confusion, so on and so forth.

So, to those who think they are one of them, please accept my sincere apology. One day, if we have the chance to talk about it, we sure will laugh and let it pass. Thanks that despite my unsocialized life as a person, as a blogger and even as a social network user, still there are people who recognize my existence. Grateful for that. Please accept my humble apologies. Thanks :) 

Note: If I were to extend it to the people outside, of course I have more to say. Especially to my customers who offered closer  friendship but I'm just not competent enough to please everyone. As much as I have tolerated with people before, I do hope that I do get that much tolerance from others. After all, I'm just a weak human being. Thanks for the understanding.