Can’t Lose Them This Way, Not Like This

Can I just assume that sometimes our ego gets the better of us. We keep a little grudge and refuse to show it, refuse to even admit it. Or you might ask me back, Grudge? What grudge? Heck, you don’t even admit that something is there, something that is causing you heartache, but you will never agree to it in a million years. How can anyone help to ease the pain away?

Look… I’ve been there. There’s something that someone does, someone that you can rely on, someone that you’ve have so much trust on, someone who has proven his worth to you – and after everything, all the person needs to do is just mistakenly trip a step and it hurt your guts. Just one single mistake that the person does, without a bit of intention, has managed to wound your heart but not in the way that you can easily define. Something hurts you, maybe you feel betrayed or that you’ve been failed, but it’s just deep in the valley, way way beyond words. Maybe because of your nature to keep things to yourself or you think it’s better left unsaid. Either way, but you are on the way of losing someone from your life. Are you sure you want to continue??
 

I am speaking about a kind of weird scenario that happened between you and a friend. Not just any friend. Usually only a special friend that has a special place in your heart that can cause this. I still remember feeling this way towards my bestfriend, when we were still back in college. We were roommates of two and she used to really look up to me when we first became friends. Then when we got closer, things didn’t look neat all the time. We did have disagreements sometimes. I guess that we could never avoid that. We are humans living amongs humans, and not angels. We will hurt each other with or without us knowing. 

I still remember that I always booked a seat for her because she was in a different class but we sometimes combined during one subject session. Knowing that I always arrived first, I must book a seat for her. One day, a mistake happen that she was not aware that she mistakenly told another girl that the seat that I booked for myself was not taken so the gal took the seat. When I came, I was so shocked that I got no seat. I was so mad, but it was a misunderstanding, and she thought I already have a seat. Silly right? I remember she was a bit mix up because of the discussion that she had from the previous session and she did not put much thought into the seat, and it pissed me off. Especially when I knew I’ve been booking seat for her without her having to remind me and that was what she did to me. She was shocked that she did a mistake. The thing that I was really made about was, the gal that became the victim. She was innocent. Because of my bestfriend’s mistake, she had to give the seat to me and took a different chair and sat at an awkward position in the class and I saw that embarrassed face on her when some guys laughed at her for sitting at the corner. My heart was so in pain to see what my bestfriend’s stupid mistake had caused that gal. But it’s strange that my bestfriend didn’t get to know that I was having such grudge. She thought it was just a mistake and “hey, lets just move on”. From there, I avoided from talking with her despite being roommates. I was pissed for days and everytime I remember the part when she just gave away my seat to the poor gal after so many times I booked seat for her, garsh the feeling was tearing me apart. But I just couldn’t work it out or settle it. I kept grudges instead. Sounds familiar?

Come to think about it, o man, she’s my bestfriend. Was it worth it to lose her for a single mistake? When I thought of it again, she was so clueless about the seat that time. She got all mix up. No matter what my reason was, it could be as simple as an unintended mistake from her. And if I cared to bring up about how embarrassed she caused the gal, heck, couldn’t it be that I was overreacting? The gal managed to get on with it maybe I WAS really overreacting. I was glad that it didn’t prolonged. We finally talked because my bestfriend, Oh man, my besfriend isn’t just any girl. It was because she was really special that she becomes my bestfriend in the first place. I c an’t abandon her over a mistake. Not this way. Not like that. Would I want to be abandoned by someone I love and care because of some unintended mistake like that? Is that all your value is, to just be dumped for a mistake, no matter how kind and sweet things you have done in the past? It’s not fair right? THEN DON’T DO IT.

End your unsaid grudge today, especially when the person involved is a friend so dear to you. In the era where virtues don’t take much space among humans, we must stand for a few good things that we have. WE CAN’T LOSE OUR BUDDIES LIKE THAT, NOT THAT WAY, NOT LIKE THIS. Please. Stop getting hurt. FORGIVE them. FORGIVE thou. Free your grudge. Free it. Be a happy person again. Try do it now. Please.Pleaseee.

Thank you...:)

Picture Of The Day

These are the very delicious cupcakes my parents bought during their vacation to Philippines last November. They didn't taste like the normal cakes at all, not sure if they have a better name. They were in large "bowl" instead of a normal cup as u can see. The purple one was Yam flavour...emmm...tasted so good. I think the other one must be Vanilla. If you happen to go to Philippines, maybe you can look for a shop by the name of Red Ribbon cos the wrapper has that name. I bet the shop must be specialize in good pastries like that. Hehehe. I took the pic after having a few bites. Yum yumm...hehehe

“I Know”, “I Understand”.

I am so clueless what to write tonite. It was my fault for putting extra work like trying out on Twitter and doing some other extra work for the online community that I join, and guess what, I foresee something like this. The hype of trying to get a few things done at once, plus, my 31 Days Blog Challenge is still definitely my top priority. Now without any topic I just let my fingers dance on the keyboard and see if I can come up with something spontaneous – and interesting of course. Hehe.

Okay, I just thought of something. Lets see. Guys, don’t you find it interesting that you can throw that look of “I Know” and “I Understand” whenever you come across funny situations that can easily make you snap? Back then, you would totally fire back all the most evil language you know at people who tease or provoke you, even how silly their issues were. What you have in mind would probably be “No Way You Gonna Win” and “I’m Right, You’re Wrong”. Yes, all that. Sounds familiar?

Have you heard of this term Reward of Time? Maybe not, because I just made it up. Hahaha. I mean, there’s always something to feel silly about when you look back in time. You’ve been narrow-minded, you’ve been greedy and you’ve been too hot tempered for all the right reasons and place (at least you thought so). You know the feeling when you feel so irritated and you would say the stupidest lines spontaneously without thinking how stupid that would make you look. Remember when you said things to back up yourself with the lamest points, just because you could not admit your weaknesses. Gosh, I’ve been there.

And guess what, aren’t you surprised when you can simply keep a cool heart when people go crazy on you, saying all those harsh things without you deserving them, and I bet back then, someone could get injured or maybe “killed” if someone does that to you. Then explain why you can just give a very determined smile of “I know and I Understand.” instead of resorting to any act of violence you can afford to give. You never thought you have grown so much since the last time you associated with something like that. But you have. Now all you can do is just let people have their way, and you would wait to be the last one to get heard. And what you have to say is just short, simple words, but able to turn into a spear that stab right to the lungs of the person who creates a scene with you. Gosh. I have just explained to you what Reward of Time means to me. Your maturity.

Those people who have not yet have it, they can easily lose all debates with you. Unless they are among the rare people who are in control of their temper and composure and ego, then they would be just one of those who make a fool of themselves whenever anger sets in. So one advice is, watch your anger because it’s the key to your worst weaknesses. One day you will understand what I am talking about. One day you would find someone who is similar to your “angry version” and it’s your turn to throw that look of “I know.”, “I Understand.” The best thing about having this reward of time is you can now cherish your time to be one of those “wise men” among your circle. You think before you speak, and you don’t speak just to regret it, and then you act, not with your emotion, but with your brain. I envy people who are there, and I know I’m going there too. I feel so in control of myself if I can master my own anger management.

There’s something that you can do to make sure you get that reward faster. How? Lower your ego and learn from those. Never think so high of yourself to the extent of belittling other people, cos that gonna take you forever and still without reward. Should I say…this reward of time comes to those who have decided to go humble, humble enough to change, changing for the better. I trust that you guys are here in my blog because you are one of these people. We definitely gonna be there soon. I have faith in you :) Good luck.

Picture Of The Day

This was my first attempt of Nasi Ayam a.k.a  Chicken Rice which I cooked on the first day of New Year. I prepared an extra special dinner so I decided to cook this, and I took the risk of spoiling the New Year meal by this first attempt but guess what? It was not bad at all! The chicken tasted good, the chili and the soy gravy that went with it also almost similar to some of the recipe I have tasted in some Chicken  Rice shops. Only the rice, it could have been a bit more chicken-flavoured. And it was because I left out one of the ingredients in preparing the rice. I almost sure I could prepare a superb one next time around *giggles. (And make the chicken look better than that. Hahaha). Ok, don't laugh. At least I'm feeding myself some positive words okayy...Hahaha :P

The Art Of Keeping Secret

Secret is sometimes very tricky. It is intended to not be told or to be kept away from certain people who might get affected by it. Something that we seldom discuss when it comes to secret is when it can put us in a dilemma, from someone who has no significance in the secret involved, and then the next thing you can’t sleep because of it. How is that possible?

Secret means that you need to hold the truth from someone, or hide the truth pretending that you know nothing. This can put you in a difficult situation when you feel guilty because of what you know but then you can’t just reveal it, thinking of the consequences. Most of the time, it involves people that you care about. What if by revealing it, you are putting in jeopardy your friendship with another one, but then by keeping it, you think you are betraying yet another friend.

Here’s the art which I spontaneous compile from my understanding. Secret is something to be kept for a while, from certain people, for a reason, whether it’s good or bad. There’s a common virtue that when someone tells you a secret, you must keep it. Especially when the person is someone who means a lot to you. Of course you won’t just take it for granted. Then you find out that the secret is about someone else, and the person should know the secret to know there’s some unnoticed happening is going on in her life, and the longer you keep it, the longer you keep the person in the dark that she has something alarming that she should know. So when you are trapped in this situation, that makes you feel guilty and torn apart…here’s the tips.

Always go back to the INTENTION of doing something. Knowing that if you reveal someone’s secret, you will destroy the person’s trust. And although you think you are just trying to save the other person from getting further in a mess that she doesn’t know she’s in, but you might mess things up even worse from there knowing that you are not the best person to reveal the secret since the secret doesn’t belong to you. Your responsibility is just to be The Ears for someone who trusts you and you should do your role. As for feeling guilty from keeping it, you must understand that keeping a secret for the time being, is the right thing to do. Remember that when you don’t care, you would just go ahead and tell it right away. But because you care for the people involved, you stop yourself. You know that the friendship you have is not worth to destroy. The way to handle it well is always - know your role in the secret. If you just the ears, you don’t deserve to be the one who speak about it. Do what you can to let the person who owns the secret to confront the person who is concerned in the secret, so something can work out from there. I know this sounds a lil confusing, but if you are torn between 2 friends because of a secret, you will understand what I mean. 

As for the guilt, let it go away. You are not the person who should spend sleepless night because of the secret if you know your role and you are doing the best thing in your position. One day when the truth be revealed to the person you keep the secret from, of course she might feel pissed and maybe betrayed, that’s very familiar. But I remember many times being in the person’s position who only learns about a secret after too long, I felt the same way, but then I understand why my friends keep it from me. I would do the same if I were them. So no one has to hurt or get hurt any further anymore than what the truth of what the secret is holding. You shouldn’t make it more complicated from there.

Conclusion is, sometimes to keep secret is necessary. To have secret is also necessary. Knowing that things have proper time to reveal and knowing that secrets don’t last forever. The issue is just the right timing. So ladies and gents, whatever it is, always go back to the intention. To the owner of the secret, if you can find a way to reveal the secret sooner, the better. Don't wait until the truth doesn't count anymore. You don’t know you might save a relationship from a total wreck. That’s the beauty of truth. Congrats to all the people who have been trustworthy and making use of the art of keeping secret well. You might just need people like that to share your own secret one day! hehehe...Good Luck :))

 Picture of the day:

This is my extra phone, an experimental phone because I want to try out some new Malaysian brand phone and see how long it can last. It's such a small investment but I want to see if it's actually worth more than the RM involved. No harm at all. I do this kind of experiment once in a while but so far, it's working well. We shall see...hehehe

What Is Faith Without Actions

This is what I believe. You can speak and preach all day about going early in the morning, or rushing on a train after work – just to be there at the church on time. You speak about how you think God helps you in finding the solution to your problems. Keep telling people about how you never abandon God even in your hardship. They are all good. Your faith is your strength.

Anyway, I believe there’s sthing else besides that. That Faith, just like Love, is not about words. It doesn’t matter how well you speak and affect people with your preach, making people feel awe at you, but it’s all Void if you don’t show it in example. To me, good faith doesn’t speak in word of mouth. It speaks in lifestyle. If you claim to be holy and pious, it must goes along with how you do things in your life. You don’t go around and cheat people’s money. You don’t go around and make people in misery just so you can have your way. You don’t go around taking advantage of your friends and their friendship with you. If you live this way, you can preach all nite, but if you don’t walk the talk, that faith is Nothing. This is I believe. Faith must speak through the way you live. It must not only be spoken, but to be lived.

Now that I believe in this, I try my best to do the right thing everyday. Although I have times when I might just be a little cunning instead of being innocent all the time, I might bend some rules, but there is one that I will never disturb. Whatever we do, even if you have to do it a little evil than it should be, never drag people into it, and make them suffer while you get the treasure. That’s the unbreakable law of humanity, personally to me. If you break this, look at it how you like but you are still Less than a person of virtue. Be responsible of your own risk and mistake and let people stay away from it.

All in all, let the way you live your life speak for your faith.

“May the lost sheep find its way home…”

During the last hangout with my 3 bestest buddies. After we ate some western food, we moved to another eatery to have some drinks. The one closest to the lense was my glass. Hehe . This picture means a lot to me because it keeps a piece of memories of us spending very rare time sitting down and chitchatting. If you have friends that you treasure, you'll cherish every second with them...:))

You Say It’s Just Another Day

I did not celebrate the countdown like most people who had a blast. I woke up on the morning of 1st January, yeah, it was still the same thing. I was still at the same bed I lied on the nite of 31st Dec 2011, and pretty much sure I was still breathing the same air. What do you expect?

Still I acknowledged the coming of 2012 and I’ve been really excited about it. Although I didn’t do something special for the countdown, still, I feel the new wave being in the first day of 2012. Then from there, I will adapt new spirit and hopefully get more gear up, double up the work and gain more than I have last year. 

I can’t understand if one has worse definition of New Year than mine. To them, it’s just another day, same old thing, a day closer to death. It’s not wrong but life is more than just to come towards the end, it’s about making the journey worthwhile. Well, if one has this kind of perception, I’m not sure what can I do to help the person. I just feel like I want to say this.

You will keep wearing the old clothes until you change to new ones. And you have no right to complain about why are you still wearing the same clothes when you yourself refuse to change them. As simple as that. If that’s the case, no one else, Only you can help yourself :) Good luck.

A very nice jar, Christmas gift from my sister...hehe

Something About Her Life...

There’s always something good when we look at other people’s lives that we thought are better that ours. There’s something to envy, there’s something to go Wow about, there’s something to admire and there’s something good to speak about it to other people. Sometimes it’s so easily to get too consumed with that admiration that every time that happens, you push your level down 1 step, and then another and then another. I can easily make my bestfriend the example. Her life is undeniably The Best amongst us best buddies, evaluated using the standard guidelines that most of us use. She does so well in her profession, she achieves the level of professional, she has a stable and steady married life, she is doing her role as a daughter, as a friend, and as a worker , as a mother and as a wife – very good because she is particular about everything in her life. She won’t let any of the important things in her life left unattended. Recently she ventured into business and again, she made it. Just in a few months, the business is booming unexpectedly. What can I say?

I am surprised too that I could list all those in details. I never really put them into words before. I just know that her life is great. But after listing them all, again I am reminded that YES, without a doubt, her life IS great!! Only last week that we sat together at one table, chit-chatting like we were still back in college. The connection between us doesn’t change at all. Just, sat right there was her, whose life much greater than mine. *LOLS. Suddenly I felt ticklish pinpointing that again. Hehehe. You know why? It’s because how I made my words sound, it just doesn’t go along with what I feel. I just don’t know why, I think it must be something other than Ego, that made me think that I still can’t envy it “that way”. What I really feel is I’m glad and thankful to know that my bestfriend has reached the life that she wants. Yeah, she deserves it. She’s been working hard for it and now it’s time to harvest fruit from the labour.

The reason why I don’t feel envious is because I think it’s not fair to make me feel down about my own life while appreciating other’s. And I can’t do it when I pick this way, and it happens, and then I nag about the outcome of my own choice. NO. It’s not possible. This is it for me. I pick this way, and this way doesn’t look like a castle but it does have those “fairytale moments” that people won’t see unless they become me. Because of this, I might feel so small when I’m out with my bestfriend, but again, I don’t feel that way. Other than the fact, she doesn’t wear “My Life Is Better Than Hers” on her forehead, I honestly think I am equally grateful with my own life. Maybe my life is not that bad at all in their eyes too. Oh by the way, I should reveal this. My bestfriend just wrote a note to me yesterday. And it reads, “YOU ARE ALWAYS MY INSPIRATION.”

I put my hands together, saying my thankfulness to Lord above, most importantly is not because of giving me this life, but more about having the SENSES to realize and acknowledge how things work around here. Not everyone that has this life can see it that way. I’ve been through millions of miles in mind journey to be able to see things this way and I am NOT gonna waste any of this. Instead, I am gonna use this as my weapon and armour, to make me stronger and wiser - to improve my life. Again, I declare that our LIFE is not A RACE of speed. We are in our own individual track, where it’s totally our choice when and how long to walk, run and even pause and just sit there watching time slips. So it’s not about who finish the race first, but how worthwhile you make the journey towards the end of the line.

My friends, never let others hold you back. No one is leaving you behind. You are on your own race. If you become someone much better than before, that’s the way to go. Don’t worry about those who is moving so fast, never take their own life and put it into yours cos you have your own unique purpose in this life. So don’t be surprised that when you are busy admiring someone else’s life, someone else is busy admiring your life. IT’S A FAIR GAME. Against all the obstacles and temptations that will come your way this year, BE THE VICTOR, beat them all. We can do it. Best of luck, scream inside your heart, you are not gonna hold that warrior in you. It’s time to leash the warrior in you. Be a fighter. 2012 is a victorious year for us. Go make it happen. :) 

My new shoes for New Year...hehe

My 31 Days Blog Challenge

Hellooooooooooooooooooooo!!!! Look who’s here? 2012!!! Yes, my goodness, I am so thrilled and excited to welcome this year. This is a year full of controversy, a year that has been judged before it even arrives, that’s to mention a few. I bet this year holds a lot more excitement to us, other than that, not to worry too much, cos it can’t get any greater than our Creator. Agree, right? Yes, you get my point.

Anyway, I did a lot of sharing actually but it didn’t arrive to my blog, it got stuck at my Facebook. I am so sorry to my babyblog for not giving you my daily attention. I have no excuse for that but I put myself in a challenge that I will do at least one post daily, everyday with at least A PICTURE “of my life”, not from Google, not from anywhere. It will be sthing direct from my camera that I took myself, that mostly something that I associate with everyday, or just something that I own, or just anything that is related to me. INTERESTING isn’t it. I will do this to mark my affection towards my babyblog and then to RENEW and rejuvenate my blogging spirit that has slowed down in the past year. Let’s move ahead and I don’t believe I can’t perform better than that. Enuff with the talk alone, lets just walk the talk instead!!

Okay, the challenge begins TODAY!!

2011 Christmas Time Of Mine

Christmas... celebrating the birth of Christ. Although 25th Dec is not the exact date of the Birth of Christ, it doesn't matter. When you know the birth is that significant, and the existence brings life to the believers, there got to be the day to do the celebration. It can be any given day, my friends. Christmas Happens inside your heart :)

Anyway, my Christmas this year, which was yesterday, I did all my obligations first. After many years getting a little frustrated expecting too much from Christmas but gave very little, I tried to twist it a bit. I usually left one of my obligations in the previous years, it was whether I was too lazy, too tired or just clueless what to do. Not this year. I attended both masses, the Eve and the morning masses. Finally. I never attended both before this because I thought once was enough, but then I said, only once a year, is it hard to do? Enjoying the lovely Church choirs, that usually sounded many times better than during normal masses. They practiced a lot, I could see that. Their vocals were amazing. I was very thankful for their efforts. It meant a lot for those who came "for a journey"... beyond beliefs and religions, God is up there. The moment of connection and bonding, I bet it happens a lot to those who present at the church. The mood is just right. Now I understand it even more that yes, we can pray anywhere. But church gives the right atmosphere to really focus and concentrate on nothing else. Only you and that Greater power. :))

Here's a little token from my simple Christmas this year. I was so tired but very contented. Something that I keep forgetting, do not ask for so much when you are only willing to give so little despite the capability of giving more. "Give till it hurts...", I hope that can represent my aching legs, doing the cooking for hours. *LOLS. I wish to do moreee but I'll save it next occasion...hehe.

 

And one more. I know that some of you requested for me to record some Christmas songs and some of you already suggested some songs for me. Thank you, my lovely friends. I did record some of the songs for fun...but I felt so unfair if I left out one of the songs that u guys suggested, and I could not do all of them cos it took quite some times to look for the karaoke and do the recording... so I think this I will just pick a song and dedicate it to all of you... *LOLS...I recorded this song just after I wrote this post...please just accept all the imperfections since I could not bear to record it again and again...hehehe...Thank you, for still be around. Luv u all...:))

"Someone Like You"

Hearing the song Someone Like You by Adele, I started to wonder what did she mean by the song. It doesn’t really have one clear meaning. One part of it made me think that she was okay with the news that the guy found his new love, and another part made me think that she is kinda clingy and she was just talking in riddles, that actually she is not over the guy yet. Man oh man. Forever The Exs stories. When will there be a stop to this? How long are we gonna talk about the glory of our exes, which ex was better than which and who broke your heart the worst kind of way and who actually leaves the deepest wound in our heart? Until when that you gonna compare all the new person that you meet with your ex. Aren’t you tired? Don’t you guys feel it’s about time…To Move On?

Now that we are coming to the end of 2011, we are getting another year older. Our journey continues. How long are we gonna carry the excess baggage from our pastime hurts and the memories of the people who have walked away from our lives. The word Clingy is very lame to me. I hate that word. It used to be part of me, as much as I tried to deny it. Slowly I learn to “let go” and yeah it does feel different. It feels good in a way, but of course, there’s one side of me still entertaining the lil thought about the possibilities that could happen if I did not do some mistakes that I did in the past.

Whatever your attitude in handling these excess baggage is…eventually the best thing is to let them off your shoulder and walk with lighter steps, moving towards the infinite possibilities in front of us. Yeah, we might have lost some really wonderful people from our mistakes, or the people left us for someone else, yeah, we could continue on how we cried for weeks and months from that excruciating breakup. It’s still a topic that comes out everytime we hang out. Maybe the only mistake is to renew them everytime that we have less space for new memories to linger. The past can’t hurt us anymore, and don’t be silly to still be forcing the past to interrupt your life. It’s NOT worth it. 

Especially now that you are seeing someone else, some of us are still so busy bringing up about the good moments between them with their exes, without thinking that the person in front of them is THE BEST person at the present. Seriously, don’t do this because I asked you to. Do this because you finally come to the realization that it’s the best thing to do. Come on guys… you had good memories, but you can make better memories with the person who is still in your life. Time for a new book. Be thankful for once that those in your past have carved the person you become today, and then close the book, because you are not gonna waste the person you become by still reading the old fairytale over and over again. It’s like after reading Cinderalla story for countless of times, maybe it’s time to materialize the part of the Cinderella story that you really want to happen to you. It’s time to Live Life fully conscious and awake. We have done all the mistakes, we have been hurt and healed, Oh man, we are officially a well-equipped homo sapiens. Guys and girls, We are good to go. GOOD LUCK. *winks.

Note: For those who came to the end of this page will get to hear this amateur singing by me. I only properly listened to this song about 2 days ago and I said I would memorize it at least after I record a session singing it. I sang it many times, but when it finally came to recording it, I became quite tired already. I like this freedom to just be imperfect and feels perfectly okay about it. *LOLS. Kidding. Consider this a gift for my loyal readers. You guys rawk. Muahss.

Another Letter To Santa… I Am Not Sure.

Man oh Man. It’s 9th of Dec and why I feel so different? There is this thrill and excitement that should be there but aren’t there. Why is that? Christmas is approaching, and heck, it’s the best month of the year, I can’t just be sitting here not having that feeling of awe. One more. It’s the New Year. Yes, we are slowly leaving this 2011, a year that recently recorded a lot memories for you and me. Oh man. We are leaving THIS year!! Are you sure we have gone through almost 365 days to finally make this leap? Where are those people who complained that 2011 is a bad year despite only halfway going through it. I want to ask these people again just in case they’ve changed their mind. I seriously gonna expect some interesting answer. 

Ok, first thing first. Christmas 2011 is approaching...have you prepared your wishlist? Do you find it shorter or longer than last year? hehe. Whoaa, Santa's workload is seriously gonna be doubled this year. Hehe. What about my wishlist, you ask?

I used to have a wishlist for Christmas. Back in my first semester in University, I remember asking for a 3 point grade CGPA, I said to God, “…as my Christmas gift” and he didn’t give it to me. My heart was broken for more than once because I asked for something that I know I wanted but I was not given. Did I even study hard enuff to be a 3 pointer that time? I forgot to ask myself that question. The rest is history. I have quit asking for A Gift I don’t know I deserve. What I do now is “Get things done” earn the credit, Christmas day or not. Instead of just asking for this and that from God through my prayer, I go ahead and do my job. I slowly get what I want, one by one. By the time Christmas is approaching, I don’t know what else to ask for. Maybe I don’t really expect for a gift anymore. I just keep saying the same prayer that I say every other day. I pray that all the good things I have in my life, both Who I have and What I have, I wish to be given longer to have them in my life. Everything is looking neat now. Maybe a little messy here and there but I can handle them. I want to clean the mess… Don’t do it for me. I’m sure I am given all this capability to be able to handle things well, and I’m gonna do JUST THAT! So Santa… I’m glad that you exist in people’s imagination. At least we can make it sound like a joke when we ask for something ridiculous from God and we used you. Hehe. So, I’m gonna pretend to be saying to you, Santa, You Can Go To Rest. I mean, while the rest keep asking for a long list, I’m sure you have shortlisted candidates. Hehehe. (You shortlisted people, you better have your chimney ready. But I heard Santa has a flexible body, he can squeeze himself in even how small your chimney is. *LOLS. OK kidding.)

Thank you Lord… All the things I have learnt and understood, I feel like I can take it from here, discover more great things in store for us. What I leave to your care is protection for me and my loved ones, and all the nice people, from all the bad things around us. You have showed us so much mercy and never once that you have abandoned us although it took a while for us to see that You’ve been there all along. All the hardship that we have endured, is now in a form of armour that we can use to protect ourselves from doing the same mistakes again. I am so grateful, I could not say it enough, please let all this blessings stay as long as I deserve it. Thank you…muahss. :)

Note: For my Facebook profile, my avatar is in Santa Rina attire. Why not? It doesn’t mean that I don’t know that Christmas is about Christ and not about Santa. The Santa story brings this joy to the kids and it becomes a happy Christmas symbol, while what we learnt from our faith and religion will stay, and also grow, and not necessarily for a show. It’s not because we are ashamed of it, but we know peace and love that our religion promotes speak in universal language. If those can still reach out for the non-believers, WHY NOT. Let the wings of love and joy spread throughout the world, if some of them look at Christmas as a general celebration for people to gettogether and exchange gifts, let them. The Good Things Shall Remain Good. The way I see it. *winks. Peace out Peeps….:))