Are We Trying To Live Forever?

Banyak mitos2 yang kita dengar. Pantang larang yg kita elakkan selama ini and last2 bila kita find out benda tu actually not true pun. Makan tu tidak boleh mix dengan yg ini. Makan panadol tidak bagus, makan maggie tidak bagus, minum ais tidak bagus, Uii, banyak lahh. Ada2 seja pantang larang yang bersifat hearsay, dipassing secara membabi buta (just like org sudah passing berita nda sahih di social media) walaupun some of them adalah pantang larang turun temurun. But then when we read from some modern doctors, most of tu pantang larang adalah tidak perlu dan tidak betul pun. Still ada yang cakap, Ah, doctor apa tau? Nenek moyang kita amalkan semua ni dorang umur panjang pun.

Sia pun dulu terpengaruh dengan myth yg ubat-ubatan tu tidak baik. Jadi sia sanggup sengsara tunggu badan sia heal sendiri. Berlemah-lemah, berpeluh banyak sebab pantang sejuk untuk keluarkan peluh. Sandinya masa tu. Tapi masa tu sia jarang pening kepala so kalau setakat demam, buli la bikin self healing. And then bila sia start sudah pandai sakit kepala, sia tahan juga walaupun sengsaranya masa tu. Sebab sia pernah anti-ubat gara2 cakap2 orang. So sia adalah orang yg jarang sentuh ubat-ubatan masa tu. Until la sia nampak sendiri parents sia yg constantly pegi hospital, makan macam2 ubat untuk maintain kesihatan. They have been doing that since lebih 10 tahun lalu. Syukur, dorang punya kesihatan baik. Yang si pokemon satu ikur ni, berabis mau avoid ubat. Tapi still macam2 sakit sia dapat. Sudah lah selalu kena flu, sikit2 sarut suara, pas tu ada hati lagi mau berfikiran yang Medication is not for me. Mengelak ubat ni apa lah faedah dia kepada sia? Not even meng-improvekan kesihatan sia. Sama juga macam2 kejadian sama diri sia. Allergic la, apa la. Doii. Pernah sekali sia ingat, it was the nite of my birthday. Earlier that day kami ada buffet lunch di hotel. Malam tu we stayed at another hotel. Sia kena serang sakit kepala yang maha hebat. Ngam2 masa tu room tu macam bau smoke sikit, sia kan ada kepantangan sama asap sigup. Masa tu sandi betul situasi sia sampaikan sia rasa mau kena cabut nyawa sudah. Sia langsung tidak terfikir mau cari ubat. For me ubat is not an option. Which means sia kena sengsara la sampai dia baik sendiri. Masa tu sia turn tu shower and tadah kepala sia dengan harapan sakit tu akan hilang. I sat at the shower, pasrah menahan kesakitan. Sedangkan masa tu birthday sia. How far stupid would I willing to be?

Bila sia sudah endure macam2 benda gitu, akhirnya sia jadi macam orang lain juga, sia pandai sudah cari ubat bila sia sakit. Apa actually yang I'm trying to do? Am I trying to live forever? Yang kununnya ubat pun tidak layak utk masuk dalam sistem badan sia gara2 dia chemical dan akan ada side effects? Masalahnya, selepas meng-ignore ubat-ubatan tu semua, sihat ka sia? Jawapanya tidak. In fact sia lagi sandi dan sengsara. Hahahaha. Garsh, think again if you are like this.

Macam juga la something yg adventurous. Bila fikir balik, kenapa orang tu berani ah? Sia nda berani oh. Kalau sia yang bikin, inda tau apa akan jadi. Ok la, difahami juga kalau it's something dangerous. Sudah kau tau ia membahayakan diri kau, kenapa kau pi bikin kan? But benda2 kecil2 pun kita beralasan juga. Macam la diri kita ni nda buli dijentik langsung. Macam la kita ni akan cair bila kena matahari, or something like that. Macam pantang larang ni semua melimitkan perbuatan kita. Takut itu, takut ini. Akhirnya bukan pun hidup kita hebat. Sama juga biasa2 ja. What are we trying to do actually? Are we trying to live forever? If you say yes, you know you can never do that, right?

Kau takut tua, kau takut kulit berkedut, kau takut rambut putih and kau try to reverse all that. Jadi apa akan jadi kalau kau berjaya? Kau buli add umur kau lagi 50 tahun? Cos YOU DEFINITELY CAN'T LIVE FOREVER. You know that.

Bila sia terbaca kisah rumahtangga si Alif dan Bella, as usual la sia punya opinion is more to Bella better avoid Alif  lagipun dorang sudah bercerai. Teda guna jadi gila talak sama lelaki macam tu. Tapi tau la soal hati dan perasaan ni. Sometimes besar camana pun silap orang tu, kalau kau sudah sayang, kau akan cari jalan maafkan dia. Sia cuma imagine what kind of heartache si Bella will get herself into if dia setuju mau balik sama si Alif, cos looks like si Bella is not over Alif yet. Masih mau tarik perhatian dat guy yang memang womanizer. You can't own a man like him. He's not own-able, cos to him, he will never be the one-woman kind of guy. He will wander and look for a new thrill cos it's in his DNA. Then ramai yang maki si Bella sebab dia macam nda faham2 and nda serik. Sudah lah orang puas kesian sama dia, suddenly dia macam mangsakan diri dia. Terus sia imagine dia akan nangis teresak-esak lagi macam dulu. Jadi sampai bila la kan? BUT... suddenly sia FED-UP sama ni habit yang TERLAMPAU CAREFUL. Takut kena hurt, takut kena reject, takut itu, takut ini, uiii, nda abis2 ehh. Jadi kanapalah kalau si Bella hantam jaa kalau itu yg kasi happy dia? Paling2 pun dia sakit ati ja kalau kana tipu lagi. Paling2 pun nangis ja. Paling2 pun dia hilang berat sebab nda lalu makan. Tu ja pun kan. Kalau si Alif naik tangan, paling2 pun berbekas la badan la lebam sana sini, dia buli taruh ubat. SEBAB, kalau dia nda approach apa yg dia mau, kalau dia mau play safe dan pendam ja rasa hati dia, it's not like she can life FOREVER pun gara2 hati dia terjaga rapi dan nda pernah dilukai KAN? Hahahaha. I mean, apa ba yg kita cari ni sebenarnya? Itu elak, ini elak, are you sure mission kita is not trying to live forever ka? Bikin fed up kan semua DON'Ts dalam life kita ni? MACAM LA KITA LIVE AT LEAST ANOTHER 100 YEARS. Happy ka kita, sedih ka kita, still umur kita sampai mana juga kan? Kenapa la terlampau mau careful sangat? Macam la we get another shot at everything. MACAM LA KITA AKAN LIVE FOREVER bah. You get what I mean?

I mean, apa pun kau buat, how bad can it be? Paling2 pun kau akan MATI ja. Cos camana pun condition kita at this very moment, penghujung kita semua adalah SAMA. Iaitu kita tidak akan live forever. Jadi kalau sudah kunun kita sedar gini, will we do things differently ka kunun? Hahahahaha. Haishh...pandai2 la kita k. Susah mau sakap!!

LOLS :PP

Suami Mithali la Mangkali

Miang dan lelaki tu boleh dipisahkan ka? LOLS

Ok kidding. Teda idea sudah sia camana mau start. I want to make this brief.

Kununnya ndamau elaborate kes2 kemiangan cos sudah banyak kali mention kan. But my friend buli pula sebut something yang baru di pendengaran sia. My friend ni second wife kepada satu contractor, and perkahwinan dorang diketahui oleh bini pertama. Boleh dikatakan suasana bermadu yang "sihat" sebab dorang boleh berjumpa, boleh bertegur, boleh bercakap walaupun jarang juga dorang ada chance untuk buat begitu sebab kalau dari segi harta, definitely bini pertama tu dapat banyak kelebihan sebab ada anak dan kawan sia ni pula belum ada anak. But still semua org faham, bini pertama mana yang tidak jealous dan sakit hati walaupun di muka nampak dia senyum. My friend knows but sekurang-kurangnya tidak la dia bertapuk, nda la dia berisiko kena bubut pakai penyapu atau kana viral. Hahahaha.

So another friend of ours si janda hot ni, ada sorang laki orang yang berkenan sama dia. Hari2 hantar balik, keluar makan, kasi kawan ke sana ke mari, sedangkan ni lelaki ber-imej Suami Mithali. Pernah kerja di mahkamah syariah lagi. Lelaki tu mengaku yang orang tidak akan percaya kalau dia tu ada perempuan lain sebab dia betul2 jenis yg baik, bukan kaki perempuan, bertanggungjawab dan berkomitment tinggi sama family dia. Ada bini pun Ustazah yang baik serba serbi. Hidup aman damai besarkan keluarga sama2 sampai la pencen. Baru sekarang dia tersuka si janda hot ni. Balik2 dia kasitau tu janda yang dia mau bikin dia bini kedua. Tapi tidak juga ada tindakan. Dia tidak sampai hati tinguk bini dia yang sangat baik. Dia nda sampai hati cemarkan imej Suami Mithali tu. Cadangan dia adalah TUNGGU DIA JADI JUTAWAN dulu, lepas dia kasi bini dia dan anak2 dia beratus ribu duit, tu masa baru dia rasa tidak bersalah untuk kawin lagi. Masalahnya sudah 2 tahun berlalu, dia masih belum jadi jutawan! Hahahaha

Tapi keakraban dia sama tu janda hot semakin menjadi. Banyak juga la pengorbanan dan pertolongan dia untuk kawan sia tu dan anak2 dia. Tidak terkira sudah. Cuma ada syarat yang dia kena ikut. Dorang tidak boleh kelihatan bersama di tempat awam. So semua tempat2 happening, they cannot go together. Kalau si shopping mall, satu ikut pintu sini, satu ikut pintu sana. Lepas tu jumpa di kereta ja. So kawan sia rasa sangat tertekan dengan hubungan begitu. Tu lelaki agree juga mau nikah dulu TAPI cara kampung ja iaitu tidak berdaftar. Kawan sia ni inda mau begitu sebab dia teda hak yg sah sebagai isteri. So dorang gitu2 ja sepanjang dua tahun. So akhirnya kawan sia dalam dilema sebab dia betul2 mau teman hidup yg sah. But this guy is like a diamond yg buli tinguk seja tapi nda buli dimiliki sebab akhirnya dia paling utamakan bini dan anak2 dia dulu berbanding tu perempuan yg dia kejar2. So how la dat?

So si kawan yang bini ke dua ni, hilang sabar sudah dengan cerita dorang. Kebetulan tu lelaki adalah saudara mara dia, so dia rasa terpanggil untuk bagi opinion. 

BUDUHKAN LELAKI GITU? ADA HATI MAU MIANG, TAPI PENAKUT. TAPI PADA MASA YANG SAMA, GATAL DIA TU NDA JUGA DIA BULI CONTROL. Bila tinguk kes dorang ni baru sia respect betul sama laki sia oh. Sebab DIA MIANG TERANG-TERANGAN. MIANG YANG TIDAK TAKUT. BAWA PI JUMPA BINI PERTAMA, AKUN MAU KAWIN DAN AKHIRNYA KAWIN TU PEREMPUAN SECARA SAH. Bukan macam dorang. Keluar pun tapuk2 macam apa ja.  Kalau sudah begitu bagus kau jangan miang langsung dari menyusahkan semua orang. 

HUII, pedassnyaaaa. Hahahahahahahaha. Sia actually ketawa part yg dia akhirnya say something good sama laki dia yang biasanya dia maki seja tu. Hahahahaha. Dalam hati sia, Oooo...diam2 kau kagum juga sama laki kau ahh. LOLS.  Tapi kawan sia ni lucu. Sebab dia sometimes lupa yg dia sudah kawin. Dia nda anggap hubungan dia sama laki dia tu satu perkahwinan, dia anggap macam satu agreement ja sebab  dorang teda anak, teda harta yang laki dia kasi dia, cuma laki dia tukang jamin passport dia ja. So bila dia cakap sama sia, dia buli tersasul, "Ni la ba yang sia berjaga2 bila mau fikir pasal perkahwinan..." LOLS. OIIII, jadi yang si beliau tu bukan laki kau kah? Hahahaha. Terus baru dia teingat ahh. Hahahaha (Kebetulan laki dia ni jauh lebih tua dari dia)

So ngam ka opinion kawan sia yang sometimes terlupa dia bini orang tu? LOLS. Iaitu kalau kau nda buli control kemiangan kau, jan alang2. Kasi kasi sah tu perempuan kalau kau mengaku lelaki baik. Bukan kau main tapuk2, umpama sanggup kau jalan di bawah mija supaya inda kenampakan kau keluar sama perempuan lain. Untuk si Suami Mithali tu, umur sudah 60 plus, why not kau teruskan seja la bah jadi mithali daripada kasi spoil tu record bila di ujung2 sudah. Apa yang sia buli cakap sama kawan sia yang janda tu, Apa buli buat la kak. Dia sangat baik tapi dia tidak buli dimiliki. Better let go ja or else akan melukakan hati banyak pihak. Guess what, she is on the way to ditch that suami mithali out of her life now but is still struggling to do so sebab tu lelaki macam sonsog, tetap datang hari2. Tapi mimang bagus tu lelaki, sia akun lah. Cos sama kami semua pun dia baik. I think better dia stay jadi Suami Mithali untuk bini dia ja la, macam ngam sama peribadi dia. Tapi persoalannya, Miang dan Lelaki nda buli dipisahkan ba kali kan?

Hahahahahahahahaa. Oops. :PPP

Trust is The New Currency

Price is not everything. You can sell something for RM1 and still nobody wants it. So don't tell us that, Cheap is enough.

Then I come across an article with the sentence, TRUST, NOT MONEY, IS THE NEW CURRENCY.

When I read that the other day, I was startled at the sentence. Something hit me hard because I've been meaning this for  a while and never got it right. I always knew it that Price tag is not everything. I mean, people will admit that they are looking for a good price, but then when they deal with it in front of them, something else will decide for them. Trustworthiness, that is.

I think I always lose when it comes to price. At once I thought I lost it altogether.  Still I don't take any desperate measure trying to compete with them. I still stick with mine. Then I saw who come back. And keep coming back again. And those who made a u-turn. What happened to the cheapest price in town? Hey, why are you all coming back, I asked silently. I love that feeling when I found out the verdict of the experiments of customers' loyalty. And why you have it when you are not cheap. Then I try to remember back what my customers said.

Thank you for your commitment. Thank you that you never complain. Thank you that you always find a way to get it done. Thank you that you are not full of excuses. Thank you that you understand. Thank you that you stay up late just to get this work done. And wait, despite all that, I still don't expect them to be loyal cos I'm too imperfect to please people all the time. I might be able to do it once or twice but prepare to be let down by me. It's also too easy to let me down I don't want to make it worse with my expectation. I expect no loyalty from my customers. Sometimes I even give them the idea where to go so they can try and find out if someone else can do it better. "Just go away and be free!!" Because I am a customer too. I want my options. And I will pick one and choice is mine to make.

I believe that TRUST is the word. When you do it right a few more times, one of two mistakes they will pass and forgive. It will not be easy to shake. I remember this one most loyal customer I can name, they have made a mistake and I firmly made my self heard - which could be the end of us.  But no, they just kept coming back. They never told me why. They just said their boss love my work but then No, I'm just average. So I didn't believe it. Then I remember how I went extra mile to make research, to the point of arguing who is correct than who. Then in the end they actually acknowledged how seriously I took the job. Maybe they could see how I have my own standard to meet. Such a burden to me but an advantage to them. Maybe that's how I got their trust. 

Another one customer with the biggest impact. My own bestie. She is the bestie without mercy. It took her years before she could trust me to do something for her. But she saw how I keep doing my thing. She saw what I have done. The next thing she said, "Do whatever is right for you. I trust that you will have the solution to my request." She totally trusted me and never asked for the price first.  And I carried out my work, she was impressed (thanks to years of trials and errors) but then tell me again what's the currency for business nowadays? Yeah, IT'S TRUST!!

I'm very tired as I'm writing this but still manage to write this long. I need to let this go. To all of you out there, Trust is not just the currency for business, but also to LIFE. Trust is not something you can ask from people. You will only get it when they want to give it. And they need time to evaluate you. They might give it to you freely the first time, but once you prick it heartlessly like a balloon, it will be broken. It's difficult when there is no Trust. And if you are not able to be trusted, YOU LOSE. 

Now that we know this, we should do something about it, right? :)

Sindrom Frust

Kamu pernah kah alami satu situasi where suddenly kamu FRUST dengan something. It could be persekitaran, orang lain or maybe diri kamu sendiri. Nothing major happened but you just feel disappointed sikit. Why I said "sikit" sebab there's really nothing big happened to cause that disappointment. As if kau kutip sikit dari sana sini, and suddenly dia jadi "something" yang takes over you. I just gave it a name. I call it Sindrom Frust.

This is actually something new to my attention sebab biasanya kalau sia sad or feel bad about something, mesti adalah something yg telah terjadi yang clearly penyebab benda tu. Usually it started from orang lain. But Sindrom Frust ni seolah-olah start dari diri sia sendiri. I can't name one person who caused this. Sia punya frustration datang dari diri sia sendiri. If you recall my FB post 2 days ago, pasal sia bikin banyak kesilapan yang buat sia rasa malu tinguk cermin. Hahahaha. Actually it's true.  Kesilapan yang sia bikin tu adalah dalam kerja yang sia bikin. Sebab sia malas mau refer dan terus main redah ja. Akhirnya kesilapan tu bikin org lain unhappy and menyebabkan kerugian juga sebab ada item yang maybe sia kena bikin balik. Sepatutnya bukan level sia lagi bikin silap gitu sebab sepatutnya sia makin careful and benda2 yang sia bikin adalah sepatutnya lebih baik. Dan bukan sebaliknya. If you ask me why suddenly datang kemalasan untuk ikut protokol, sebab sia rasa too used to it, and tiba2 sia malas mau jadi macam budak baru belajar yang semua benda kena refer dulu untuk confirmation. Orang pun hairan why suddenly sia buat gitu sebab sebelum ni they know how careful I was.

Actually I felt this way since yesterday, and I tried not to show it. Sia masih kerja dan berkomunikasi biasa, but the fact is, I did it all only half-hearted. I already started to have that sindrom inside me. I know it's not me.. Sia adalah si 256 yang enthusiastic and sometimes ada energy yang terlebih-lebih kalau sia mau bikin something tu, to the point yang sia rasa head sia buli explode if anything goes wrong. Tapi baru2 tu boleh pula sia selamba ja buat mistake. Akhirnya the only person to blame is myself. 

Maybe I'm just to used to my routine. Maybe I need a break. I need new air. I need something new to get inspired by. What do you expect from a human being? Maybe ini lah antara limitation manusia yang we need to learn. Walaupun sekarang ni sia sedang alami benda tu, it doesn't mean I can't analyse it secara rational. I mean we heard stories how people got beaten up by their emotion to the point that they have Anxiety Disorder and then Depression. Whoa. It's no joke. People died from depression. I think they couldn't handle it when something peculiar like this shows up. Sometimes it's too overwhelming. Sia selalu baca orang tulis, but ada benda2 yang sia susah mau faham. It's like, Aik, macam tu pun buli rasa mau bunuh diri? We seriously don't understand what's going on. Sindrom Frust macam sekarang ni pun sudah boleh dikatakan sandi. Kalau last week sia nda sabar2 mau pi kerja. Now it's the opposite. I can still feel all the excitement at work but I want it to wait first. I need to get over this stupid sindrom. But I need to study this first so I know how to avoid it. Buli avoid ka ni?

Maybe betul lahhh, Your biggest enemy is YOURSELF. Kau fikir kau miliki diri kau, kau fikir diri kau adalah kau, so you don't recognize when the battle comes from within. Kekacauan yang berlaku dalam kepala kau adalah totally domestic issue. Kau mesti tau tangani benda2 domestic ni sebab kepala tu pun kau punya juga. Memang teda org lain yg lebih tau. Thats why sia percaya kalau org cakap kenapa travelling tu bagus sebab dia TUNE BALIK benda2 gila yang tersasar dari kepala kau. Bila kau sedar dunia di luar tu luas, experience benda baru and persekitaran baru. It can also makes you miss your life, makes you realize more of your blessings, and nda pasal2 ada satu semangat baru. So jangan heran why recreational places adalah tumpuan ramai. Everytime lepas jalan2, mesti ada komen, Macam sia lebih bersemangat oh lepas balik dari jalan2. So guys, apa yg I can say right now is, kalau kamurang terkena ni Sindrom Frust, it's okay to slow down a bit. Give yourself time untuk relax, rehat cukup2. Bikin la aktiviti yang slow and easy. No need to tekankan kepala kamurang yg sometimes tinggi permintaan dia (sia cakap pasal diri sendiri kali ni...hehe). Dan percaya la, hari2 yang lebih baik is waiting for us. Kau kena prepare seja untuk menjadi lebih bahagia. Prepare to be more lucky. Kalau kepala kau stuck, kau baca la benda2 yang buli kasi un-stuck kepala kau. Watch romance movies ka, watch comedy ka, baca memes ka, sebab sia percaya HAPPY POINTS berada di sekitar kita. Kau kasi ignore dorang, kau yg rugi one happy moment. So guys, kalau la kamu alami Sindrom Frust ni, you know you are not alone. I'm trying to overcome this too. Kasi chance dia satu hari seja la ok? Limpas malam ni kita baibai sudah sama dia. Nasib baik esok cuti Malaysia Day. We should have enough time to go back to work penuh dengan aura positif ready untuk menjangkitkan orang lain dengan aura tu...Hehehe. So guys, lets do this ok?

There Are People...

Si Nenek Kebayan Sebelum Masanya

Pernah sia ternampak satu post di Fb, pasal orang2 dari negara lain nda meletakkan umur sebagai batasan or alasan untuk buat apa yang dorang mau buat. Berbeza dengan orang negara kita, yg menganggap umur yang meningkat tu adalah satu doomsday untuk manusia. Dengan language yg paling brutal dan senang difahami, makin tua kau, makin kurang la "value" kau sebagai orang, dan semakin kurang lah kegunaan kau di muka bumi ini. Aduhh, nda sakit kah kena cakap "nda berguna?"

Long time ago, sia teringat keluhan satu orang kakak ni. Balik2 dia mengeluh guna point yang sama, iaitu "mau masuk 30-an ni, badan makin lemah, tidak kuat sudah macam dulu." Masa tu dia cakap dia mau bikin kerja yang sesuai sama umur dia yg nda bertenaga sudah tu kunun, padahal baru mau masuk 32 masa tu. Hahahahaha. Tapi masa tu sia belum terasa mau ketawa sebab sia pun blur, wondering juga betul ka inda. Tapi sekarang sia mau ketawa pula bila ingat.

Di kalangan kawan2 kita sendiri, mesti ada terselit dua tiga yang memilih untuk "kalah dengan umur". Sikit2 cakap, dulu time muda buli lah. Selalunya merujuk sama aktiviti masa dulu, contohnya dulu dia selalu jalan kaki dari CP ke Wisma Merdeka. Sekarang ni, Ah, malas. Nda sanggup sia jalan kaki macam tu lagi. Mesti merujuk kepada umur, sedangkan dia merujuk kepada beberapa tahun yg lalu ja, dia belum pun jadi nenek kebayan masa dia buat rujukan tu. Dia masih ada tenaga dan kesihatan untuk tampiling urg sampai pingsan kalau dia mau. Hahahahaha. I mean, ya la sia faham juga kalau sudah usia emas, lain cerita bah. Ini kau masih di lingkungan yg sama, tapi sudah kau jadikan umur kau tu satu kepedihan dan kesengsaraan.  Actually, kalau sia dalam situation yg sama, I refuse to do something that I used to do, sebab, "Balik2 sudah sia bikin tu benda, macam malas sudah mau susah payah jalan gitu jauh" Which means sia buli ja bikin kalau tiba2 sia mau bikin, tapi sia choose not to sebab banyak sudah benda yg lagi penting sia kena bikin sekarang. Bukan macam dulu yg banyak masa ukur jalan. See the difference? Then ada lagi satu rungutan kawan sia ni. "Otak sekarang ni lembab sudah, nda kreatif. Teda sudah idea yang fresh. Mau suruh yang budak2 pelatih tu la tolong fikir." Pun sia protest in silence. "Aiks, kenapa pula gitu?" Bukan patutnya dia yg sudah experienced, dia lagi power dan master dalam bidang tu? I mean, kalau la ada Stairs of Power, dia ni belum sampai atas, dia sudah berabut mau turun. PELIK ooo. Sia betul2 terkejut sama mindset begitu. Orang lain sibuk mau climb itu stairs, up lagi, up lagi, sampai la one day kau rasa kau sudah capai tu level yang paling up, yang kau sudah mampu kasi turun ilmu sama orang lain. Sia punya mindset gitu. But bukan macam tu ja sia dapat ni mindset. Sia sendiri pun bikin observation juga sama diri sendiri as well as orang keliling sia.

Kalau la betul kita ni merosot dengan umur, kita tidak akan lebih sihat dan bertenaga dari masa kita muda, betul? But banyak kali sia tersedar yang dulu tahap kesihatan sia adalah kurang baik compared to now. Kalau dulu kena flu ja mesti takes 1 - 2 weeks tanpa berpantang sejuk. Kalau berpantang sejuk boleh sembuh beberapa hari tapi mesti rehat gila2, sesi berpeluh yg menyeksakan. Sia memang si lemah kalau pasal influenze ni. Suara sarut sampai lebih sebulan. Tapi sekarang, ada beberapa kali sia kasi reverse tu sakit sebelum dia jadi, dan kalau sudah jadi pun sia buli sembuh express tanpa berkurung berpanas. Sia pakai mask untuk cover hidung dan still boleh kena sejuk dan rasa selesa. Tidak payah over2 mau sweating. Mungkin sebab sia kena kerja, sia nda buli manjakan diri. But my point is, sepa cakap kau makin berumur, kau semestinya makin lemah?

Speaking of kecerdasan otak. kita mungkin pernah lalui zaman bodoh dan zaman pintar. Zaman bodoh bila result teruk, tapi reason dia mesti pasal kita malas dan leka kan? Bila kita insaf, buli juga kita up balik dan perbaiki la prestasi kita. Speaking of this, sia miss juga tu masa yang urang kasitau sia, pintarnya kau ni (kunun), sikit2 dorang akan highlight bab itu sampai sia rasa, Eh, sia smart sudah ka sekarang ni? Apa topik yg sia cakap pun dorang akan pandang dari segi "eh pintar juga dia buli cakap begini ah". Tiba2 lupa pula sia cuma si bodoh ja di skul menengah. Are you sure sia pintar sudah sekarang? Hahahahaha. Ok kidding. What I mean is sia sudah lalui juga zaman yg orang appreciate sia pasal ada juga la sijil walaupun sijil yg nda laku, dan dorg appreciate sia punya pandangan, dorang selalu highlight idea2 sia yg bagus, sia pun nda sedar bila lagi sia mula pick up balik dari zaman kejatuhan sia. Kamu tau ka dulu sia si buduh dapat result teruk? LOLS. So, again, sepa ba cakap yg kau makin berumur kau akan deteriorate? Tapi sia mau add sikit pasal ni. Of course makin kau berumur, less and less people and easily impressed sama kau sudah. Sebab ORANG MEMANG JANGKA kau patutnya bagus bila kau capai age ni. Teda sepa heran sudah kalau kau pandai itu dan ini. Nda sudah kau dengar org puji2 cakap kau smart like it's a big deal.  Cos semua tu sudah dijangka dengan kematangan usia kau. Ok that one you have to face lah. Jadi, masih cakap kau ada lesen untuk nyanyuk sebelum usia? Uiii, jan talampau bahh. Bulum lagi kau sampai sana. Kenapa mesti mau kalah sama usia? Mindset oh mindset!

Even pasal pelupa or pencuai. I'm both. Tapi bila sia ingat2 balik, rupanya dari dulu sia begini. Sebab sia punya fikiran ni semak macam ofis sia juga bah. Kalau lipstick hilang dalam semak ni belum tau kau dapat cari. Lipstick tu umpama hal sehari2 yang kau buli terlupa. Kalau sia try hard enough, I can remember better. Makin meningkat usia, makin banyak benda mau difikir. So kesemakan itu bukan makin sikit. Makin kusut pula. So makin senang la lipstik tu mau hilang kan? So sia kena ubah sikit cara tu. Be more organized. Be more systematic. Ini faktor pengurusan and not umur! Selagi sia nda bikin, sia begini2 ja la. Or sepa tau mungkin sia prefer macam ni. Sia adalah si 256 yg penyemak and thats how I function maybe? Hahahaha. My point is, kau buli jadi pelupa dan pencuai no matter what age you are. Jangan overacting, bila sikit2 lupa, ahh begini la kan tua sudah. Why so not kesabaran jadi nenek kebayan ka

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After all said and done, somehow kita nda buli defy science tubuh badan manusia. Of course at one point, prestasi badan kita akan mula menurun. Memang ada biological clock juga semua tu. Tapi JANGAN KASI AWAL sebelum masanya. Selagi kita masih in productive years, sudah2 la beralasan umur meningkat setahun dua, kita sudah berlagak macam nenek kebayan. Hoiii. Apa keuntungannya buat gitu? Sia paling malas kalau kawan2 sia yg macam ni, start to becakap macam nenek2, and then use the word "KITA" as if sia pun ber-mindset sama macam tu. NO, I'M NOT LIKE YOU. Sia masih mau naik tangga. Selagi sia belum sampai atas tu sia belum buli turun. Mindset Nenek Kebayan ni actually sangat merugikan sebab kau rasa kau BERHAK untuk mundur. Kununnya tidak salah kalau kau teda kemajuan. Tidak salah kau tidak ambil serious kerja kau. Tidak salah kau membuang masa bikin hal teda faedah, kunun-kununnya kau kan si nenek kebayan yang harus dilayan macam orang tua2 yang tidak berdaya. YA AMPUN. Sudah2 lahhhhh. Buli bahh kau ungkit peningkatan usia kau as a way to be humble macam orang yg sudah makan garam, but motivasi kau untuk terus ke depan tidak payah pula jadi ala2 nenek kebayan sebelum masanya! Paham ka? Hahahahah

Challenging juga la berada dalam kelompok kawan2 yang bermindset nenek kebayan, sikit2 pasal umur. Baru 30-an sudah cakap style macam tu, apa lagi nanti masuk 50-an ah? Sia pernah jadi orang yg beralasan. Sikit2 alasan. Tapi sia pun pandai bosan sudah sama alasan. Sia mau kasi kurang tu alasan walaupun belum completely. Jadi sebab sia mau beat tu perangai yg banyak alasan, sia jadi cepat pissed sama urg yang masih perangai gitu. Lame gila urg guna alasan "sudah tua" jadi tidak mampu bikin tu semua. Kalau kau surrounded by people yg ber-mindset gini, kau kena kuat sikit supaya dorang terikut arus kau instead of kau yg terikut arus dorang. Bukan senang kan? But ya la. Point sia clear. Life cuma sekali. Banyak lagi kelemahan kita dari azali yg selalu kita jadikan alasan, nda payah kita pi bikin2 baru dengan mentaliti yg kalah dengan umur sebelum masa. Jangan dipupuk mindset gini. It's bikin rugi right? 

Pecayalah la. Banyak lagi milestone kita buli capai sebelum betul2 jadi nenek kebayan. Jadilah nenek kebayan yang vogue. Bukan yang perasan2 nenek sebelum masanya. Geddit? :PPP

The Most Epic Guy from mIRC

Hi guys! It's 1st of September! Wow bulan 9 sudah o dari 12 bulan. Sempat lagi capai goal yg gemilang itu. Lets keep on striving! Sempat lagi niii...hehe

So alkisahnya, a few days ago time sia di toilet, buli2 fikiran sia melayang teringat this one guy bah. My oh my. Camana sia buli teringat ni orang cos maybe he was seldom mentioned or referred to in this blog since I first made it in 2008. Baru recently sia buli entertain some thoughts about him. Fikir punya fikir, ingat punya ingat, dis guy is in fact the Most Epic of all the great people I know from mIRC. Mesti kamu curious kan. You will know in bit.

Actually his story was so long time ago that I actually forgotten about him. I first found him when I just started to learn how to chat in mIRC, that time I was studying in PJ. I remember that cybercafe, located near Sunway Pyramid. He was in Sabah. Maybe that's only one time when I chatted with him. The next time after I went back to Sabah, I went to a cybercafe in Luyang, and found his nick again and he still remembered me. Then we started going to email. We email each other a few times a day, everyday! Then he started to send me snail mails, cards, I remember he often used that Dijamin Sampai Esok envelope. He was indeed someone close to me but I never had any feelings towards him. In fact I didn't have any kind of romantic feelings towards anybody that time. Told you I was a late bloomer. So, everything sounds normal, right? Lets cut the story short. I will tell you why he's end up as the most epic one. Some of the things he did were:

1. He first sent me a perfume set for Christmas gift. Before that I never received any expensive gift in my life.

2. He sent me a gold pendant in the shape of key for my 21st birthday

3. He sent me a Ted Lapidus pen for one occasion, I don't remember what. Could be another birthday.

4. He was the first guy who heard me crying on the phone (he found me during my immature age, sorry bout that...hehe)

5. For one Valentine, we made a challenge. He wanted me to make a handmade card for him, I did. That time he told me, "Kau salah course sudah ni cos he said the card was really beautiful, I shouldn't be wasting my time in Science stream" In return, he gave a big Hallmark card with the pricetag RM18.90 at the back. Back then it was super expensive especially for a student like me.

Oops. These all sounded so normal right? In fact, not epic at all. Hahahaha. But I'm not done yet!

Actually we started to slow down during my final year. Because he was not anymore the only one I talked to. I was busier with my life and new guyfriends who were close in age cos he was quite many years older. We became less close day by day. The last time he joked about was, "Could you be my mrs? but of course I took it as a joke. I never liked him that way. Maybe he saw that it wasn't going anywhere. I never even wanted to meet him because to me, I just enjoyed our friendship that way. After months of silence, the next time he told me, he was getting engaged. I was so shocked that time. I said, How come you didn't tell me first?? Of course he shouldn't cos it's not like I showed to him that I cared enough. I was just an ignorant girl who he wasted years on and still got nothing. I remember his request, "I want to meet you first and last time before I get engaged." Even that request I didn't take seriously. Okayy, this is not the epic part yet. Here it comes.

I forgot to tell you that he's working in the HR Department of a government organisation. I knew that for a long time. Without any plan, as fate would have it, my sister went to his department to send an application letter. He saw my sister's form and caught the similarity in our names, and he ran after my sister, "Are you 256's sister?" My sister said yes. Then he suggested my sister to apply for a higher position because of her qualification. Imagine that he talked to me for years, he bought me expensive gifts, but it was my sister who he met first. So my sister had her chance but after she failed to get the post simply because there was someone else who was much more qualified and there was only one post. He told me from the phone that "your sister didn't make it". Ok fine. To me it was nothing. My sister met him by chance and not from my recommendation or me asking for his help. I didn't plan to ask him to help either. I didn't even know they were going to bump! So my sister missed the job. A few weeks after that, he called me again, "Does your sister want this job as a ..... but it was just diploma scale. IF SHE WANTS, JUST ASK HER TO COME TO MY OFFICE with all the documents." That time, my sister was already working as a clerk in a legal firm. Of course she jumped at the opportunity. I should highlight that my sister's course was not really suitable for that post. But because of that guy, she got the post just like that! And he told it to me so casually, like giving me a phonecall instead of calling my sister directly in a formal phonecall. It's like, this favour was actually for me instead of my sister. Before that, he told me many times how tough his job was because his relatives been asking for the same favour too but he had to disappoint them because he could not really help that much. So I know he's done a very big favour - in return for the friendship we had. Suddenly I feel touched all over again. Hehe

Before I graduated, he asked me, "Do you want me to chip you in (our department) too?" Of course I said no. I didn't want to be a government worker and something about my stupid ego would just refuse his help again. So I thought, he helped my sister was an enough favour. I didn't deserve to ask for more.

So that was many years ago ya. Because of his favour, my sister has a good job and good salary. In fact, now she has her own office room after being promoted. By helping my sister, he was also helping the whole family because my sister was the family's backbone since she got the job. Today, dat guy is STILL AROUND and still my sister's superior. He is now happily married with a few kids. The impact of his help back then, means a lot to my family. And it all began with the first hello on mIRC. How can he not be the most epic guy I know from mIRC? You get it now? Hehe

Only recently yang sia terfikir tiba2. KALAU lahhh sia terserempak sama dia, what would I say to him? Actually that idea of bumping into him is now acceptable. Masih belum bangas ka kalau sia mau cakap thank you sama dia ah? I will notify that to him that he is still the most epic guy I know from mIRC, and I will add to that, "biarpun banyak lagi orang2 yang interesting and happening sia kenal di IRC"...Hehe

To all those who I know after him, some of you still in my Fb lagi kan. Sampai today kita bercakap and berjoking sekali sekala. Kamurang tau lagi my blog. This guy teda all that advantage. So jangan majuk kalau sia panggil dia yang most epic ok? Hehehe. Maybe someday ada yang ambil that crown kan? Not impossible :P