Pernahkah berlaku dalam life kamu yg kamu rasa kamu managed to do something so impossible? Yang urg bilang ibarat menunggu kucing bertanduk, iaitu level impossible dia tu begitu tinggi. Dengan reluctance kamu, dengan denial kamu, dengan fright kamu, macam2 lah penyebab kenapa kamu selama ni mengelak bikin sesuatu, but tanpa diduga, one day you find yourself doing exactly that impossible thing.
Most probably you gonna take time and feel so in awe, sebab macam berlaku sekelip mata ja semua tu. Most probably you gonna look up and say, God, you showed me your miracle again. Alleluia. Yes, you acknowledge it was God's work all the day. But macam kita terlimpas sesuatu. Sia sendiri baru jua recently terfikir benda ni. Any idea yet?
Iaitu...setiap miracle yang terjadi sama kita, yes, memang adalah God's work and God's mercy, no doubt about it. But look at us. Siapa la kita ni kan? Memang kita ni undeserving to begin with. Macam nda layak untuk terima blessing yang begitu besar, apa lagi when selama ni kau memang sudah confirm benda tu impossible. Maksudnya, kau sudah terima kenyataan dari awal lagi yg you would not do it for the rest of your life. But ternyata kau cuma insan kerdil yang tidak berdaya. You are that powerless in comparison to the hands that really have power on you. Sampaikan kau sudah bilang Tidak, boleh bertukar kepada Ya. So considering semua tu, adakah kau The Chosen One sampaikan begitu bertuah? Jawapan dia adalah - Ada sesuatu beside God's generosity, iaitu the PRAYERS of your loved ones. Yes, read that again.
Sia pernah terleka kejap bila sia fikir yang sia bertuah single-handedly sebab God blesses me in such a way. Bila it keeps coming to my head, How can this miracle happen to me? Berkali2 sia fikir, then baru sia terfikir, HOW HARD MY LOVED ONES pray for me everyday. From the day when it didn't cross my mind yet, until now - Yes, sia lalui macam2 kesukaran. Berbekalkan sikit keazaman. I did go through traumatizing time. Sia selalu hamparkan sacrifices sia, kesusahan sia untuk claim tu credit utk diri sia sendiri. Tapi still, things could be harder. Then sia terfikir, No way it was my own hard work. Sebab kalau sia teliti balik, memang ada elements yang anytime could fail me. Memang sah bukan kerja sia. Memang sah!
Macamana sia buli begitu confident untuk pernah terfikir yang semata2 God kesian sia. Bila sia terfikir pasal prayers yang datang daripada orang2 yang sayang sia, baru it really does make sense now. I know they've been praying really hard selama ni. Because my situation is not easy and not that normal. To knock some senses into me, to make me realize and fight my belief, to open my heart to give it a try, semua itu BUKAN KERJA SIA. Biarpun memang ada effort from my side, tapi yang open that way was not me. I was just doing very little, mostly with heavy heart, with constant complaining. It was torturing at one point.
Fast forward to today, I still couldn't believe. So to myself, remember this, all the fears, all the doubts, the worries, they don't deserve a place here. I have fought them all because God answered the prayers of these people. Remember this, punyalah powerful prayers ni. Remember that whenever your life is good and well, these strong prayers have been covering you. There are people who truly want your wellbeing and want you to live well. And your job is to carry your mission responsibly, acknowledge these people that they want you to live well, so you go ahead and live well and stop thinking the impossibles. If this one impossible has been made possible, please do not think any less of the prayers and the power who answered that prayer. Indeed, you are that answered prayer yourself.
Alleluia.
